I'm glad this board doesn't have the porn problem /b/ does, but it still seems like more legitimate conversation is on /b/ and Jow Forums is just for people to post about inane things and ironic memes.
Talk about something meaningful to you in this thread.
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it’s my birthday today if that means anything
Only if you can talk about something meaningful to you.
this
i hit my head yesterday and now im starting to wonder if I have a concussion
i mean the amount of love I got today from my family was really nice
Go on?
I'm about to fuck up my sleep schedule so fucking badly
Idk. I just been in a rough patch recently and it was really refreshing having people close to me so loving
I fucking hate my studies, but I'm doing it for my parents. I don't want to disappoint them. They're the reason why I haven't an hero'd yet
ME CHINESE ME PLAY JOKE ME PUT PP IN YOUR COKE
What studies? Why do it for them? Do you really think you would commit suicide if not for them? That is a common thing people say but they never kill themselves after their parents die. People who find a reason to stay alive tend to keep finding reasons to stay alive when that reason leaves. It's almost as if they don't want to kill themselves.
Keep going. You're almost there. Tell us the tale. This board isn't for one sentence facebook updates.
why? I did that the other day but it slid back to the norm fast.
Fuck, I can relate to that man. My mother means the world to me.
I'm personally bad at procrastinating until the last minute and not having my assignments done. So I'm trying to kick that habit so I do better with school this year.
Meh. I made a longass post about it awhile back, and I’m in a relatively good mood so I don’t feel like going over it again.
>I am not in the mood to talk about anything meaningful so I'm just gonna keep replying to this thread about meaningful discussion anyway
Why?
keep bumping it and someone will start talkin
Happy Birthday, Amerifriend. Whatever happened to Birthday Paddy?
I want to make them proud. I managed to enter a well renowned school back at home, and it really made them happy. But I do not really want to do it. In fact, I hate it, like I said. But they've always be so good to me, almost too good.
I don't know how I will feel when they will be gone, probably sad. Maybe by then I will find something else to live for. Maybe I won't and be too much a pussy to do it. But there is not a single day that goes by without me thinking about it. I'm not idealizing death, like some edgy teenager that wants to stuck it up to the world. Everything is just so tiring, so unsatisfying that, if it were up to me to decide, I'd just lay in my bed, and maybe let myself die.
But they're just too good, I don't want to disappoint them.
Thank you, Northern Neighbor :)
Well, what's something meaningful to you OP? If you don't mind me asking of course.
I have a very serious procrastination problem. I'm getting better, much better than I was, but I still end up doing things close to the last minute far too often. My new plan to move forward is to divide a big project into small chunks and do 1-2 of those chunks a day, because by the end of it it really adds up. Any advice?
My mother has always been very nice, caring and supportive of me. As is my dad, in other ways.
Procrastination is really hard to deal with. I don't suffer from that in particular, thanks to my self-discipline, but I failed one year of uni back then because of it. That's the last things I took things lightly
Right now something that has been on my mind a lot is the idea of friends bettering each other. There's obviously a lot of different approaches to it, but the one I most commonly find myself falling into is simply being inspired by my friends, and in a way competing with them. I have a problem though where I have one friend who is very unmotivated. I don't believe everyone needs to pursue the same things I do but he has some things, particularly writing, that he says he wants to pursue, but then never does. He took two years off to pursue writing and never wrote anything. I'm not sure where to draw the line with tough love.
my best friend for many years basically just said our relationship is made up of me making gay jokes and other dumb shit. I think I might be a joke to her. I don't feel great about it, but I also don't like being serious person. It's stressful.
I actually have that problem too. I've found that breaking up a task (like you mentioned) helps.
I've personally found that short breaks help me retain my productivity and willingness to work.
For example every 30 minutes of work I'd give myself a 10 minute break. The most important part is to stick to that schedule so you don't end up procrastinating more.
then I guess in a way she is right. There are people who might appreciate you the way you are, but if you aren't wanting to associate with them it should say a lot about the kind of person you are yourself.
Like said, it's a good method to deal with procrastination. More often than not, it comes from being overwhelmed with a task that is difficult or time-consuming. So dividing it in smaller chunks really helps.
And also, it might sound stupid, but I've found another way to force me to get shit done: whenever I manage to do something productive, I'll do something I like right after. It has been working fairly well so far
Well I can kind of relate to your friend. I used to draw all the time but I became very unmotivated to do more of it. I stopped for two years before picking it up again. Since then I've drawn something every 6 months, except for last summer because I either haven't had the time, energy or motivation to draw.
Is there any specific genre he likes to write? Maybe getting him a book on that genre as a gift could help.
Might be a good idea to get it checked out. Sometimes you won't have all the external signs, but still feel irritable and slow.
She's my best friend, not my only friend. But none of my friends take me seriously, and I guess I thought she knew better and considered my jokes a surface level thing. But now I am worried that she thinks my lame buttsex jokes are most of my personality.
I don't understand why this is a problem exactly. Did she say it disgusted or in some other negative manner?
Because I don't like making gay jokes anymore. I've kind of gone and grown up but that means our entire relationship must change or cease to be, because I'm no longer the person she's always been friends with.
>More often than not, it comes from being overwhelmed with a task that is difficult or time-consuming.
Yes, it used to have a snowball effect for me where by the end of it I would have so much work to do in such a short amount of time that I started to say "fuck it" and take the consequences of not doing the task.
>whenever I manage to do something productive, I'll do something I like right after.
Oh boy... is there anything I like doing? Mega Man 11 would be a pretty good reward system since it's just frustrating enough that I'd only want to play it in short bursts. I'd have to find another game to replace it once I beat it though. Disgaea 1? I dunno.
What exactly makes her your best friend? Does she feel the same?
Do you do nothing but make gay jokes?
Idk, user, some people are good friends regardless and others are good friends depending upon the setting or activity. Ike a drinking buddy could be one of your best friends, but only within that activity or setting. What category do you both fit into?
i think it'll be fine, im a little more concerned about the cause for the fall
For me, it was drinking after I got an assignment done (or at least partially done). It's kind of silly, but hey, it's a motivator when you really feel like cracking open a cold one and you brain associates the two.
What was it?
He tends to write sci-fi ish kind of things, but the issue isn't really that he doens't know how to write I don't think, there's just zero motivation. I think it honestly may be more of a case of someone who wants to be a famous writer but doesn't actually enjoy writing. I tried to push him in my own way at first. I have a friend who I look up to because he's always doing great things, and when he does something cool it inspires me to try something even if it is a radically different thing. So I wrote a book thinking it might make my 'writing' friend want to get with it too, but 112 pages later and he's only written about 4. He averages about 1 page per week when hes doing 'good'.
We had a big talk about it the other night and he says he wnats someone to push him so I said I'll do it, but its become a bit of a burden after only two days. He just says 'maybe later' When I try to get him to do it and things like that. He managed to get I think two pages written but its hard to tell because he goes out of his way not to share the whole amount of progress with me, but then keeps trying to get me to read what little progress he will send which doesn't really make sense to me until there is at least a chapter.
I'm not sure. I suppose the uncertainty is what makes it so stressful and makes it feel so bad. What if she and I are only friends in the context of me being a child and goofing off in basic ways? It's weird thinking about her not being my friend. Maybe I'm afraid of making her feel like I've gone and ruined things and betrayed her and made our friendship go away, but how can I continue this way and dare call myself honest?
Also, do any of you have tips to better deal with anxiety? Last night I had yet another episode, and it feels really, really awful. Any idea how to calm myself down in these situations?
I don't drink but maybe I could eat an apple or something. It would probably be better to do it every time I get that day's portion done, since apples are a good snack it doesn't pack on calories the same way a beer would.
>112 pages
dang, do you have your story in a PDF file or something? I wanna read it.
define "anxiety"
There's nothing wrong with making gay jokes and goofing off, but it sounds like you grew and changed, which isn't bad. Don't be fake to her, but it sounds like you really like her as a friend, so maintain that relationship. If she feels you're just as important, then your friendship might evolve past jokes. Or you'll grow apart. Idk, if she's that good of a friend, ask her what she meant exactly, (not in a pissy tone though).
i had just been out for a smoke before bedtime, so i go into the bathroom to brush my teeth and clean out the pipe, when im finished i forget what I was doing, I begin to feel very dizzy, everything slowly goes black and I hear something hitting the floor, the sound made me realise it was me
this happened 2 more times in the kitchen, the last time it happened I don't even remember falling, I just woke up on the floor while everything I was holding scattered on the floor
I know exactly what she meant. I felt it ever since I moved out of my parents and started to act more like an adult, which was years ago. I suppose it's probably just best to be direct about it.
Go to the doctor and tell them all of this.
I'm no expert, but it's possible you might have a brain tumor. I'd go to a doctor as soon as possible.
Well, I get anxiety attacks: heart beating faster, cold sweats, narrowed vision, fight or flight and all the jazz.
But I also have general anxiety: a constant fear of everything. It's rarely a reasonable fear, not a useful one. It often comes with stress, but I feel like it's a different thing too. I don't know how to put it into words.
You should definitely get that checked. Best case scenario you just had hypoglycemia. But that also sounds a lot like what people get before or during a stroke. Not a doctor, but a member of my family that just so happens to be one told me something eerily similar.
>do you have your story in a PDF file or something? I wanna read it.
No, it's only a first draft anyway. It's chapters are episodic so my plan right now is to revise it and record an audio version and put it up as a creepy pasta.
i think the reason this happened was because i skipped "dinner" that day since i didn't feel very hungry and smoked up the cannabis very fast, on top of that i am pretty tall and skinny
these 3 things combined probably got me a low blood pressure aswell as low blood sugar, but I dont know, should I still get myself checked?
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Oh. Sadly I'm not sure I can help you with that - I've never had an anxiety attack or even general anxiety, though I have had massive anxiety over very specific topics. In my limited experience, the fear is often not what you think. When I was in 7th grade I had a crippling, irrational, and extremely intense fear of detention, and I always tried to remain quiet and unobtrusive for the most part. One day though I finally got detention because a bunch of kids were eating lunch in the classroom and invited me to sit with them. I was so scared that I cried in fear and had to be sent to the principal's office. I shook in horror when they called my mother. But she wasn't angry when the situation was explained, and understood. After that my anxiety towards detention mostly dissipated. I realized that I was scared of my mother, not the detention itself. Some specific, hidden fear might be the source of your general anxiety.
Better safe than sorry with symptoms like these. But yeah, if you didn't eat when you usually would, it could have been hypoglycemia, I guess
ah, that's a shame. I hope you link it here or in the writefag threads on /lit/ when you do.
Oh I know what the fear is, it's just me being a failure and a disappointment to my parents, as I talked about earlier.
I feel like tonight is going to be one of those nights. I already feel kind of bad right now.
thanks for reading the blog btw
something similar happened a year or 2 ago under similar circumstances, but maybe because I was sober it wasn't as extreme and I didn't fall
i am not really concerned honestly, im just bad at taking care of myself when it comes to eating and sleeping
You should take better care of yourself, still. Passing out is not a normal thing humans do
The only way you can alleviate the fear of being a failure and a disappointment to your parents is to realize that your failures and obstacles are not insurmountable. So long as you realize you have a problem, you are not too far gone.
i will be more careful regarding this
but what I find weird is that it feels like a concussion almost 24 hours later, especially since my elbow is really sore and swollen i think it took the bigger hits
A fall can seriously hurt, even if you're a fine young lad. It all depends on how you fall.
Expectations are high, still, and the amount of work I do barely shows for itself. Any slip up, and I fear I will not succeed. But I've learned to deal with that. It's the episodes that are really scary.
oh well, I felt like I had to tell someone, sadly I don't think I can help you in return
The only thing meaningful to me is out living my enemies.
Right now, it is just me waiting. But if I get a terminal disease it is time to hunt.