Vent with me pls. I feel so empty

Vent with me pls. I feel so empty.

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Try praying user, it will help.

Ok *ahem* FUCK N- wtf I just got a strong dejavu? I need to leave this place AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

i feel very sad and afraid. death seems to surround the ones i love. i want to protect them all and be strong but i am not strong at all, especially not tonight. i feel so ashamed and alone. i feel so much guilt for my mom and for the one that passed. i feel trapped here, unable to cry, the lack of privacy hurts, laying in a bathtub, remembering the coma, head is spinning in spirals, isolation cycle kicking in because nobody should see me like this or deal with this. i never got to talk to him, never got to tell her sorry, it is all, all my fault. i am unworthy.

im so fucking boring idk what to do

user, try to enjoy small things on your day.

i have no passion for anything that matters... no drive. i used to have hope for the future but as the years have gone by and everything has gone exactly as expected i can't delude myself into thinking that any future will hold anything other than what i've come to expect, loneliness and isolation

I get so fucking angry over svenarios I've made in my head. I actually have to calm myself down after being in my own head too much sometimes.

i do enjoy the small things, i romanticize daily chores as a cope but the impending doom hurts so much during days like this. i feel frail and horrible and evil. i wish i could let all of the bad feelings and traits out so i could be worthy of feeling friendship and love and success but i couldnt even save them. im a failure.

When I was a child, I dreamed about having the whole world figured out and knowing all the solutions to our problems. Now, I am in fact such a person, but so is everyone else. The problem isn't unknowing. The problem is knowing and not caring. All that so-called genius I spent my life pursuing is meaningless.

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Have you tried praying? Real praying, not asking God for things you want.

all the time, i send prayers to my loved ones and for the universe every single night: all i ask for is to be worthy and to mean something. i just want everyone to be safe and okay

Try praying for forgiveness, to know your own fault and nothing more, it helped me a lot.

I feel robots are into far-right policies not just because left-wingers told them that their problems are their fault and can be fixed with a lot of effort but also because leftist policies don't really help their problems at all (respecting women won't give them gfs, not being racist won't give them anything, accepting the LGBT community won't allow them to turn to actual girls, etc). Far-right fuckers tell them that none of it is their fault, that it's the work of a conspiracy or things outside their control or the inevitable hand of fate that fucks them over they don't have to self-actualize they just have to obey a few instructions and they can just TAKE the women and power for themselves

But they're beginning to realize that far-right policies and ideals aren't helping them either. Instead of the default of being neglected they end up being hated. Instead of being left alone they draw notoriety to themselves. People that originally would've at least been their friends or at least friendly to them will now only treat them with contempt and a looks of them that they are the conspirators that's fucking the world over. Power? no one is going to allow them that. Women? they despise them. and none of their problems will be fixed. All they get is someone telling them it's not their fault. Literal blinkers for the horses they are.

Best thing a robot can do is just enjoy the things they enjoy (anime, games, programming, music, etc.) and try sharing it with others. But they must never deny that they enjoy it.

I enjoy Minecraft (but I have no one to play it with)

user, unless you are into WP right politics help you a lot.

I wonder if the girl who I liked in highschool ever thought about me back then, she sometimes glared at me and even started but it was with a face of disgust or a nuetral face. I couldn't but to help lock eyes with her every time I saw her because of how much I liked her but I always tried to look away. She definitely knew I liked her but I never asked her out. Im dying to know what she thought of me

I feel like every dream I ever had for my life was destroyed. and the part that makes it worse it I actually got close to achieving some of them or in some cases had and then lost, The love of my life who cheated on me because apparently I wasn't good enough. It hurts so bad I think about suicide everyday and its already been a whole year

I still constantly think about my dumb whore of an ex-girlfriend in both the pedistal fantasy and the "can't believe i dated that dumb bitch" ways. Then i get angry with myself because we've been apart now longer than we were together.

dumb girls are fun, you shouldn't be ashamed.

I do this too. :( i can easily bring myself to tears with completely made up situations. it's fucked.

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i am very much on the edge of my life right now in possibly the worst spiral decline ever. my friends have been my friends since hs, we were all the weird outcasts so we got lumped together and have been close ever since. i had my first gf 2 years ago, and after a year of dating she was cheating on me and practically ruined my life. ive been depressed ever since and my friends have recently kicked me out of our friend-group bc they said they feel uncomfortable around me and they were talking shit behind my back. come to find out theyve been talking with my ex and hanging out with her and shes manipulated them against me literally a year after weve broken up. i was a bad alcoholic years ago and wasnt able to even smell hard liquor for years without getting sick, but ive recently miraculously regained my ability to reconsume liquor as if it were water. so my plan is the same as it was years ago to drink myself to death, the only difference is this time i wont have any friends around me to joke with while im hammered i'll be all alone. its just so hard being truly alone without anyone to talk to, hopefully when i die prematurely theyll realize it was their fault and maybe then theyll atone for how theyve made me feel, ive put up with them when they did way worse shit, ive just been depressed and theyve been sick of my depression, seriously fuck these people.

I did some lan with friends, after class. I don't like videogames anymore, but they do. We played league of legends. It was okay. Enjoyable, because it was social. Afterwards, one of the friends who I used to be infatuated with, asked if anyone wanted to go to a bookstore. I said yes, because I genuinely did want a particular book. We walked there, instead of taking a tram, and talked. Was nice to confirm to myself that I don't have any romantic feelings anymore (I think). But when she said bye, I suddenly felt very empty, and I still do feel that. I'm trying to get into a therapist, but they haven't called me back. Being depressed and sober is cruel.

This.
Just like how left politics pander to and prey on the tumblr crowd (which are a bunch of depressed rejects) so does the right in this shithole.
They take people who are extremely vulnerable, give them an identity based on a group, give them an objective and a purpose to their life, and most importantly, give them an "enemy": the entity (or entities) that are directly responsible for all the misery that exists in their own lives and in the world, because it is better for people to think that they have a big enemy to defeat than to accept that the world is simply shit.
Once you're into the mindset of the group you're fucking done for: you have a bunch of new enemies, you have o adhere to certain rules to belong to the group that pandered to you, you have to accept the version of reality "your guys" feed you, you have to accept every embellished lie, every bullshit statistic, you are no longer an individual, you're one of us or one of them.
*ahem*
FUCK Jow Forums
FUCK discord trannies raiding Jow Forums
and FUCK american politics.

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