Why are you escaping it, user ?
/reality/
It sucks, why else?
my bad grades
This
My brother gets married this week. I'm happy and all but it made me realize how much I have missed out. He is a few years older but did everything right. Good job (actually, two jobs, some uni offered him the opportunity to teach), healthy realtionship, a kid, a solid group of friends. I have none of that. I had a good job but they laid me off a few months ago. I started heavy drinking again and have nobody to talk to.
What sucks.
Reality
Can't you find a similar job ? Alcohol is fine for a few days and then your body gets used to it and makes you fat.
I guess I could but things are not good around here. Way too much inmigrants (from venezuela specially) Also that job was Good. Really good. I don't think I could get one better. Also the fact that I lack motivation, and even when I had a job I just lived for it. Had money, but still a virgin solitary fag. I need purpose in my life
I can't remember the last time i had hopes
My days go by like dreams that you have and forget when you wake up