every fucking day is the same every fucking night is the same i eat the same food i do the same tasks i go to work at the same time i get home at the same time on and off year after year i am 26 and nothing has changed all my life it has been the same this is a type of boredom no women, booze or drug can solve what is wrong with me i literally can not think of a thing that would satisfy me i can't watch anime because it got boring and i can't play vidya anymore help me i want to fucking kill myself in hopes of finding fun in life after death
I relate to all of this, in fact it's the existential dread that has motivated me to finally start lifting recently, and I even started learning Japanese yesterday too. I think it might be depression but I can't really say, either way it's nice to have something to take you out of your usual routine and make you feel better.
Ryan Morales
I'm 26 and I just lay in bed all day watching streams, watching some anime, learning some Japanese, sometimes playing some games, sometimes meditating, yesterday I watched that documentary about hypernormalisation, it was pretty interesting Feeling pretty nice right now desu
is this depression? i am not sad or lonely or anything i am just bored and nothing can satisfy this hunger i literally can not even get a kick from porn, can barely get horny since even that doesn't do anything for me anymore and i fucking used to have day long jerk off sessions
I understand you completely as my feelings are the same, but I am 30 and on antidepressants. Nothing changed last 5 years, I just had 2 major depressive episodes. And even more failures and disappointments - this is just life.
The only thing that still gives me some joy are hallucinogenic drugs but I would not recommend them to someone depressed as they are very random in effects.
I wish I could help you but I tried everything and nothing worked. I even have a cat now, which is cool and he is sometimes helpful for loneliness, but I am loner by definition and being a needful animal, even he sometimes makes me mad.
I am just thankful that I do not have needy gf (or any gf at all), children, and I have a lot of work so I do not have to think about my miserable life. Otherwise I would already have an hero.
Ayden Thomas
your money, thats changing, its steadily going up and if you dont spend it, it will reach a point where you wont have to work anymore
Mason Gutierrez
fucking 30 years old at 26 i already feel like my life is at a point where there is no more room for change and that this is who i will be until i die, that this is the beginning of the end of my life
Robert Foster
>its steadily going up heh
Landon Reed
what do you do for a living? Are you at least satisfied with your job?
Aaron Perry
Its hella depression. The longer it goes on, the less anything matters.
Noah Williams
my job is easy and pays ok, but the issue is that it got repetitive quickly i have to go to work in like half an hour and i can't stand this preprogrammed schedule my life has it's killing me from the inside
Jaxson Flores
Get goals, give meaning to your life, as delusional it might be, everyone's coping, everyone has always been coping, but once you start believing in your lie then it'll be okay, because there's so much shit to do you won't have time to even think about how meaningless it really all is.
Dylan Torres
Actually, there is always room for change so do not be afraid to do it. I changed employers, people around me, cities and specializations. Changed my relationship with women etc. I just was not happy after any of those changes. And the latter just made me more miserable when the only girl, who was like 95% my copy and who I truely loved, friendzoned me and moved to the farthest place on earth for some adventurous chad afterwards (I love that meme).
So now I just exist as it is better than non-existence, however as futile as being one of the asteroids orbiting Saturn.
Josiah Powell
That's exactly what depression is. It isn't sadness or loneliness. It's like you're just bored and empty but you have no motivation to do anything, and the more you don't do anything the worst it gets. You don't feel anything not happy not sad. What you used to enjoy you can't anymore as your just kind of an empty zombie.
Get up, go outside, start walking and find somewhere like a forest or a park, walk, breath, be by yourself in the moment. Idk how to cure it but thats a good first step. Also quit your job, make things interesting for yourself
Isaiah Sullivan
You're only fooling yourself. Ogrigional
Eli Long
i can't even think of what type of women i'd be interested in i don't think that i could be in a relationship now i had two gfs before and it was fun, but right now i can't even imagine what kind of person i want and if i even want one haven't had a gf for years and every girl i met during those years did absolutely nothing for me feels like i was meant to be alone
Wyatt Diaz
>You're just a boring person
Luke Moore
you're only fooling yourself by making up copes for wagecucking
Lincoln Mitchell
Have you considered trying to create something? You know, giving something to this world instead of consuming? Maybe you'd find meaning that way.
Jordan Cooper
Videogames and anime are consumption based hobbies so it's no wonder they get boring.
Boredom happens when you want something besides what you have. And when you put yourself in situations where you aren't in control of what you have (eg watching someone else's show, playing someone else's game), that can happen a lot.
Learn to switch to hobbies that involve taking the cognitive lead and you will never get bored. >writing, philosophy, theory, art, etc
(Keep in mind these do not automatically fulfill the "cognitive lead" criteria. You still have to actively direct yourself, it just comes more naturally in these subjects)
Andrew Murphy
Take the Christ pill and fill the world with His faithful love
yeah because it's impossible to create games, manga or the kind of novels that anime adapts, not to mention translating and compiling information, creating wikis, blogs, etc dumbass
Alexander Hernandez
That is ok, do not force relationship meme on yourself, if you do not need it.
I actually had last gf around your age and my last shot into meaningful relationship as well. Last gf fucked me up, and I fucked up the last chance.
Afterwards I was just disillusioned and just could not force myself to be with anyone. Sometimes I tried to cope and give someone a chance but I ended not interested or disappointed.
Parker Thomas
>No drug can solve I can guarantee you this isn't true
Andrew Morgan
Well last I checked OP wasn't in the business of doing any of those, nigger.
Why do people go out of their way to interpret things in the dumbest way possible??
Ryder Martin
and last time I checked OP wasn't writing a philosophical theory eater so what's the point of bashing games and anime other than being a cunt? you can just consume philosophy too without creating anything and you can create something within otaku hobbies too go suck a dick faggot
David Martin
>what is wrong with me i literally can not think of a thing that would satisfy me
Cause there isn't. Women, games/gambling and opiates are the only things you can count for a quick high, but only up to a point, after which there's diminishing returns.
You'll only sweeten them again if you throw yourself with 100% commitment into some occupation, art/science, or competitive hobby/sport and then occasionally retreat to the above.
Give an honest go at anything that grabs your attention. If it ends up being a chore, switch. Keep going until you find something you can stick with and study for the rest of your active life.
Daniel Gray
Its cuz your gay
Jose Roberts
>be boring >do boring things >why am I bored?
Juan Lewis
>muh anime muh vidya get a hobby (a real one)
Benjamin Wilson
That's nice, i started japanese two days ago. I'm just completing the duolingo program, after that i'll go with something more useful. It makes memorizing hiragana way easier.
Dylan Lopez
Did you check out the /djt/ guide? it has a good tool to memorize all of the kana quickly, I did that in an hour or two and then moved on to read the tae kim grammar guide, it wasn't really sinking in though so I started reading yotsuba& with the reading pack instead, today I'm checking out the grammar guide again and it's easier to remember now, maybe I just did too much yesterday and my mind was tired. It definitely gets better once you know the kana, reading is fun even if you understand fuck all.
