I am 19 years old. Dropped out of a selective high school/university program after being placed 'under protection' for a suicide attempt over a year ago. I failed a very important interview since I was too ashamed to talk. I still have failed to achieve anything since then. I am becoming non-verbal again. I do my own programming projects, unfortunately I will never be able to get into a good university now. I cannot go to university now. Very miserable. I was even rejected from stacking shelves. I was quite severely abused as a child by my mother (wasn't fed, developed kwashiorkor, hit very often, paid for my other brothers to get tutors and go to grammar schools etc.), that's probably what made me gay. I applied to American universities with a perfect SAT score this year, but since my parents refused to support me ***RIGHT UP UNTIL AFTER THE DEADLINE*** so that they could pretend to care, I was unable to sit any subject tests. This, combined with the fact that I was unable to participate in any ECs and that I had gotten Fs in the previous year (you fail tests you don't show up to) resulted in rejections. Is there much of a future? I make web apps and the such, but I was never able to participate in any EC's during school, so foreign universities are not possible. Unfortunately I see only further stagnation and indignity in my future. I lift, I do MMA rather competently, however, I will never be able to meaningfully apply my mathematics in the ways which satisfy me. Shameful I've not done mathematics in some time, but am easing myself back into it with some STEP/Olympiad problems. Nonetheless, it is for no greater purpose.
Is there a future for those of us which don't go to university?
What the fuck are you talking about. Just go to a normal school you fuckwit. No one cares what school you went to in the real world.
James Roberts
Sorry, which board am i on? I thought this was Jow Forums
Jaxon Perry
Transition and get hired to fill a diversity quota
Owen Gonzalez
stop being such a child
Easton Roberts
grow up and stop being a faggot
Lucas Cruz
Open a Patreon to produce ABDL gay porn
Robert Lewis
wanna talk? email, irc or some shit?
John Jones
whiny little bitch
Julian Foster
Trust me man i was in the same boat make some friends some good ones that'll help you get out there but most importantly start believing in yourself more your not gonna go anywhere unless you grab life by the balls you got some good intelligence but stop being retarded good luck my dude
it gets worse even if you ~~succeed in life~~ become a heroin fiend
Xavier Diaz
>I failed a very important interview since I was too ashamed to talk. >I am becoming non-verbal again. This is ultimately your biggest issue. You need professional help. Something nobody on Jow Forums can give you unfortunately. I do absolutely wish you the best of luck user, that shit sounds horrible.
It's by no means am ideal situation or job you'll get, but of you aren't good at advertising yourself to employers let someone else do it for you. Just give a temp agency a resume and they will try to find you potential jobs. It's in their best interest to find you something. I was getting denied from clothing stores and shitty retail positions and they got me in a position where I sit silently and send emails for $21/h. You can find something. I've heard bad things, but I feel like there's a decent demand for data entry shit and I doubt you'd need to interact a ton.
Logan Gonzalez
>zoomer yes, do it now.
Adam Rodriguez
data entry is still a thing in 2019???
Asher Sanchez
おーおちんちん~! おーおしり~! おーおにいちゃん~! いーいく~!
Lucas Morales
boo fucking hoo princess. you think your life is over because you have some social anxiety and can't get into a top university? cry me a fucking river.
Ryan Rodriguez
Fucking off yourself already
Ian Cruz
Yes, I know about 5 people who do it.
Luke Price
>I lift, I do MMA Post body?
Jacob Walker
You can get into the industry without a degree but you may start as a position that isn't a dev. At FAANG they have a role called support engineer that helps devs by doing some builds/automation/etc.
You could also just go to a community college, focus on making your GPA good there, then transfer to a 4 year school.of your choosing. You'll save a lot of money, and have the same diploma as people who went there for four years, and have basically the same education.
You got a lot of options user, if you ever want to talk my kik is ggcloudkicker
I should also add that some of the best and hardest working people I've ever had the joy to work with have been college drop outs.
Easton Bennett
Lambda School is a good option if you're considering coding bootcamps
Hudson Rodriguez
university is a cucked land make something, something the world cant ignore, like an AI. fuck their useless degrees. degrees are for followers who want to obey the standard, not set them. I should know, I'm the former
Jason Campbell
Don't be fooled by that.
The only guy I ever knew that did MMA was my office's token incel who got laughed at by everybody. Every time I feel bad about myself I think about that little cuck and instantly feel a little better.
OP reminded me of him.
Sebastian Gonzalez
Bro I'm 33. I dropped out at 12 and never went past grade 6 education. I was NEET from 12 to 23.
It never mattered, I never picked up a skill, but because I -DIDN'T- go to uni and just started working at 23 for min wage, I now have a nice car, have lived alone for 6yrs, have investments and $20k in monies. Turns out not buying expensive shit and not living beyond your means goes a long way.
True but good schools offer you opportunities in the form of networking. You can get your education going to some shit school but good luck getting invited to work at your bro's father's company after graduating.
Many of us didn't have many friends in school regardless so that may be a moot point.
Oliver Thompson
LOL
Adam Gonzalez
fpbp.
Levi Sanders
the fuck are you complaining about; you only delayed your career by 3 years at most.
i couldn't afford college once i looked at my admit letters, and was really stressed out by the fact that i'd start at least a year late. i decided to take a gap year and work on some cool personal projects; and got a job offer at a FAANG before even starting college. i decided to try to get a degree a few years later. I'm currently pursuing a PhD in EE at some top university rn, and make 4x more than the STEM/CS majors my age. With no student loans, to top that off.
take a gap year, work on some useful shit, get a job, and reapply to college. you've got 40 years of your career ahead of you; no one is gonna give a shit if you start college 2-3 years late. in fact, you may even be in a better position than your peers, since you'll get extra experience and not have to take out student loans.
or just don't go to college, it's a scam anyways. employers in bay area don't give a shit about your credentials as long as you can write good code; that's something Pajeet from Stanford can't ever do.
Lucas Clark
>True but good schools offer you opportunities in the form of networking
that is complete BS and I will tell you why. Everyone you meet in college is not going to be of any use to you since they too are trying to become something. Even the ones who snow ball or have something lined up after are not going to give two shits about you if even make a meaningful connection with them. If anything you are just seen as competition. Why would anyone who was lucky to land a job make it easier for you to get in and risk you either being better than them and taking their desired opportunities or being terrible and embarrassing them?
As for what school you went to its literally only good for coffee talk. No one gives a shit if you went to big name U and most of the people you will meet in the real world never went and do not like the fact that you did. All a degree is worth for is the weeding process for hiring but even then work experience trumps everything. period.
stop being a baby and do what you have to in order to convince the idiots at HR that you are who they need to hire.
Carter Russell
Pretty much this. While my case isn't nearly as bad as yours, OP, I had massive self-esteem problems due to my life circumstances. At some point though, you have to start thinking that you have to do it and pretend that you are competent enough you can do it even if you feel you can't. Then, when you've done it, realize you were right all along. I'd suggest getting out of your parents' house because that seems to be holding you back from your true potential. Get a job and see if you can find a friend to live with for the time being and if not, see if you can stay at a homeless shelter or university department with a couch or something you can sleep on. Also, get a gym membership so you can take a shower and eventually get Jow Forums if you aren't already. That will go a long ways to making you realize your true potential. Also, you're fucking 19. You have a long time to figure out what you want to do with your life. Just make the most out of each day.
Nicholas Clark
1. This isn't Jow Forums related. 2. You sound like a fucking liar.
Robert Hernandez
>Get a job Didn't you read the part where it refuses to speak at interviews? lol Not even the people that pretend to want to help care enough to read what OP posted.
Samuel Cook
He can always go to one of those public job/career-seeking programs and work it out with them. Also, he should probably seek therapy for that tbqh.
Bentley Ross
what is your experience for this job? I'd love to have that kind of work if its full time.
Austin Thomas
Oh just slit your wrists and get it over with (along, not across). I'm exhausted with depressed autists whining on anonymous forums. Go away, you are not needed, you are not wanted.
