Suicidal urges are pretty strong tonight. I just want to fucking die. A feels thread would be nice

Please don't do it user. Stop caring about what others think about you. You don't owe them anything. When was the last time you asked someone out?

People are cruel, but they can also be nice if you make them feel good about themselves. Try to look for the good qualities in people and subtly compliment them about them to make them like you. You don't have to fake it if you don't want to, but this is a good way to get people to like you. And don't do anything drastic right now. This too will pass. You will get a job and be successful and you will find people who understand you and who you like to be with. You just have to keep looking for now.

I guess. Wish we lived in the same town so we could go out for drinks or something though. Never had a friend.

>my only e-friend who's been slowly ghosting me for months has finally ghosted me for good, not a single message from her in almost a month
What should I do? I can't live without her.

We're your friends user, even if we can't be irl. Which state do you live in?

Las Vegas, Nevada

Have you tried telling her that? Or does that seem too desperate, idk?

I'm near San Francisco, CA. Maybe we can meet halfway sometime?

She already rejected me after leading me on for months, but I thought we'd at least stay some kind of e-friends since we used to talk all day every day.

So does she just ignore your messages now? Maybe make it clear that you still want to be her friend?

Damn that's far even for people in cali lol.

But sure. I don't have a WhatsApp anything tho.

She used to just give one word replies, sometimes she gave one sentence replies but stopped replying after a few messages, but the main thing is that she just suddenly stopped messaging me first. I'm sure that if I didn't message her at all, she'd just eventually remove me.

My email is [email protected].

Try asking her why she doesn't respond as frequently to your messages anymore. Clarify that you still want to be friends with her and just enjoy talking to her.

>Suicidal urges are pretty strong tonight
Me too user. Admittedly I've been drinking a bit too much though. Alcohol is a pretty poor cope.
Yeah I relate to this. Been that way since I was a kid though. Kinda realised I wasn't "normal" but learned really quickly how to act in different social situations. Hard to reconcile this though because I don't really have a personality anymore, I just play to the crowd. Means I can't really have too many people I know in one space because they'll see how differently I act.

I did that back when the "rejection" happened, that's when the ghosting intensified. She basically called me a needy orbiter, not in that exact wording.

Haha thanks for fucking reminding me user. I started speaking to a girl from here a while ago and I'm getting dropped. I'm lucky I got more than two words out of her despite the fact she used to message me constantly. I'm not sure what changed but I'm not going to beg her for attention. Not anymore.

what do you mean you play to the crowd?

Try to get a straight answer out of her and report back, I couldn't get anything, she just weaseled out and implied that if I pushed the issue she would just stop talking to me.

Pretty similar situation. What cartoons do you like?

Pretend to be the person they want you to be. If people think I'm someone else I can get what I want easier. It means I end up needing to learn a few different things about different cliques but it helps me get what I need.

You can find other people to talk to online then. You don't need her user.

Nah I'd rather just leave it cold to be honest. She's probably just found a new guy to talk to when the novelty I brought wore out. That's life though, guys are nothing more than parts to be changed out. You should do the same though user. You probably enjoyed talking to her but it's not worth sacrificing your dignity over.

I don't really think that she'll ever come back as she was before, but I still want to know for certain what the problem was, to decide whether I should completely give up on life or not. It's a tough decision and I shouldn't be basing it on assumptions.

I don't want other people though, she's the only person I liked talking to in the last 10 years.

Sounds pretty psychopathic tbqh
t. amateur psychologist

how the fuck do you find e girls to talk to

Then try making amends, and maybe she'll start replying again after a while.

Idk, mostly luck I guess.

I do pretty much the same thing user. Where's the harm if it's a win-win for both parties? They get to feel good about themselves and I get to not be a complete social outcast.

It all depends on why you're doing it. The other user said he does it to get what he wants so he's essentially putting on a mask to manipulate people. Pretty sure that's a defining feature of psychopathy.

Yeah I just talked to her now. She said it was my fault basically. I don't believe her but there ya go. I don't even recall the last time we spoke before this.

>She said it was my fault basically.
How? I remember having a similar talk, with some similar vague shit that I didn't want to push at the time.

Sure, I guess that's also a factor here. But I still don't think it's that bad though.

She's saying I didn't really put too much effort in either. I'll admit I've been preoccupied with exams and shit but I still tried, I got fuck all back off her. It's an excuse though, let's be honest. Easier to shift blame than to say "I'm not that into you."

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Fuck, I had a suspicion she wanted to trap me into the same trap. If we ever have a talk about this again, I wouldn't be surprised to hear that "I gave up on her" even after trying to talk to her for a year and getting almost no responses, just because I eventually stopped trying that often because I looked like a retard even to myself.

Yeah you've just got to know when to throw in the towel, I'm nearly at that point anyway. I'm not a dancing monkey and I'm not there to entertain her. Like I said though I'm pretty sure it's just an excuse, would be nice if there was just some honesty.

Paypal me your money first cartoon manchild bro.

Try looking at archived Jow Forums SIG threads and lurk through there to figure out many different solutions to any of your problems. Other than that mate, food is important and what you intake is also essential. Try taking some probiotics (gut bacteria influences depression) and some smart drugs to help your fucked up nervous system fix itself.

I've had the same problem for nearly my entire life and I don't know how to deal with it. The problem is dealing with how to fundamentally give a shit. I can't do it. I can't force myself to care about anything. I know normalfags joke about
>I couldn't give less of a shit xd lol
But I ended up dropping out of High school because I couldn't give enough of a shit to show up to class. I lost most of my friends because I couldn't muster the energy to even maintain friendships. I was homeless for a while because my parents kicked me out for not doing anything after highschool. My grandparents picked me up eventually. Being homeless was sort of annoying because I couldn't browse Jow Forums all day. It wasn't that bad though and I could see myself just being homeless when my grandparents croak. Material things don't interest me at all.

How do normies care about things? How do they have interests? What separates me from them? How do they maintain a job when I would just quit after the first day? I always wondered what motivates normal people to do things.

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I know the feeling user. I've just been playing guitar all day. I was homeless for a little while before and that's how I filled my days then too. Do you have any copes like that?

>How do normies care about things? How do they have interests? What separates me from them? How do they maintain a job when I would just quit after the first day? I always wondered what motivates normal people to do things.
I would too like to know the solution for absolute apathy.

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i almost killed myself yesterday but my parents got home and i decided not to.

i thought i definitely would this summer but im having second thoughts now, not sure which side ill end up on

>Break up with girl
>Regret it a few months later
>Try and reconnect, offer to take her out on a proper date and start from the beginning
>Get told to fuck off
>Get in a few other failed relationships, end up just getting lied to or used
>Find out that ex started dating another guy
>Feels like a I got kicked in the head by steel-toe boots
>Haven't been able to sleep
>Antidepressants stopped working
>Want nothing more than to hold her in my arms and tell her how much I miss her
>It will never happen
I feel you there user. I love my mom and my grandma more than anything and they're the only reason I'm still here.

Why would you do that user? Also what method were you going to try

because ive had enough, there has been no joy these twenty years and every further day is painful

i will purchase a shotgun from my local arms dealer and shoot my brain from the roof of my mouth

Why can't you turn things around?

my life is in order, there's nothing to turn around. a sort of grim understanding of the consummate blackness of the universe dawned upon me and has hence begun to dominate my worldview.
my brief happiness was from youth and unknowing, i've lost too much to the point where i only feel emptiness, not sadness.

and ultimately i realized that the black hole in my heart was not some art festering inside me but rather an all-pervasive hollow nothingness. sorry that sounded really angsty, tldr im miserable and have been for years, that wont change. im pretyy much done

Think they have annual meetups for aspies if you can relate to not understanding social matters.

reddit af. is the inside of your head just screaming

urges are temporary user, they'll leave and they'll probably return, and leave again. take a hot shower for 20 minutes.

This. I thought about killing myself more times than I can count, but the one thing I learned is that it always goes away.

Time goes on, people change from minute to minute. Feelings change.

I was depressed for half of my life and suddenly I don't want to die anymore. It almost feels like I just waited and some reason something changed. I'm not suggesting people shouldn't try and get better because I still struggle a lot and have passive suicidal ideation regularly, but it's not nearly as bad as it used to be.

I guess I just got tired of not doing anything eventually. I was too jealous of the normies and resentful and kept asking myself "why can't I have what they have?" I guess I'm just tired of being left out, so I want to try to live my life happily.

add me on discord, i will socialize with you :))
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Even if you arent op, but still need some frens just add anyways then.

look into schizoid personality disorder, you remind me of myself

I don't get why people don't just want to talk to each other on the internet. You used to be able to talk about anything, now you always have to go through the same orbiting/ghosting cycle with everyone. Am I really the only one who finds talking to others fun in and of itself?