>be me >be a 27 year old ugly beta loser nofriends autist with no friends or social experiences since school, no female attention ever, never been to pub, club, or party >wake up at 10 am >read atlas shrugged for 60 pages >go running then leave my flat to go in to central London on a hot day >go to the library >walk to south Kensington station and realise the Staceys / Chad-Stacey couples are officially out in force due to the heat and a demoralising summer awaits >randomly go to Whitechapel >leave station and decline a Muslim leaflet; turn right and see lots of market stalls and Arabic music playing; go back in to station >go to Shoreditch high Street >the place is TEEMING with young people in the primes of their lives >felt like an ugly shitty stain >make myself walk through brick lane and nearby for the catharsis that will hopefully finally stop the false hope that "jus going outside bro!" will spontaneously stop me feeling like my 20s were wasted >felt more excruciatingly pathetic than any time in London, even last summer at the Notting hill carnival >Staceys, attractive upper class yuppies, smug probably property rich 40s hipsters revisiting their fun youths everywhere >couldn't keep my gaze at head level (looked at the store signs) in case I saw a girl's look of disgust >nothing left today except the Saturday McDonalds-coffee-lonely self loathing circuit
I felt bad for only reading 60 pages of a book in a sitting. I feel guilty for reading at all because it's a consumercuck activity. I feel bad for not learning maths in my spare time. I feel bad for not doing practical programming stuff in a self taught way without going through tutorials like someone taught to be docile through formal education. But I would feel guilty for programming without going through SICP first. I feel guilty for reading only one book at a time but I felt guilty when in the middle of multiple. I literally don't have the balls to do what I want.
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Gabriel Mitchell
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Josiah Baker
This sounds exactly like me. Every time I go outside I get an overwhelming painful sensation inside and feel like crying, knowing how much I've missed out on.
Landon Wood
Don't feel too bad. When the Muslims decide to takeover, they're all going to get shot, blown up and beheaded while you stay safe in your basement.
Brandon Stewart
Just bee yourself :)
Jeremiah Garcia
Who fucking cares
Mason Rogers
nice blogpost but this isnt Jow Forums
Kayden Morales
shoo shoo, off to r9k faggot
Jacob Ortiz
Sounds like you've got mental issues, friend. You should probably seek help from a professional, not blogposting on an Arcadian boy-diddling dating app.
>Reads Atlus Shrugged >Complains about free market capitalist society Jow Forumstards are bunch of fucking cucks.
Aiden Reed
>I felt bad for only reading 60 pages of a book in a sitting. are you serious? most people can't even read 5 pages in one sitting. Besides, if your want to speed up the process, learn to listen to audiobooks at 2-3x speed in the background while doing other mundane activities, like commuting/cooking/cleaning/whatever. It's also not that big of a deal to skim when necessary, and you can learn how to do that efficiently through the many "speed reading" techniques out there.
>inb4 I can't do all that/it makes me uncomfortable, waaah bull shit. It's a skill like everything else, and it requires practice, and it won't be a fucking comfy. Improve your speed gradually, and don't get impatient. You wouldn't expect to learn how to play a musical instrument in a month, so don't expect to become a fast reader/listener/learner that quick either.
>I feel guilty for reading only one book at a time Good. Then don't do that.
>but I felt guilty when in the middle of multiple. Then you're just looking for excuses to be retarded. Look up 'interleaved learning' and 'spaced repetition', then re-read what I stated above. It's a skill. Practice it.
>I feel guilty for reading at all because it's a consumercuck activity. then stop reading stupid consumerist literature and read some actually useful non-fiction. The only cuck activity here is you moaning about normal mundane activities like they're the worst thing ever.
>I feel bad that I can't learn shit Then learn how to learn, and study actual psychology. Remember: trying the same shit over and over without success is the definition of insanity. So clearly you're missing the skills needed to learn shit. Drop the ayn rand and read stuff from here: pastebin.com/SGHCC68M
You're not in a unique rut of a situation user, plenty has been written about getting out of that shit. All you have to do is become reasonably competent in a single area, and all your other "flaws" and shit will take a back seat.
Hunter Lopez
p.s. in the off chance it applies to you, watch this as well: youtu.be/JowPOqRmxNs
James Perez
Why would you deny a Muslim leaflet? Sharia Law is the answer to all of the West's degeneracy.
You know, if you were Muslim, you wouldn't be so alone? There is a brotherhood in Islam. Real Muslims are degeneracy free too.
Why wouldn't anyone want Sharia Law? It's the answer to the West's degeneracy.
Why do you think they are so obsessed with cucking?
Christopher Miller
i don't bloody think sharia allows anime
Hunter Collins
stop being such a faggot
Cameron Jackson
>seek help from a (((professional)))
Cooper Gray
Asked you before and I'll ask you every Saturday when I see one of your posts on here or /tv/. Want to go for a pint?
Michael Johnson
1. Wash your dick 2. Cut your hair short 3. Work out more to gain some muscles 4. Dress in fitted clothing 5. Find a hobby that isn't /g related (its ok to be a computer nerd but you need to diversify your skills) like wood working or something 6. Try to find a better job or start working harder in your current job 7. DO NOT CHASE WOMEN OR HOVER AROUND THEM
Result: The women WILL COME TO YOU.
Noah Hughes
Lol, so you can take pictures and videos of me and I'll be doxed and made in to a meme and laughed at by everyone irl? Why the fuck would I want to do that?
Zachary Morris
You sound paranoid. I'm literally asking if you want to go for a pint mate. Have you considered I'm in the same boat but less willing to talk about it on a Samoan knitting board?
Oliver Roberts
>No music or concerts As a musician, I am deeply disappointed.
Take a nootropic or Adderall. I recommend adrafanil. Boost your dopamine. Clean up. Go smile in a Stacey's face and pick u up a 5/10 it don't matter bruh
U could live in Kansas like me and not even see people outside or anyone experiencing their lives because there's nothing to do. At this point I'd rather be around the kebabs and fuck their women I'm bored as fuck dude
Alexander Cruz
I'm really sorry to hear that OP but have you tried installing Gentoo ?
I recently turned 15 but I had 2 weeks of vacations, I mostly did something with friends even though I tried to be productive as possible by doing ctf and reading *OS internals volume I and in the last days porting postmarketos. It's just that spending time with friends kinda seems like a waste, like not necessarily, it's just that feeling that I could spent the time with cs instead and get better. idk lads what do you say? I mean I kinda combined it by going to a hackerspace with a friend or recently spraying graffitis with some friends since I like drawing. I'm not really a normie and I wouldn't care if I like things which are popular. It's just that education is kinda whats important to me but at the same time even though I'm an introvert I feel like I'd regret it if I don't go out with my friends. Like I've been on this board for quite a while and I've been full on foss meme and shit. Well I guess you can still have fun even if you concider yourself an "autist" which you are not. Even if I'm too young for this world and board. Just have fun lads this is our only shot of live and I really like y'all here.
Gabriel Harris
Underage b&
Alexander Nguyen
I swear I've seen this EXACT same post before
Christopher Davis
How are people so short? That can't be true.
Jaxson Perez
>Just have fun lads this is our only shot of live and I really like y'all here. You don't belong here GTFO
