I'll be turning 31 this year, still a virgin. Here are some quick things that changed from when I was 21, which averages out most of the posters here.
>Depression and loneliness turned into apathy and detachment. I still feel sad at times and I'm probably still depressed but I have completely given up, the urge to have/need someone is gone. >With this, my sex drive also diminished severely but not gone. (I don't take medication that would fuck with it) Masturbation is only when bored or long time between (1+week). No fetishes or weird shit, vanilla porn. >Couples IRL sometimes still get a slight emotional reaction out of me, inwards I obviously don't show, everything on the computer/tv doesn't anymore. If there's a reaction it's almost always a bittersweet "good for them" kinda feel. >All of this was my own doing, from puberty to now. I don't look hideous but I'm no chad neither, I was pretty social, I had friends (nerds like me but still), I just was a complete sperglord with women and was depressed since childhood, the last I always rejected help for. >Lost all friends and most of my family thanks to addiction following that. For coping. I wasn't a movie/dr phil style addict and have since recovered but it had some heavy parts. >I deny anyone that tries to come into my personal space at work. Thank god for me (depends on the perspective, right?) I created an environment where people stopped trying to enter yeaaars ago because it drains you. >I live comfortably (money wise) since I don't need much. Single bedroom apartment in a nice and calm neighborhood.
So, was it worth it to come to this, erm, state? No. This life may seem comfy for some but it is like being in fucking purgatory. Sure your drive for a partner may fade (which seems like your primary and only goal when younger) but you'll just get on another level of bullshit which you cannot escape.
If you haven't ascended yet, act. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.
>With this, my sex drive also diminished severely but not gone. >Sure your drive for a partner may fade Then you have a hormonal issue, I still think about it 24/7 at 42.
Cameron Scott
>OP could have lost his virginty long ago and lived a totally different life if he got on test as a teenager
Levi Garcia
Your 31 nigger, not 60. You still have some years to change things for the better.
thanks for your contribution Mr. Wizard. I cherish oldbots and their feelsposts
Adam Roberts
>22 year old khv >Feel no sexual attraction to women because I'm mixed-raced >Thinking to buy a prostitute as I don't care about women enough to want to date one through tinder >Care enough to think "You deserve better than me.", but nothing more when opportunity arrives
I think all I'm ever going to have in life is the ability to make money. No love. Nothing substantial even from family as my sister, the bulk of love in my life, is gone forever.
I'm just dissecting the human species from afar. It's extremely pleasurable to see them all react in the precise way I plan them to, but there's nothing genuinely pleasurable for me in life.
I don't want to rape, fuck, murder, or see anything in life.
It's like I've died. There is no desire in my brain outside of the desire for rampant growth in whatever I can wrap my fingers around, but it doesn't matter what it is. Money is just the strongest one.
spoken like a true 19 year old. if you dont have your life in order by 24 you're fucked
Isaiah Hill
>Don't become me. Too late. I am a rank 2 wizard. My experience is actually opposite to yours in some ways. I never cared about no gf or sex in my teens or twenties at all. Maybe I was too depressed or disconnected. Now in my thirties I am suddenly getting the feels. I don't know why now. Is it my body telling me I fucked up and missed out? I don't know. I'm too fucked up to do anything about it now anyway.
I can relate to the apathy and detachment though. I actually kind of feel like my humanity has completely drained. I have no emotion, no passion, no motivation, no joy, no care, no lust...nothing. I'm just a lump of meat that keeps on living. It is a very strange experience.
spoken like a true 14 year old. life is what you make of it at every age. You always have the chance to make something of yourself. Might not be what you thought it would be last year or 3 years ago or whatever, but you can always become something more than what you are now. It's about attitude. Fix that and you can become anything. Maybe even happy
