What makes your life liveable, user?
I'm really feeling down these days because of many things like a broken heart, not feeling safe anymore in my country, problems with family and my schizophrenia
The only thing that keeps me going is drugs and daydreaming about death
Nothing, i am planing on killing myself within next week
alcohol
music
watching anons on biz freakout over their shitcoins
my husbando, brock lesnar
>not feeling safe anymore in my country,
Murica?
life just is liveable
Understandable
I love randy Orton so much he makes my life more liveable
And Cody Rhodes with the AEW
How do you want to do it?
No, my beloved germany
Nothing. Hiding toxic, she infested threads on here is time killing. But other than that, I'm kinda just not giving a fuck.
>Nothing. Hiding toxic, she infested threads on here is time killing. But other than that, I'm kinda just not giving a fuck.
>she
*sjw
Fucking autocorrect. Fucking jews.
I wish i could just give a fuck too but everything is so overwhelming
lily?
Oregano
I really can't figure out what you're trying to say
Is that your name??
Only things keeping me from blowing my brains out are survival instincts and the desire to not traumatize my family, mainly my mother.
Brazilian jiu jitsu. I daydream about leg locks. Its the only thing that is going well in my life. I like to be forceful against people because IRL I'm super passive and let people walk right over me and past me. When I'm doing BJJ, if they make a mistake, then I punish them for it. If they're not ready for a double leg, then they end up on their back. Even if they want to escape from leg entanglement, it doesn't matter because I'm not letting them out until they tap. Even being on bottom doesn't feel bad. I'm still looking for that one little misstep, one little over prediction that lets me get my guard back. I'll go against anyone big, small, male, f*moid, white belt, black belt.
mom would cry
Godspeed, fellow user
My world went to shit a long time ago. So I made my own enclave from everyone else. I'm my own person, with my own identity, desires, and wishes. I just couldn't deal with the years of disappointment, so I chose to bail myself out instead.
Pic related (not my work)
The thought of me leaving this shithole and moving to Europe
I know that feel
Originally unoriginal
video games I guess but that isn't really true. I mean I am planning to kill myself the date has been set and boy oh boy am I looking forward to it.
You sound like my soul mate.
I stopped giving a fuck.
Now I'm just a drifter, I still function like everyone else but when bad or good things happen to me I don't pay it much attention.
I guess to just to watch.
I'm lucky by r9k standards.
I have parents and a brother that I love.
Have a pretty decent career that has a lot of potential.
I have a good irl friend, plenty of online friends.
I know this feel aswell
I used to be a pushover
I started doing strongman training because I'm a big guy and have natural strength from my years of manual labor.
People started to notice, and the ones who didn't got their heads ripped off. People feared me, that's mainly the reason why I dont date. I had a few girlfriends but I "loved them too much" so things didn't work out.
Whats so significant about the date, and why not do it already?
Genuinely curious
Life is ironically extraordinary; a permanent solution for temporary problems is NOT the answer!
> used to feel the same way
>learned to love the bad life offered as much as the good; there is balance irl
waifu delusions mostly desu
music, coffee, food, touching my dick
I don't know. I guess I keep going because I haven't summoned up the courage to wrap my belt around my doorknob and hang myself yet.
I feel like I'm not supposed to be here. My body feels wrong, my speech is wrong, it feels like I have a speech impediment in my thoughts, it feels like there's fog in my brain. Sometimes theres pressure inside my skull for some reason. There's nothing wrong with me, I'm just all wrong. Even when I talk to someone and they ask a question my answer feels right in my head until I start talking and sound like a literal sub 50 IQ retard, like I just can't move my fucking mouth right. When I'm walking or sitting down I know my body posture and form looks fucking weird like those virgin vs chad memes come to life. I think there's something wrong with my brain, I've been having these migraines for like 3 months that keep happening, but I bet there's nothing wrong and I'm just a fucking retard who can't function right. I'm planning on killing myself in 2 weeks or so.
The manic episodes I have about twice a month or so for about 2-4 days
the rest of my time is spent being bored and trying my best to pass time
playing bass and drums
the frens i have
Work
reading
sleeping
eating
thats probably it
the thought that i'll be able to see my friends again
Anime, mostly. There's more anime than I can ever possibly watch, there's tons of new anime released regularly, there's tons of online communities to talk about it, there's numerous intersecting hobbies connected to it, and it also gives me something to spend all my money on since I have no girlfriend or family to support.
I'd always liked anime, but it wasn't til around 2011 or so that I decided to make it my reason for living, and since then my life has gotten increasingly better. Just having something to dedicate your time and effort towards gives you so much more satisfaction and self esteem. I can't believe I wasted so many years pointlessly trying to be normal.
why can't you see them now?
one and only allah
amen my nigga
allah smite those who deny his power
falafel falafel
I just take meds to keep me moving forward and have a happy acceptance of my own imminent death.
life isn't very long. we are all going to get that sweet reprieve sooner or later.
hang in there boys.
No I'm sorry but I'm not lily
Understandable
I'm worried about my mother and my lil brothers too and I would feel bad for people who did so much for me
It would be a shame if that was for nothing
To europe?! Where do you want to go?
When do you want to do it and how?
My french male friend.
I also spent about four years as hard as you. But when I got to know him I realised that he was the only one who could heal me.
I'm happiest to chat with him and connect with him via online games.
I have nothing other than work.
I would feel sorry for you then because I can't become happy without being so sad that it feels like dying
Thats a very healthy way to handle sadly
But i just can't stop caring I mean I can't even get out without the fear of getting raped sometimes and sometimes I just hope to get stabbed but at the same time i don't want a refugee to be the last thing i see
I'm so happy for you really
Enjoy it as long as you can, user
I don't know it feels like I can't enjoy happiness anymore only sadness
GOD I WISH I HAD A DICK
Oh god i can relate so hard and thats not good please look for a doctor or talk to someone or try to write down what you think
Just writing without judging your thoughts
My manic episodes just disappeared and the last time i felt truly happy was when I lost my mind for a whole night and thought I were someone who truly loved herself and it was the best feeling ever but sadly i felt this way when I was trying to kill myself the day before
Good luck, user and take care of yourself !
who cut your dick off
My mother accidentally gave birth to me and forgot the dick
Clitoris is a small dick
Video games, some movies, music and daydreaming. Just finished far cry 5 for the second time. Gameplay wise it's always the same shit with some additions, but the rest is criminally underrated. Sitting in front of the end credits listening to the music. This game really hits me in the feels.
Oh hecc i finally got a dick
now enjoy the insecurity over your 1cm dicklet