Ok anons, i really need help with life, this is gonna be a long one. Please someone help me. This is a cry for help i guess? (I will have to screen shot document cause too many words, save img and tell me if u can read plz)
Ok anons, i really need help with life, this is gonna be a long one. Please someone help me...
Anthony Harris
Adrian Carter
Here pls tell me if u can read it?
Brandon Reyes
To small, sorry megs
Alexander James
Don't worry user it's perfectly readable.
Thomas Moore
Go get a therapist like srsly
If ur living alone then dont tell your family until youre feeling better
U need to get the power to do that and then it will go up from there
If not
Then godspeed user
Its up to you
Matthew Ross
I live with them though thats the uncomfortable thing, i really suck at lying as well. So its really scary for me to consider going to a doctor, how do i keep up the lies. Im too scared to tell them, what if they just wash it off and tell me to be more religous or something?
Jeremiah Rodriguez
What fucking meme advice. Yes let him waste time and money on delusional jews so they can ruin his body and mind further with their meds.
Isaac Stewart
Unironically do drugs. I am in a similar place but i wanna melt my brain on dmt before trying to off myself an hero. Also i use the possibility of suicide as something that ease my anxiety and anguish. I really wish to help you but i do not know how but this is what i do.
Good luck in your decision user i hope you will be better someday
Nicholas Williams
Ive always been scared of drugs since i have intrusive thoughts, i feel like if i losen up to much i could hurt someone or myself. I had that relationship with suicide in the past, however it seems much more real now and it feels like a "when" rather than "if". Thx for the advice tho user, good luck
Gabriel Harris
100% just go to the doctors, they can refer you to psychologist/psychiatrist so you can get some help. you're an adult so you dont have to tell your family about going or anything (i think thats what you are getting at) and there is the whole confidentiallity thing so they cant find out (at least im assuming thats how it works there).
my parents are super-boomers and my dad still doesnt believe that mental illnesses are real. i just told them i was going to the doctors and went.
Jacob Roberts
If u dont mind me asking, what happened to you once u went? with your doctor and with your family?
Wyatt Reyes
And you're delusional if you think everyone is out to get your money
It's true that some meds are bullshit and some doctor want to exploit you but ypu have to be an absolute idiot to fall for it
Jayden Allen
You're delusional if you think even a single person on this Earth actually cares for you beyond exploiting you
Carter White
You wont get far in life if you think that way user
If you seek solitude and and a live without love than this blackpilled thinking is the way to go
I dont think you're completely wrong but this will only end in suicide
Nicholas Harris
got referred to a a few specialists, got help both - antipsychotic meds and a started seeing a psychologist, who didnt really get where i was coming from, but still helped to be able to talk through it with someone.
parents were sort of quietly relieved i guess, we never really talked about it much, but we dont really talk about anything at all, especially inner feelings etc. so make of that what you will. mum actually said she was glad i seeked out some help, felt nice that she at least acknowledged there was something wrong with me for once.
Oliver Carter
That's the only ending my life could have
Aiden Howard
Do you actually feel better now? like what does it feel to be on meds like that? (i mentioned before i've never really took drugs or been sick enough to be drugged?) did u get diagnosed with anything?. Sry if im asking to many questions user.
Anthony Parker
legit try drugs(idk like dmt or acid) like you need to change your mindset completely
and fast before you end up on a rope. Which i know from experience isnt always full proof like you need lots more time than you may expect to hang around hehe.
David Murphy
Ill but in again and say that going to doctors or like a rehab/aslyum was a good change for me as I got to meet other people who also had fucked up outlooks on life it helped me realize I wasn't completely alone. Dropped my meds a long time ago tho feeling bretty good hope I helped at all
Cooper Jenkins
i'm a lot better now. at first i was shit scared meds would turn me into a zombie or something, but they just made me not feel so depressed all the time. i have bipolar disorder, but i managed to finish uni after this all going down in my 1st/2nd year.
sorry for slow replies im tired and can barely form coherent sentences, and captcha keeps failing to connect
Jack Harris
Commit suicide faggot.
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Evan Powell
Thank for answering my questions user don't be worried, u gave me some things to think about overall.I'm really scared of the zombie like feeling because i've felt like that in my normal life. What u said makes me feel a little less worried. Im still not sure on wether or not i should continue with Uni or not desu in all of this, since i hate what im doing, what do u think? (in 3rd year).
Luis Martinez
No, you dont understand. You need to commit suicide.
Dominic Gray
3rd year of 4 year course? i'd say just finish it because otherwise you'll have a big debt for nothing. maybe defer your course for a year or something, that's what i did. i would assume most unis are super accommodating for mental health stuff (mine was). i had failed so many classes i was about to get kicked out, but i wrote a letter about what i went through and they let me back in no problems.
Nathan Edwards
Scotland is free University, and im in a weird situation since i was in a college for 2 years study which meant after the 2 years, i start at Uni (Kinda like a community college thing they have in US, not sure if ur familiar). I intially didnt think i got in, didnt get an A however i guess they had spaces so allowed me in with a B. I havent checked my email since 3+ months it's start in like a week. Im not really sure if i want to do it, however i guess im acquainted with people who did the same 2 year thing. Doing defer would mean i would be alone i guess, and how do i explain to my parents? (I've been lying i've been studying for a out of class qualifacation for months). Is it better to a be bit more sane with no people i know i dunno? i feel too much of a pussy to contact the uni as well.
Adam Lee
it's so strange, it's almost like im talking to myself 2-3 years ago. I used to get huge anxiety over checking uni emails, and lied to my parents about studying, in the end i had to come clean but it somehow ended up all ok. the uk school system always confused me. if its free then there's not as much pressure to continue but i still feel as if you've made it this far you should finish. deffering was good for me because i had some time to reflect on my thoughts etc. and was pretty comfy having no responsibilities. not sure how you'd go being alone, I basically only talked to some online/mmo friends during that time and it went alright. probably not the best for my mental health but it was better than trying to force myself through uni and all the anxiety/stress it induced as well as trying to process everything
Adrian Rivera
Did Uni end up fine for u in the end? what were u studying?
Grayson Green
barely scraped by with a 50 average but i got the piece of paper. i studied chem, what are you studying that you hate so much?
Carson Sanders
Again sry if im writing so much, its weird to say about a random person on the internet, but you're the only person that has shown and inch of worry about my mental state in forever.
Ian Jenkins
>he thinks Im going to read all that
Oh ho ho no nono look at size of that essay. Look at his face . PFFFFAHAHAHA
William Murphy
killing yourself won't do what you think it'll do.
try getting contact with a psychiatrist who can give you some medicine and/or cognitive behavorial therapy. if you can't or won't do that, then consider dropping yourself deep into something like buddhism or advaita, and learn to dissociate from 'your' desires.
Lincoln Lee
its ok, you dont have to apologize, i could really feel what you are going through when i read what you wrote. if you want to talk more in private: [email protected]
Chase Ross
Sounds like you're creating problems were there are none. Why don't you just do what you want and enjoy life?
Landon Lewis
It will get rid of my problems no? I dont believe in spiriuality (have studied Buddhusm in past) I feel as a big issue about my life is the lack of desire, at this point i've pretty on the edge of fully giving up.
I guess ill try email u if i end up making progress if not ill send u my note eventually, i u want?. Thanks for the advice anyway, ill try think about going to doctor tommorow thanks to u. :)
Kayden Smith
Oh shit, forgot to post an image
Cameron Anderson
glad i could help out, even if it's only a bit. keep me posted, also if you wanna send discord or something to chat feel free. im about to head to bed though so good night
Robert Lopez
oh shit dont have a discord atm due to me ghosting people i dunno, i guess i can make one? I dunno how active ill be tho.
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Adam Gutierrez
Stop being a bitch boy. Nobody will solve your problems. Why the fuck are you here looking for magical words. Youve always been alone. All relationships are an illusion. Theres no actual physical bond besides maybe a few chemicals that tie people together. Go produce some results and take action or youre the weed thats meant to die out you gay faggot.
Kevin Gutierrez
Thanks to everyone who replyed to this thread!!! I got a lot of advice which i will think about. I will update all of u at some point. I'm going to sleep now, good luck and good night to all of u!!!