What keeps you from ending it bros? Whats stopping you? A lot of people fear death and if that's why then I understand, but some of us have people they dont wish to hurt or pets that depend on us, what's your reason friends?
I'm so sick of this life and would love to end it, I've never had a gf or any real friends, never traveled, been sick a lot, some gallstones, cancer that I managed to beat when really young. I really have had nothing outside vidya really. I ended getting a job to move out and not be a burden on my folks, getting a shit studio with a shit bed, shit old tv and okay pc
Moved back in because of my aging parents, they've always been extremely good to me growing up, they never looked down on me or treated me any different than my siblings, they were actually pretty sad when I moved out and kept telling me to stay theres plenty of room and they loved having me around..
Now that I've almost reached my 30s my parents are having issues, my mom cant see well anymore, my dad has joint and muscular issues, so I help them whenever and however. My siblings have lives, families and were also always good to me to, i have nothing and no one of my own so it's the very least I can do for my family
They never abandoned me so I refuse to abandon them, when their time finally comes I'll handle their wishes as they want and then off myself the second I'm done
>No gf >Few friends who I don't see much >Living in a depressing ass city >Unsure of how I want to move forward with my career I'd say music, my fear of death, and my cats keep me from ending it. I think I'm still holding onto some hope that I can improve my life. Moving to a better city soon, hoping to find opportunities there.
Christian Price
Having superior genetics. I'd waste this life if I sudoku.
Jaxon Ramirez
My dog really hits me, sure if I off myself he'd be fine with my parents, and my parents would understand eventually but he'd wonder where I went and why I dont bother to come see him
Zachary Turner
cowardice, dummy.
Kevin Butler
You described my life to a tee including the moving out part. Thing is I'm 22 and my life went down the shitter. My parents had me later in life so I have to figure out how I'm going to support them. I'm a literal autist who tries so hard to pretend he's normal by studying normal people and conversations. I have to consciously think about my actions frequently.
Not sure how I'm going to support them and myself making twelve bucks an hour.
Blake Campbell
For me it's just fear of death/afterlife/supernatural. Ultimately I probably will still end up doing it.
Michael Evans
I understand you friend for a long time I was making $14/h in my case I just ended up getting my cdl, it's much easier than you'd think, dont go to the suckers school and it guarantees almost $20/h most places (about 25/h in my state) I just drive around doing big deliveries enjoying the scenic views
Samuel Perry
The idea of failing my attempt and becoming a vegetable and being carted around as a living virtue signal for ""suicide prevention"" while rotting away in a broken body for the rest of my life because no one dares finish the job terrifies me more than death itself ever will
I honestly don't know I don't care if I die or live, honestly If I was diagnosed untreatable cancer tomorrow I wouldn't bat an eye. I am not scared of death at all, in fact dying a violent or early death is at least something remarkable, unlike my extremely unremarkable life right now, which will likely turn into an unremarkable death when I'm 94 years old and have lost my mind and shit in a diaper. A few months ago I got jumped by a group of immigrants, I still fought back but I almost got stabbed when one of them drew a knife. Even then I was just like 'whatever man' when my friend was shocked as fuck that I almost got stabbed
Owen Adams
cowardice, laziness, fears that I'll go to a version of hell where things are even worse. some faint hope about new videogames I preordered.
Jaxon Parker
im too much of a pussy to off myself
Ayden Bailey
I'm too afraid of death to kill myself, as I don't know what comes next, so I want to live my shit life to the bitter end, even if it means living alone. Also I don't want to make my family sad, as they at least keep pushing me into being a better man. And also if I don't kill myself maybe someday things will get better.
Jayden James
Nothing comes next. You cease to exist. Is that so hard to understand
Carson Young
t ghost
Jordan Powell
I guess fear, primarily. I think there's a pinch of naive hope left in me too. I can't imagine making it another decade, though.
John Clark
my family literally
Nathaniel Wright
I'm too much of a pussy to pull a trigger. Been steadily drinking myself to death though, played a few rounds of russian roulette too. No luck yet though.
Jacob Ramirez
I think about it everyday but I fear death and also fantasize about all the things in life I have not yet experienced but want to
Nolan Stewart
A combination of some sliver of hope that maybe, just maybe, it'll get better Plus I've got a lot of pets and the idea of just leaving them breaks my heart. When my grandma died my dog would get excited when we talked about her cause she thought grandma was coming
Carson Johnson
I have a dog no one else would care better for. A few times in the past I'd load my gun and point it at my head as he stared at me. I'm ashamed to admit this, I've thought of grabbing another bullet but told myself "fuck man, I can't do that or leave my best friend behind." He's been the only consistent living being who has never left me when times got hard, unlike most people who stick around when times are good and disappear when shit goes sour. This was in the early 2010s so almost 10 years ago but he's taught me to be mentally tougher. He's a little over 9yo now and showing his age. I know his time is near and I struggle with the idea of being forced to move forward when he's gone from old age. Dog is truly man's best friend, we've been through some hard times.
Just don't seem to be wired that way OP. I never really acted heroically or had it bad as you OP. However I didn't have it much better at all. Disability was my issue. I've only been acting in a heroic way for but one year before that I worked pretty lazily. Almost in my 30s as well.
I'm acting a lot more selfishly than you just striving towards getting the things I never had even with my family not doing well. I've never been so much as able to just get through a normal day while taking care of myself. I've been working really hard just trying to hold down a job, regular exercise, square meals, clean home, good hygiene, no overdue paperwork. I'm not even trying to hold down a social life I'm just trying to get my life in order. I've actually found that I'm not a "nice guy" I just act nice out of fear of rejection. Deep down I care about myself not others.
Since I'm not confident I'm going to kill myself any time soon (I might - I'm just not confident) I'm trying to drag my body forwards and do what it needs to do so I can live with a bit of better quality of life. I'm just tired of feeling like shit and having people make fun of me because I don't have my life together.
