Recovering sissy

I need a nature holiday atleast.
Lilly Demure was my role model so I had the picture. I started watching joi and reading captions when I was 13 and it lead to hypnosis videos. I watched them on and off for 7 years culminating in 1000s of hours of sissy hypno. It's summer and I have little friends, and when I posted a sissy picture I got loads of attention. I found a Miss to feminize me and did lots of horrid things. I'm trying to quit because if I am hesitent to commit then it surely is not for me truly.
Shaved all over, women's clothes, chastity, induced limpnes, make up

don't recover! you're actually S tier.

>He doesn't even know his e-fags

>induced limpnes
How does that happen?
I've never heard of it.

I don't and if there is more info about this one I'd be more than willing to do my homework user.

nvm Lily DeMure, I'm on it..

I was in chastity and had my balls bound to a litre bottle of water an hour a day. I can still get stiff but its weak

that's you? if not then how passable were you, also do you still think about cock?

How did the abuse make you feel?
How did it get started?
What was the final straw that made you realize it was retarded?

I was passable enough to get a decent following and my miss wanted to send me to the sissy institute when I was done. I was still in the budding stages.
I had to get out because the next step was HRT and surgery

>tfw no one liked my joke
>tfw I chuckled for a good 10 minutes when I came up with it
Trannies don't have any humor

Wow, that's interesting.

Can you post any pics of something like that happening?
Not you, just something similar from google images or whatever.

How do you gain orbiters as a sissy? Asking for a friend

Don't do it unless you are genuinely trans. Real feminized sissies are just trans desu.
Make a bdsmlr account and good hashtags that's what I did.
I deleted my account and a part of me is sad I lost all of it

>did lots of horrid things
Horrid things like what? And those this "miss" get off on the fact that she's turning you into an abomination?

So you purposely damaged your penis. Is this still part of a fetish? I couldn't imagine damaging my dick for the purpose of indulging in a fetish. If I can't get a big ol erection from whatever turns me on, then what's the point?

I wanted to be sissified, a limp dick is part of the fetish. I always enjoyed playing with my penis when it wasn't hard more than when it was

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I have too much shame, my body feels heavy and down. My brain feels proper mushed up and I am definatly more stupid than before.

This sounds and looks fucking terrible.

What are the horrid things you did homo

more info on the Institute?

I starved on about 500 calories a day because I was chubby, I had to take 12 inches in my throat and my ass. I had my testicals abused and I was humiliated all the time

Op you left a lot of shit here with no explanation, as if we know about your perverted subculture. What the fuck is a sissy institute.

Humiliated how? Stop being vague.

Sissy INSTITUTE
pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=ph5cc24ac53853d
Just watch this one video if you are curios. All you need to know
You pay, they train you for a few months then you get surgery and go on to trans modelling or porn

Why can't you work it out? I'm not in the best state atm. I was humiliated verbally, emasculated, my balls were damaged and my throat and ass were stretched what more is there? I painted my nails and wore lingerie

>sissy institute
What the fuck is this and how do I get in so I can have my boipucci harem?

This is just porn. This isn't a real place. No one sends you off to fag school.

Google it then.
Obviously the porn is scripted

what a stupid bait thread this is. "sissy institute"? how the fuck do you redditors fall for this shit? it's because of you idiots giving threads like this (You)'s that there are constant tranny threads on here

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>Why can't you work it out?
Because there are different degrees to humiliation. I was humiliated when I got beat up by the gay kid in the 8th grade but I doubt my humiliation is anything like yours. I'm not well versed in the tranny world so I don't know what humiliation entails.

If I see a big cock ill be triggered.
The sad part is that I still don't know if I am gay or not. The idea of being used as a girl turned me on more than the dicks usually. If I went back into the world of sissy captions and hypnks right now I'd have a lapse of self I think.

welcome back bud. team bro

Is there a way for me to make my penis permanently limp safely and without decreasing my T levels?
It would be great if it can be done in a year or 2.

I want to live as a normal man, but be useless sexually.
It's my fetish.

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Haha I look and feel like those celeb images after rehab

Does looking at attractive women alone help or does it trigger you too?

Snip that connecter to your balls
I went through hundreds of hours of conditioning to not get hard for girls. I reckon in due time I'll recover. If it is a girl and a man ill likely freak
But I think seeing a girl doesn't trigger my need to be like one

Dumb phoneposter, image too big

You should probably stop looking at pictures of trannies and check out some InTheCrack videos. It's a website dedicated to admiring women's bodies. You're probably straight, you just fucked up your brain and sexuality at an early age.

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Jerking off five times a day for over 9 years would technically decrease my testosterone levels right?

Dumbie australian
Thank you for the genuine advice user

>Snip that connecter to your balls
I'm serious.

I've been thinking maybe wearing a small chastity cage for 2 years and binding my balls tight every day during that time might do the trick.

I'm also addicted to jerking off.
This way, I can also avoid that.

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I was serious too. 2 years is too long surely

>Transitioning over a fetish
Nice way to ruin your life. Crossdressing, trap, and sissy fetishes are not transgenderism. HRT is really not a good idea.

If you masturbate so much you are literally ill. This kind of thing is actually treated with testosterone blockers.

Seems to be a """fancy""" name for an academy that prepares aspiring shemale porn actresses.

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What do you mean too long?
I just want it to work.
What would you recommend?

By surgery I did not mean bottom surgery my bad. I meant cosmetic like jaw, tits, etc.

>you are literally ill.
Tell me something I don't know. But whatever, it would actually then mean, that I either have a very feminine body to begin with or just low T levels in general. At least it's not the fapping can continue with that then.

What type of job do you have? Age?

I don't get it, you want decent t levels but a limp dick and a feminine body? Or you have a feminine body but want high t but also want limpness.
Odd

Stop it user. This fetish isn't worth your sanity. If you're a tranny, be a tranny. If you're gay, be gay. But if you're just a straight porn addict, you'll likely regret this decision for the rest of your life. Best case scenario, you'll be a 55-year-old man, still wearing schoolgirl outfits, shoving dildos in your ass and uploading the footage to virus filled porn sites, where your disgusting video will show up next to bestiality or child p*rn. Worst case, you kill yourself from shame and regret.

I am 20 years old and I go to university, its been summer holidays

Please do not enter my thread about how mentally demaged feminization has made me asking for advice on it.
I'd you are a tranny do that if not leave it

I have a feminine body, want low t levels (although I don't know if they aren't already low), and well limpness permanently would be weird, but I'm already at a point where I only get a hard one if I actually want to and even then it takes some time, so already achieved that I guess.

Have you not read the thread?

Bro, I just want my dick to be limp.
Why are you making such a huge deal out of it?

I do not want to be a sissy.
I do not crossdress.
I do not want to film myself.
I do not want to shove things up my ass.

I want my dick to stay soft, permanently.
That is it.

It's an ama, so what are you going on about?

Why user. For what purpose. You'll regret it, I guarantee.

LOL tru. Watch limp recondition videos on porn hub there are some effective ones. That's how I started to be impotent
You shouldn't though

I liked your joke user. Put a little smirk on my face.

At least you noticed. Thanks for the advice, any recommendations? Can't hurt to try it, or something like that.

First of all, yes, it is my fetish.

Second, I've never been interested in having penetrative sex.
In fact, I can't stay hard while fucking a woman, unless we are doing something weird and I'm focusing on that.

I do enjoy stimulation of my dick, but the nerve endings are there anyway, and you don't actually need to be hard for that.

>but what about settling down with a woman?
I would want one who doesn't like penetrative sex anyway.
No, not all of them are gay.

>what about kids
Maybe I could still extract some cum while limp, or I can freeze some sperm in a sperm bank (or whatever it's called).
However, I do think it will be possible to impregnate a woman naturally, even limp. It will take much more effort, but I think it can be done.

Why don't you just give me some advice and share what knowledge you have?

>Why don't you just give me some advice and share what knowledge you have?
I don't involve myself in this wacky lifestyle so I don't have any advice. I have a strong, healthy penis.

Oh, I thought you were OP.

Why is it a wacky lifestyle?
Do you at least understand it now?

>You can ask me anything, I feel stupid and abused.
You abused yourself

>Why is it a wacky lifestyle?
I just can't imagine purposely mutilating myself for a fetish. If you were actually trans, I'd at least be able to comprehend partially. You feel like you should be a woman, even when you're not turned on, so you go to great lengths to become a woman.

But this is purely a sexual thing with you and OP. I don't know about y'all, but after I cum, my fetishes no longer interest me. So I wouldn't want to base my entire existence around my love for women's assholes. Shit fetishists don't walk around with shit on their faces 24/7, even guys who jerk off to trannies or fuck them from time to time have relationships with real women.

I'm just thinking about getting up in the morning, going to work and having a photo of an asshole at my desk. I certainly couldn't imagine having to physically live out my fetish every moment of my life. There's a time and a place.

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Tell us more about your time with the sissy institute , how long were you there and what all did you do, i had considered messaging them myself.

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Really?
Erectile dysfunction is mutilation to you?

The irony here is, not everything is about sex.
Never getting hard again is not the end of the world.

>In fact, I can't stay hard while fucking a woman, unless we are doing something weird and I'm focusing on that.

Michelin tier bait

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Self induced, purposeful erectile dysfunction is mutilation.

Oh sorry, I didn't go. I was going to, miss did a really good job feminizing me so that was the going to happen. I do not want to relapse. I walk like a damaged person now. If I ever relapse ill likely go

Op again, are you at the point you could go and pass etc? What do you want out of it?
Also I had so many doubts I had to quit being a sissy, you have no doubts at all?

What is a miss? Does she get off on this kind of thing? Is it even a woman?

I'm not using it for sex anyway.
It will make no difference that way.

I can pass with a bit of help with my makeup. As for what i want out of it in not really sure how to answer as im not sure what they do aside from some lovely porn videos. But i am sure that is something i want.

The lilly demaur and the tied up one was what I wanted. To be stored, abused, humiliated and to be beautiful

pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=ph5bd754af89b25
The peferct sissy trigger

Sissies have no rights. Go tell your miss that you are sorry and get your ass to that institute

I'm almost crying because I think I should
Nobody should do what i did I feel stupid

Your upset because you had second thoughts. Stop thinking. Just let your miss do the thinking

>sissy thinking it can recover
What you did is permanent. You let yourself get mindfucked to the point notging can help you.

Are you kidding me now? Their predatory practices should be legally reprehensible.

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Can I just laugh at you?

>Their predatory practices should be legally reprehensible.
Who?

The groomers from the whatever institute and all associated circles.

The institute had nothing to do with op since he never saw them
The only person to blame is op

How old is too old for this institute?

Is it real?

What surgeries do they pay for? Do they literally force you to do porn to pay them back?

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Clearly there are similar groups and individuals obtaining benefit from OP's mental imbalances such as the "miss".

They said recently they want older sissies for milf porn

Like, 30, 40? Late 20s?