my date of suicide is nearing and for some reason I've been feeling extremely happy and wholesome and I don't know why.
usually im not like this, I usually feel WAY WAY worse most of the time. though as soon as I set a date to leave this world, I begin to get increasingly happier.
im quite disappointed in feeling so joyous and feeling obliged to leave at the same time. otherwise i go back to my same old lethargic self again.
idk what to make of this, ill just enjoy this good feeling while it lasts before i go.
maube it's ur guardian angel... telling you to not commit suicide don't lose hope user
Kevin Diaz
Most people who kill themselves fell happy in their final days because they know it will all be over soon.
Austin Richardson
Not reading all that blogging nigger. Noone will miss a fucking faggot zoomer frog posting cuck. The faster you end yourself the closer we will be to old r9k nigger scumfuck degenerate
Kayden Thomas
Jesus Christ gives me hope user, some days I wake up and I want to be a father and gave a wife.
Dominic Young
you are peopably in the menia stage, get treated for bipolar
Zachary Jenkins
It's because now you feel like you have control over your suffering and also because your body is trying to trick you into staying alive
Asher Parker
youll never get your old r9k back retard. the zoomers will replace us faster than we kill ourselves :P
Ryan Cook
My story is similiar to the one of Dead (Pelle Ohlin from the band Mayhem) I did the same things he did before ending it all, the only difference is that the recoil saved me and I can confirm that what said is completely true, the sooner you know you'll leave this life, the happier you are, in fact both me and Pelle seemed super happy to our neighbours
somedays i fantasy having sex my crush in our wedding night including awkward the whole experience is due to us being unexperinced, then fantasy about the next day where i wake up and remember that we got married, find her next to me, smile and kiss her. i actually comeback to reality and realise none of this will happen to me but instead, to somebody else
Connor King
OP here, yeah i have those fantisies as well
oh well c'est la vie
Angel Robinson
I was heavily suicidal throughout my teenage years and early twenties. I can only speak for myself. The reason you're feeling "happy" is due to your brain playing a trick on you.
Obviously nobody knows what death is like, and most people don't have any experiences or feelings that their brains can use as a frame of reference. Your brain is interpreting "I'm going to die" almost equally to "I have a few days off from work!" or "Summer vacation is about to end!". That's exactly what I thought.
Also this.
Jeremiah Nguyen
nah i dont feel like getting treated, ive overstayed my welcome and im scadaddling outta here!
Xavier Lewis
Who are you to questions God's wisdom user? If you weren't meant to be with someone you just weren't. Understand that all this will soon pass.
Jordan Price
i havent lost hope user, im fairly confident my method is gonna work
Andrew White
i'm not questioning anything just feeling terrible about how things are, if only you knew how perfect my crush is.
Austin Phillips
its never been mor obvious that someone showed up in 2016
Zachary Cooper
>close to the end of a fishing trip >enoying the breeze the sunset and the seagulls and the full bucket of fish while wearing a beany and hearing seagulls. >Imagine sensual sex with my crush in nature and the wind moving her hair doing reverse missionary......holding my head right now. >remember my crush is improved by my mind and perfected than what she really is and poets spoke about this before christ by long. >sober up from the vivid sunset dreaming.... >supress my creeping sadness by acknowledging how nice this experience I am having and that I feel at home at the sea. >meet the girl almost daily and realize how different she is from the girl in my mind to free myself from myself.
