Confession thread: Extreme shame

Haven't laughed in ages, shanks op.

Last 6 months or so before I left for college, mom did sexual stuff to me while I was "asleep" and I just let it happen pretending to be so. Not sure if she knew or cared that I was awake or that despite being a heavy sleeper I shouldn't have slept through it. It's never been brought up so no way to know now.

Damn! You're a fuckin idiot

>buy item off eBay
>set it up wrong
>it doesnt work
>ask for refund
>I get it
>two weeks later figure out what I did wrong and fix it
>emense value added to my life because of this product
I still feel like shit guys. It was two years ago.

what a fucking mess lmfao

The product was a squeeze pillow that vibrates when you hug it too hard. I bought it because people tell me I am too rough and I hurt them. I use it every night and it has made me a lot better.

Incredible lust for my sister. I usually can control it, but I'm loosing control. Periodically, I would jerk it to her panties. Now I take it a step further and cum
in em. I feel gross but I can't help it, I just want to bang her so bad

I'm full of profound guilt and shame as well, it's recently been really affecting my livelihood. I was able to live with my past actions, but in the last few months I'm totally weighed down by them, I can't even sleep because of them.

how does one live with guilt? do you apologise to who you've wronged?

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I was 3 years younger and dumb horny teenager we often talked about stuff at nights and i saw her sleeping i saw her sleeping with a robe once and tried to peek under it but i got do invested in it that i pulled her panties down and masturbated to that
then i was just doing that talking stuff to wait for her to fall asleep and start fapping to her.
she stopped sleeping in my room but i sneaked on her room at night.
i once came on her ass but cleaned her buttcheeks.
I didn't realized that it was wrong maybe i have mental problems.
One time she came to my room at night and jerked me off that was the only time she was into it.
I told her i was sorry when i was 17 and she hugged me and told me she "forgives"me.
My mom kinda forced me to do it though anyways i was an uncaring asshole and i was the first in the family that she told she was pregnant i was half asleep so i kinda ignored her and just said "Oh ok"
Pretty sure she tried to trigger me again because when mom wasn't home she slept naked with panties only but i didn't do anything because i was in my depressed season.
The puppies gave me nightmares the first time i saw them dogs really eat anything when they are hungry.

I cheated on my girlfriend last year. I told her the next day. We're still together. She's forgiven me, and I haven't cheated on her again, but I regret it every single day.

>broke promises to God
I'm going to hell aren't I

probably the only guy i can relate to here the rest is just normie shit.
>dropped out of college
>lied to my parents and wasted the money on other shit
>came back home and told them college just wasn't for me
>they got angry obviously and dad was distant she actually had another family and mom found out they got divorced
>mom remarried i went to live with her
>new step father has a qt daughter
>i fap to her panties and shit
>i might end up like user
>i played with lizards as a teen and killed bees for fun
>one time i inserted a nail in a lizard asshole
>kissed my mom when she was sleeping lol
>shitted my pants when i was looking for a job i had to walk home with shit on my pants and an awful smell.
>i once ate half a burger from a burger king trashcan

It's not only the events themselves but the way you describe them that sounds fucking insane. I'm a complete basket case, but I basically live in a permanent state of terrified inaction.
Anyway, your sister was already bothered by your behaviour because you had woke her up during these faps I'm assuming (like, she woke up when you were wiping your cum off her ass..?), yet she once gave you a handjob after this lol?
Your mother knew about this and had to force you to apologise?

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>i made a girl on omegle finger herself and show me her tits, she was like 11~ 12 or something

Hot.

my sister told my mom about it when we were young and i stopped after that.
years after that my mom told me to apologise because my sister went to a counselor with her. then i apologized
the handjob was when i was starting to molest her not after that. and Never told anyone about the handjob i could have but i didn't.
the events sound fucked up but i guess its genetics.(i once saw my uncle finger blasting my cousin).
i regret that stuff now except the dogs i never liked dogs
I could have gotten some pussy as a teenager too i wonder why i didn't accepted when a girl literally tried to kiss me in school and other girl asked me out

>mfw he asked her age and needlessly incriminated himself

>when i was 14 i made a girl on omegle finger herself and show me her tits, she was like 11~ 12 or something
Nothing wrong with this, that is what Omegle is for in truth
>came in my aunts food
This I would probably think about killing myself over every day though

>just normie shit.
qt step sister is the definition of normie tier perversion, kissing your mom is pg-13 kiddie freud shit. i had a dream of banging my mom when i was 10. at least me hit me with that real incest bro.
this, this is the harrowing shame that gives me erections. minus the mommy one

Literally everyone has that dream user i didn't mentioned because its everywhere you can even look at dream related websites and thats a common dream

Tell me about it
The thought of ramming my sis and filling her fertile womb while she looks at me with shock, disgust and pleasure gets me the biggest hard on

Shit man, you sound like a basketcase.

>schizochad as fuck though

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You mean she gave you the handjob immediately after she started realising you were 'molesting' her?
When you say molest, you never really touched her did you?
Also tell me about that experience with your uncle. That sounds like it could be interesting.

Why does every user have a fine ass sister

My sister is fat short dirty with dark skin and scarred cheeks from acne which is funny because everyone else in my family is tall and much lighter

I wish I had a hot sister to molest growing up

I knew a girl whose brother had nightly sex with her for like 3 years throughout puberty and he thought she was 'asleep' during it
1) your sister knew and was aware of this and it was very abusive to her
2) she jerked you off probably in a mental fuck up of her own from your abuse thinking it was the solution to your abusing her
3) she is fucked up for life from this and the guys she will let plow her forever and ever are forever grateful that you created a slut whore
4) never have kids and if you do never have daughters because you WILL molest them

Holy mother of soj
>dont do this its mean111

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I laughed so hard I farted and stuck my finger in his butt

Lol this makes me feel so good about where I am at life right now. When I wake up in a blurry marijuana haze and turn in a paper an hour late I feel like a complete mess but this guy takes the cake Jesus Christ

Gods my cousin was so cute back then. Einstein did it and everyone cheered. Oh how times change.Take a look at this list and tell me it's not cool to marry your cousin.
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_coupled_cousins

She cheats on you too

I made a over reaction when I was really young, I think 8 or 9 and it in front of my older brother and his friend. It was so fucking embarrassing since I was so edgy and had a knife on my wrist, god thinking about it makes me feel terrible. Though I wouldnt pass on actually fucking manning up and doing it.

I WISH I HAD A SISTER AT ALL.

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Your life must be pretty good if thats your most shameful thing. I envy you.

>I once tried shitting in one of those small trashcans next to toilets as a """joke""" in my music school
>did it in the dark, missed that flappy lit thing (too stupid to think about taking it off) so most of my turd was on the floor
>left the toilet never told anyone and never heard of it again
>still think about the poor janitor that had to clean that up often

I would prefer to be an only sibling in retrospect could have used the individualized love and attention

I had sex with 4 different girls but still browse Jow Forums and larp as a virgin

i have sexual attractions to my aunt who's like 40 now

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Maybe he will get some help and improve. And not molest them

Well that and confessing to this one girl since she didnt really know me but I KNEW her. But other than that I just feel shame about a lot of things, thing was just the first thing that popped up in my mind since we were sharing memories, but user what is your most shameful thing then.

But you see user, I also have 4 other brothers so they get all the fucking attention while I just wanted to fuck a sister.

>i was sexually abused as a child for three years
>thought i was gay for a while and thought i was in love with my best friend, before i realized all the weird stuff that happened as a kid
>now extremely homophobic and am not sure if i am justified

I can't remember much my memory is fugged, but I CAN remember a few things:
>I killed small fishes on a beach, opened them up and threw them back in the water, not knowing people could step on them
Sometimes I would also leave them on a stone to be cooked by the sun.
>Tried to make my cat lick my dick, it failed
>Had plans to commit suicide by jumping off a building a little over a year ago (May-June 2018)
>Depression got worse, so did my memory, reasoning and speech.
I "blacked out" or got lost in my day-dreaming/thoughts when I was in college, the teacher asked me a question and when I got out of it everyone looked at me. Shit was embarrassing.
>when I was 10 a stranger on the internet who was a faggot told me to take a picture of my dick with my phone, I did.
This was back in 2008 when the dangers of the internet wasn't as widely known. It's not my fault.

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I punched the local retard once

I "fucked" 5 of my cousins . One was we roleplay he was a robber and raped me . I was 7

>in a moment of despair I remember something cringe
>when I was 20 I watched a movie and commented this character could 'get it'
>looked her up and she was 15 at the time
>only thought she was cute
>now scared of the idea of being a pedo

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Relax dude, in many countries the age of consent is 14. Start worrying when you find actual kids (12 and under) attractive.

Age of consent is irrelevant when it's clearly morally wrong. I keep thinking about what if I told people about that, the odd thing is how when I said that at the time and found out she was 15 I deleted what I said and moved on but only now do I care because of some crazy fear of being a pedophile that's been prevalent through my life whenever I enter a depression. Apparently it's called pocd.

The movie was from 1961 and said actress is now in her 70's by the way

>half assed everything
>given up on anything I've tried
>all interactions feel meaningless and utterly empty
I hate all of it and I contemplate death very often, sounding more peaceful by the days

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just saw him touching his daughter and pretended that i didn't see anything he was a drug addict and i didn't want trouble so i just ignored it.
He didn't realized he was being watched

I know i know that's why she told on me but i never "had sex" with her i just touched her butt or stuff like that.
she isn't that fucked she is a whore but she can keep a relationship and was studying to be a doctor or something.
Dude how in the fuck i would have kids? i hate talking to people or looking them at the eyes,I stutter when i talk to girls i have a sleeping fetish so the only way i could fuck a girl would be when she is drugged or passed out

Same except from the homophobia but based on my own experiences I wonder how many gays are just fucked up from getting abused as kids.
Nowadays I ignore my gay feelings and cringe when anyone touches me.

>other countries think fucking kids is okay so therefore user shouldn't feel any guilt
Nice logic there pedoanon

>used to bully autistic kids at various schools and summer camps. Didnt stop until I was 17
>had a dream where I attempted to rape somebody, was convinced that I actually did it for a long while
>threatened my roommate with a knife and was expelled for violence
>showed my dick whenever asked on
Omegle
>routinely fap to furry porn
>routinely threaten to kill myself, but I am afraid of dying. My father bought a safe for his guns because he does not trust me anymore

I also stabbed somebody worth a pencil when I was 7. In the neck

I tell girls I meet on tinder I came when I am inside them and nowhere close (never cum during sex due to death grip + porn) just to see their reactions

Always ask them shit like if they are on BC preempting this, never really met anyone who was seriously taken aback by it although one girl I saw regularly got tired of me pretending and actually hit me with an I am pregnant text to fuck with me. Another girl freaked out when I started talking shit mid sex with no condom on left and went home that was a mood killer