Thinking to quit my studies because I suffer of mental diseases and can't keep up in a formal learning environment...

Retard, blaming everyone around for your problems. You need to grow out of your teenager period and get some fucking responsibility.
Go work in a construction site to get your head screwed correctly.

>Opened my first business at 21. Opened my second at 24
What happened to the first one that made you have to open a second one?
>Had to join uni
>because I wanted to
Yeah sounds like you really had to
>Fucked up family forced me to quit
Did they kidnap and physically restrain you or some shit? You're old enough that you're legally autonomous, so anything your family "forced" you to do was probably something you agreed to but won't admit.

Take the slightest bit of responsibility for you life and maybe you won't come off as such an insufferable faggot

Check. Worked in construction and opened a firm in industrial cleaning and windows cleaning. Risked my life every day and it was a beautiful experience. Been there, done that.
Had to leave the county I had the business in because my father lied to me he was dying of cancer.
Fucked up family. Like fairytale villans fucked up level.
I suffered enough. I just want to know about the EE and CS.

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>Take the slightest bit of responsibility for you life and maybe you won't come off as such an insufferable faggot
Especially this, not owning up to your mistakes means you can't learn from them and better yourself.

But they didn't kidnap you and restrain you with rope, did they? Stop blaming your family for your own mistakes. If you keep doing this your life will never get better.

They were paying off people to stalk me online and they threatened that they'll spread rumors about me. If you saw like trailer-thrash movie villains but with a lot of money, that's them. Plus really fucked up shit in the family. I don't have the time nor the willingness to enlist all of the crap I went through because of them.

>They were paying off people to stalk me online
It's really sad that you've convinced yourself of this

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None of those things should have led you to make mistakes. Families fucking suck, it's a universal truth we all have to deal with. If you can't reason with them then ignore them like an adult. But don't use them as an excuse to not forge a better path for yourself ahead. Billions of people live in situations magnitudes worse then yours yet they still make it in the end.

Why?

The hallmark of the normalfag, the just world falacy.

Why is it so hard for niggers like you to accept that the enviroment has an effect over a person's outcome?

youtu.be/CfmAZb6EmlI

Look at this guy, he doesn't have any fucking arms or legs yet he still made it. You're gonna be alright user. You just have to keep up the daily grind like everybody else and not blame others for your mistakes.

Define "mental diseases" please? Because clearly you are in a good enough state to whine on Jow Forums, so insanity is ruled out. If it's "depression" then stop blaming your parents and grow up. Life is hard and you need to grow a sack of balls. I'm telling you this from experience, I wasted years of my 20s being "depressed" and now I'm playing catch up and hoping to finish school before I'm 30. Now I'm gonna have to either spend my 30s doing the shit I should've done in my 20s, or give that up and settle down the first chance I get. In other words either suck it up or get help, if what you have is an actual disease and not whiny made up bullshit

>Having depression means you cannot create a thread.
You dont know what youre talking about. Heres a protip for you: dont.

>Why is it so hard for niggers like you to accept that the enviroment has an effect over a person's outcome?

That's the definition of being a nigger. Even if its true you should think otherwise if you want to be anything worthwhile in the world

Yes I do know what the fuck I'm talking about, but thanks for letting me know it's depression bullshit. Just kys

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Can't you read the post you retard? Like read it, process it and answer it. Fucking Christ I give a bit of a background and fucking mongoloid come out of the woodwork fucking with more or less irrelevant details to the big question.
Let me put this into a form you can process maybe :
>need to stay under psych supervision and under mood altering meds.
>they're suggesting i'm a schizo but i'm only a few days in.:
> I did try this before but i was to pussy to go through with this because i also had to work to support myself in this shithole of a country i had to more in
>my mom was also a shizo and ended herself in her early 40's
>she was having full blown conversations with herself, fucking with random people and beating the shit out of me and my sister and quite possibly 'eased' the passing of her parents
> i have problems sleeping, i sometimes see people between blinking that arent there. i also have a problem with alcohol and drugs because of the brutal beatings i went through because of my mother. i have facial spasms that scare fucking everybody and sometimes i speak with people without realizing they don't exist or they aren't there
>once she broke a spirit level off my back and then cut me with it along my spine and none of this shit registered to my father because in an ex commie country being made a pussy by the wife and caring about family in general was considered a thing for pussies

Because we still have freewill dipshit. There are millions of people born into african-tier poverty who are now middle class US citizens and millions of people born into loving middle class homes who sleep under bridges.

In the end despite what situations or handicaps you may have, you are in control of your destiny.

Never did I, nor the op claimed that ALL is excused in the name of enviroment. What he did claim is that his family had a role in setting him back, and that is true for a lot of people. Its very easy to understate the havok abusive people and abusive relationships can have on a persons life. Specially when that abusive comes from authority figures, whom were supposed to help you out and prepare you for life.

Op has reached out, then you have your immmediate retarded normalfag with his cancerous diatribe of "hurr why do you blame your parents for everything dood youre just a piece of shit". Completely missing the point and arguing against a point that wasnt even raised. A literal strawman.

continue development of templeos
you are now the successor

>>I also have a problem with alcohol and drugs because of the brutal beatings i went through because of my mother
C'mon man, why is it so hard to own up to your mistakes? Yeah you might have a legit mental disorder you need help with but you're also a fraud who thinks it's not your own dam fault for getting hooked on booze.

>"oh boo hoo, woe is me. I am a lowly commoner because my parents didn't let me play nintendo and hit me"
He implied you faggot white knight.

So can fucking computer science or electrical design skills be picked up at home while I put myself together?

based and redpilled
cringe and bluepilled

Why feed the attention whore?

>What he did claim is that his family had a role in setting him back, and that is true for a lot of people.

And so what? Get over, you're a big boy now

It always interesting seeing these normalfag npcs jump to (their thinly veiled version of) the just world fallacy because this is in a way a deep rooted defense mechanism. If there is no justice in the world and everything is not purely a matter of sheer will and merit, than maybe, just maybe their successes and upcomings in life arent a result of their efforts alone, and that angers the neurotypical nomalfag. Notice how the script of the npc in this case is to literally claim that he is better and the other literally needs to die, despite he having come forward, looking for betterment. This is why i barely come to this cesspool anymore.

Yeah obviously but you seem like such a weak willed faggot you'll just give up on that too.

I've noticed tons of kids who bitch on about how their parents beat them, actually deserved every single flogging - and usually need some more.

Wish I knew where OP lived so I could beat the shit out of him for being a faggot and a bad son

I really do hope you're not over the age of 25, because if you are you have no fucking hope of being anything other than a useless retard that blames all of his failures on everything and everyone, other than himself. Fucking pathetic

Agreed

Looking back on it, I wish my parents had beat me more

she'd just walk in an start hitting with no excuses. she cut me. she was poisoning my father in microdoses and once i swapped a plate with the guy and ended up puking.
i got beat for that
I was sickly when i was a kid and i woke up in a pool of blood because for some reason i bleed a lot from my nose? of course i got beat up for that too.

yeah.. you clearly know your shit

I should know. I was that kid. Now that I'm not a fucking "poooooor meeeeeee" tween anymore, I know I earned each and every hit.

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>she'd just walk in an start hitting with no excuses
lel get rekt

You can learn a lot on your own, but going to school has little to do with "learning" and more to do with sticking to goals and accomplishing tasks and meeting deadlines. You seem like the type of person that wouldn't be able to do either.

>I suffer of mental diseases

Like what? I swear to god if you say depression, consider sudoku.

Because the real attentionwhore here is OP and if you feel it's so important to point out a user that triggers you because he has a tripcode then why not simply ignore him and let the thread move on? There's also a "make everyone anonymous" baked into almost every Jow Forums client.

If I had a kid like you, I'd regret that I didn't have the guts to go through with an abortion, too. Cut her some slack - she made a terrible mistake.

>inb4 """anxiety"""

If I had to deal with an insufferable faggot like you everyday, I'd start beating you everyday too

This, out of all the mistakes humans make, kids will always be literally worse than anything else we could fuck up.

Okay okay sweetie pie, I'll alert the entire universe that they need to apologise to you and hand everything to you on a silver platter from now on. You poor thing

What you take is not what i meant at all. You need to learn how to read, literally. Youre deficient in text interpretation. But i wont bother. Instead i will just bow down to your level and say: fucking kill yourself, retard.

You know there's people who've had it worse right? There's chinese kids that get up early in the morning every day to work in sweatshops to make your shoes/clothes and all they get barely covers living expenses each month.

WTF I'm prochoice now.

Show us how to do it.

lmao

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>w-what about Ching Chong or Mgumba

I hate OP but you're worse. No one cares about those subhumans

Point is his whimpering is insignificant and shouldn't be a deterrent in his life. OP is a little bitch and doesn't know how bad things can be.

Also those sub humans make your shoes clothes, without them you'd have to pay insane markups.

Jesus fucking Christ, this is quite possibly the GAYEST fucking thread I have ever seen on Jow Forums. And I've seen crossdressers post their nudes here.

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First post poignant post

is that a female (male)

t. Imperceptive brainlet that believes in free will that can't relate to others

May be too late but meh
I practically flunked out of an EE degree then a math degree. I had bad study habits and suffered from anxiety and depression for years before I got it diagnosed right at the tail end of clunking out of my math degree.
Fortunately I figured out what I wanted to do while I was trying to get my grades up and act.together. I was still trying to do school but I decided to get a job and just started applying to jobs that had the word data in the job description.
I got a job doing basic web dev fullback stuff bc the guy that hired me baited and switched me. did that for 2.5 yrs and bailed on that. Now I have a job doing machine learning for a chat bot for Bank of America.
Try to stay in school, but if you can't it's not the end of the world. You can definitely learn enough online to be a pro.

>OP mentions his family was abusive the sort of thing that shapes your childhood development and existence for two decades
>this triggers the tripfag and his butt buddies and begin engaging in dick-waving contests
You're all pampered autists aren't you? These aren't normal reactions.

It's called acknowledging reality. You can do it without letting it get in the way of the road ahead but it still follows you later in life. We're deterministic bio machines with desicions being made in the brain before we are consciously aware of them. This is scientific fact. Don't argue with me or I'll come and rape your house.

Listen here you little shit, I was born into a fucking orphanages and foster home and don't even have a clue who my family is. Life in my orphanages and foster homes were shit and I suffered so much abuse there. But I didn't turn to drugs, I didn't blame my problems on my parents and I'm now going to uni next year.

We all have free will and can choose our own fates despite harsh upbringings.

Not OP, but I have an interest in ML, and also struggle with depression/mental illness. Your post is definitely encouraging to me.

If we're just machines then explain sentience you stupid fuck.

No you moron. Neuroscience has proven without a doubt there is no free will. Your whole executive functioning is determined by how developed your frontal lobes are. Hard work is nothing more than someone unthinkingly gravitating toward an endeavour and doing it on autopilot. Take some psychedelics and you will see what a bullshit free will is.

source?

They're just brainlets that don't even have a rudimentary understanding how the brain works. They rather believe in free will because they can stroke their egos and harp on about personal responsibility and guilt. They're out of touch with reality.

Edgy. Well I'm going to come to your house and kill and rape you faggots how about that?

It's really not that simple. Sure, in the long run we don't completely have free-will, but trying to predict what a brain will do even in a short span of time becomes a nightmare. We are deterministic, but only so much as we're made of atoms. The brain is still very much a complex/chaotic machine.

I'd also like to point out that how much free will we have is completely irrelevant to this point. Regardless of how limited the choices we can make are, it's still very much possible to improve your mental health. Read "Society of Mind" it talks a lot about the concept of the brain as a society of parts working together. There are parts of the brain which can do things such as seek support, put in work even if you don't find motivation, fight depression, ect... Just in general, it's pointless to say we don't have free will, because even if we don't, we still have good-enough brains to improve our circumstances. That ability is further enhanced by our capacity for logical reasoning over emotional reasoning.

Hi I just thought I'd voice my opinion: Men can't be raped. Thanks for reading.

Sorry to hear that. I have severe ADHD and depression and had help from both my parents and my sister (loaned some money to help me get things). Even my brother sold me a cheap good van for $800.

I feel bad for people with shit families.

>tfw your final-project mates fail because although you may be on the verge of killing yourself 24/7 you're way fucking more into EE, way more professional, just a much better person than they will ever be

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You're an observer being taken on a ride. Go get blackout drunk and see how far you will get with free will. Everything you do and who you are is a function of your brain. Period. No academic takes you normalfags seriously on this subject. Abuse kids with psychotic behavior and the brain will develop around it as being a part of the normal reality.

Oh cool thanks for that wrong fact byyyeeeeee

This contrarian anecdote. So predictable. Shut the fuck up tough guy before I put a party hat on your dog and piss on your house There is no mind outside the brain you idealistic jester.

And what about the vast majority children who are abused, and do not become psychotic? Also, is it really helpful to take group-dynamics and apply it to individuals? Clearly, this is a sort of "black-pill" rationalization. You're trying to convince yourself(or others) to just give up because "we have no free will, and childhood abuse dooms us all to mental illness". Clearly, that is not the case, adopting a more positive outlook(which you or anyone can do) can make it easier to improve your circumstances.

I'm not contending there can't be improvement with the right circumstances and community. I'm getting baited by anons who want to do their brainlet macho routine with OP who suffered some serious shit.

If it all goes to shit join the military.

i agree with this
they are usually just taking up space and doing nothing worthwhile

Differing genetics and changing circumstances and social support through out time. I've found the best path to success is to grow up poor in a communist country as opposed to some rich but abused and isolated millennial who is mentally incapable of making a firm desicion. It's pretty consistent. Even if you improve your life doesn't mean others were so lucky. And in the end we live in a sphere of probability.

This is literally the most offtopic thread on here right now. Can you please fuck off to an appropriate board for your attention whoring needs thanks.

No I'm saying people should acknowledge truth and from that understanding help oneself by the changing of circumstances/variables. Don't want bad outcomes then don't run with a bad crowd. Because saying suck it up pussy is a retard's response which is out of touch with reality and helps no one.

>go to a construction site
>get called a retard for ever asking a question
>surrounded by corner-cutting meth addicts
>get workplace injury within the year with the complementary spinal disk hernia
What an amazing learning experience. Just a cut above being a junior software dev.

>own up to your mistakes
Sounds the sort of gaslighting comment an abusive parent would make. Then again you're a dumb tripfag so you no doubt rape children.

>Abusing gaslighting parent.

Redundant.

Go with CS. You sound like a lazy, incompetent failure with poor prospects and I really don't want people like you tainting the field of EE so stay the fuck out and work be a code monkey. It won't be glorious work but it's a more realistic career goal for someone like you.

Then again you're probably just better off going to a shrink and saying you're so mentally disabled you can't work then living off disability for the rest of your life. Let's be real, it's not like you'll be an asset in any job you do so just stay the fuck out of the way of the productive people and just be a neet or kill yourself.

>there are these kids in Africa that also have it bad so your problems are null and void and have no effect on you
Really going to use this dumbass toddler logic? This ain't a competition.

I accomplished a lot more than most 25 despite setbacks. 2 businesses and helped a lot of people despite my 'bad software'. In all the shit jobs I had until now I made sure I worked my ass off.
So I guess I'll go with EE and thanks for the half rotten advice.

Love,
user.

Don't listen to this myopic loser, OP. His autism prevents him from feeling empathy. He lacks that intelligence. I will kill him one day for you and open up a spot in EE for someone who deserves it.

t. good goy wageslave who works to prop up a decaying society

If by chance you manage to end up applying where I work I'll make sure HR rejects your ass and I'll personally see to it you are blacklisted. We have a lot of industry connections. Once a failure always a failure.

Necessary. This thread isn't exactly full of people who catch on quick.

Woo.. Edgy af. What's the name of the company?

I'll just say I work at a company that designs and characterizes various RF and microwave frequency components. I don't want to reveal too much personal information obviously.