Anyone else suffer from OCD?

Is the lack of punctuation related to your OCD?

i also when i was 9 til i was 15 removed from home to be put on some idk treating centre and it was the saddest time of my life

Yep, I suffer from it.

Would wash my hands for 30 minutes, sometimes with dawn dish cleaner until they're red and fiery. They burn for a day after. I did this for years on and off. Also had/have an eating disorder. At one point was eating nothing but oatmeal, salmon, and yogurt. I'd go to my calculus 1 class (I was a freshman in college then), come home, eat another salmon oatmeal bowl and lay down on bed thinking about killing myself. There're also weird repetitive ticks (think sniffing or blinking) that I find difficult though possible to suppress.

That's what OCD is like.

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>number if enemies
I’m shaking my head right no

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>oatmeal, salmon, and yogurt.
Very Swedish diet

NUMBER OF*************

i did this as well when i was younger
my hands would crack and bleed so fucking often it was so horrible

love to see you suck

At least your digits were eaven, right?
By the way. Am I really triggering your ocd? I hope not. I’m deeply sorry if that’s the
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so i used this everyday and it only helped a small bit

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no
my ocd is only bad at night and
i usually have to turn off and on the lights about 8 times and stuff and thoroughly wash my hands before i go to sleep

At what point can you consider you're on the spectrum?
I wash my hands more often than necessary (if I can't wash my hands if i'm eating outside for exemple, i'll just eat my sandwich like a retard with a towel or whatever just to not directly touch the food), also patterns and routines that I follow everyday exactly the same for many different thing from grooming to making coffee, get irrationally annoyed if some hangs their coat on my own self proclaimed spot at home or move stuff in my room, or just trying to perfectly align stuff like paper, pens and whatnot.
Overall it's not too bad and seems to allow me to have a very useful attention to details etc, just don't know if it could be considered as a mild form of OCD.

that would be mild OCD

I'm in my late 20s now and still have extreme difficulty not self destructing into a scrubbing frenzy on my hands. I also do that with showers.
My skin gets extremely dry. Hair gets all knotted up from abuse of shampoo. It's hard to describe the feeling of intense corruption that is a daily experience and the consequent explosive compulsion to "purify it" in some ridiculous soapy manner. Delusional really.

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My friend. What if you tried to not do it.
Try and stay awake until you can’t and just go to bed.

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degenerates like you belong on a cross

then i won't get peace in my mind
and i will feel bad

wont fix the issue

Then he probably won't be able to take his mind off it and wouldn't be able to sleep. My brothers OCD got so bad at one point he was worried he wasn't going to be able to sleep at night, not even realizing his worrying WAS making him not sleep at night.

Yeah that's what I figured. It never bothered me in any way until someone asked why I always washed my hands upon arriving at uni.

i remember my first sign of ocd
Or i think it was the beginning of it
i was in an elevator with my friend licking on a popsicle and suddenly i felt really really weird like i was in my own thoughts and this wasn't real
and and then some days later in school i found it extremely gross when i saw that people didn't wash hands after they been to the toilet ( i was 8 at the time) and i told them to wash their hands and i felt bad doing it but it bothered me and it never bothered me before and everytime i came home i would take off all my clothes except my underwear and splash water and soap onto myself

Have you tried Xanax? You think it would work?

I did try to get Xanax for my anxiety

But instead i got prescribed
chlorprothixen
which gave me terrible fuckign heart problems
it was basically like snorting cocaine heart wise
so ever since i took it i have had heart palpitations and chest tightness and heart cramps and whenever i get my pulse up when running it feels like my heart is about to explode
(i took the medicine in august last year 2 times)

How should I know? I don't have anxiety or any kind of disorder that would warrant taking it, at least I don't think so.

I definitely get that. Most people seem so clueless. I explained to that one person who asked why I washed myself after arriving at uni that I did it because I rode the tramway there and public transport is very dirty and their reaction was "uhh yeah i guess".
Likewise, watching kids put their fingers in their mouth in public transport makes me physically cringe.

lol no
psychiatry prescriptions are a meme, they're only ever worth it in very specific ailments and OCD is certainly not one of them.
The only thing that can help cure it is lots of behavioral therapy and commitment on the part of the patient

yeah that is gross
and wtf i just felt like a pop or something in the left back of my head

Sucks to be you. What if this was your desk. Could you live with it?

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no but that has nothing to do with OCD
Im not organized in any measure but I would never let it get this bad just out of my own standards, nothing to do with OCD itself
But then again my OCD is practically non-existent

I don't have OCD you fuck

You brother. Do you think he’d handle it well?

Yes
i could

OCD isn't about organizing things, it's about obsessing over little details that people with OCD make a huge deal over. Most are actually aware what they're doing is whacky if I'm not mistaken.

>their reaction was "uhh yeah i guess".
That person is a dumb
Public transport IS dirty as fuck 99% of the time, it's only common sense to wash your hands afterwards

when i leave me house i take a shower everytime i get back home and change into clean clothes
so i try not to leave my house cause i hate taking a shower

Yes. It plagues me immensely, but I've learned to live my life around it.

I have many everyday things, such as excessive hygienic habits as other people have mentioned with washing hands etc, but I have habits for my whole body almost. I mean, depending on how "unclean" I feel, it can take me like an hour to shower, but my OCD won't let me "feel clean" until I've washed the same areas of my body several times over. I also have a specific order in which I clean each area.

Another thing that is quite major is symmetry. Like, I can't flip light switches with one hand only, I have to repeat the action with my other hand for "touched skin equality", so to say. On days when it's bad, I also have to repeat the action in reversed order so that that both hands or fingers had the same experience in the same order. And then I might have to do that set of four in full reverse order as well so that the order in that set of four is also equal on both hands.
This can apply to almost anything, like bumping your elbow to the door frame, turning door handles, bumping your toes into a table leg, any such case really. This can be really bothersome when it gets out of control.

I also avoid uneven numbers in general for certain things, such as volume bars etc.

I also have this idea of checking any area I've been in excessively before leaving in case I dropped or forgot something, and even though I can clearly see that there is nothing there, I can sometimes turn back and check several times in a row. Sometimes even counting to ten for each spot I check in order to minimize the time it takes to do all this shit. This even comes in the form of me turning around to check the road where I just walked every X amount of meters to see if I dropped something. And if see something on the road far away which I am not sure of what it is then I have to go back all that way and check it.

OCD is fucking terrible.

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Hmm i see. Didn’t know this.

where's our heroin

Yes thankfully it’s got a bit better with age but I still get obsessions over the stupidest of things

Anons
Can you pinpoint exactly when your OCD began?
A traumatic event in your childhood perhaps?
You dont need tot ell me what it was but is that the case? For me it was a very clear and specific thing around the age of 9-10

when i was 8 in an elevator or atleast i think that's where it started

My father used to beat the shit out of me to the point of terror. Before he would he would question me what I did wrong like I was a criminal and he was the rouge cop. Even though I had no idea what I did wrong, rather then tell me what I did wrong he would press repeatedly, getting angrier every time letting me know that I was about to get beaten if I did not admit to what I did wrong, which again, I did not even know what I did wrong. that's probably where my obsession to detail and fear came from. A lot of my problems come from my childhood. I fucking hated childhood. Fuck this thread for reminding me.

why did he beat you
and was your mother nice to you?

thank you user. That's a very interesting insight involving guilt and control. I think the condition definitely has to do with those ideas. We attempt to control fate itself through our little rituals, and feel as though that responsibility rests on us almost exclusively.
Thank you for sharing

No, but I was taken to doctors at a very young age because I was a troublesome child. I was quickly diagnosed with assburgers and OCD. I hated this since I felt I was being treated like some mental patient, so I grew to hate the doctors and my parents for bringing me there even more and became even more troublesome for them as a result. However, I myself noticed the shift when I became troublesome. It happened sometime during 1st or 2nd grade. I stopped being excessively angry when I moved out at 18 (best thing that could have happened to me at that point in my life).

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It's not that simple. OCD is one of those things where medicine is required at higher levels, along with at least once a week therapy.

your local biker dude

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I always carry a small bottle of hand sanitizer for these reasons. But I still wash my hands when I get home, since even though the germs died from the alcohol, I still have dead germs on my hands.

it feels bad knowing i have to live the rest of my life with this fucking mental disease.

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YES.
people can kill germs all they want but the germs will still be there, just dead.

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>It happened sometime during 1st or 2nd grade
do you think the treatment you received as someone suffering a mental disorder attributed to that change?
Or was it something else?
>. I stopped being excessively angry when I moved out at 18 (best thing that could have happened to me at that point in my life)
that's great user. I think we all have the ability to make ourselves better

>go outside
>lock my door
>pull it 3 times to see that it's actually locked
>twist the key as far as i can
>pull the door even harder
>okay it's safe
>go outside
>fuck... maybe the door is unlocked...

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Your mom

Started when I was 14; nothing in particular caused it, just general teenage anxiety. Treated it pretty quick and was good for about 3 years. Happened again in late high school, same deal. Went to therapy again and was good for another 2 years. Hit me again pretty hard (not as hard as in HS though) at the beginning of last fall when my cat got really sick, though I'm mostly better now (and my cat is 100% healthy).

It's a coping mechanism, it hits when you're most stressed out from my experience.

You eat germs every day. Do you get bothered by this?

>It's a coping mechanism, it hits when you're most stressed out from my experience.
this is definitely true
what im wondering is if there is a way to circumvent or replace it altogether
What was therapy like?

>it feels bad knowing i have to live the rest of my life with this fucking mental disease.

You don't. I mean, you might have to take medicine most of the time, yeah, but that's a hell of a better life than living with OCD day after day. Try to stay positive, user. I wish you the best of luck.

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no cause they are good germs
what bothers me most is pee, cum, and feces
spit is also gross but less gross

>anyone else suffer from OCD?
No but I had a friend who after eating mushrooms and living on a summer vacation island during the winter off season got it. It was had hut ue saw a therapist and he worked through it. I know unlike other mental issues it can be overcome without drugs and/or lifelong therapy. You need to hook up with a therapist who knows how to deal with it.

also for some reason disabled people really trigger my ocd
i just find them so gross

and thank you, what kind of medicine are we talking about?

i always double check if my computer is actually turned off lol

>do you think the treatment you received as someone suffering a mental disorder attributed to that change?
I was only taken the child psychiatrists after I started being angry and acting strange, so I don't know where the change came from really. Nothing particularly negative went on in my life at the time either (that I can pinpoint anyway). I assume it was just a resting assburger (which is essentially low-functioning autism when you are a kid) that bloomed or something.

>that's great user. I think we all have the ability to make ourselves better
Indeed. Ever since I moved out and went through some ups and downs and eventually met friends I have become a much, much better person - for myself and for others around me. My mother is very glad I changed and understand her. I was an evil little fucker in my worst period.

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>What was therapy like?

For me, I saw an OCD specialist along with a psychiatric for medication, so it was mostly exercises to help you overcome your obsessions/compulsions one step at a time; i.e. counting to a certain number or writing down a mistake and not fixing it. For me, it helped, but everyone is different, so take that with a grain of salt.

Also fuck these new captchas. Shit takes forever.

also goodnight bros
i hope this thread is still alive when i wake up

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snot?

And I hear you. I am glad that I am not a parent. I honestly don't know how I'd cope with the childrens' youngest years.

But those germs are poop germs from fertilisation and insects. Hell, you’re also at a big chance eating a small one.

>what kind of medicine are we talking about?

Depends. You should get some info from your physician on potential practices that could prescribe anti-anxiety medicine for you, if you haven't already. That's only half the battle though; you should really see a therapist as often as possible if it's that bad. Denmark has waaaaaaaaaaay better socialized medicine than we do, so it should be fairly easy to find people that can help you.

Night, man. Hope you have a good weekend.

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user, OCD is not reasonable. It just is and everyone hates it. You can't reason your way out of unreasonable habits. The entire thought pattern for someone with OCD is radically different than that of regular people. There are ideas of things are, and they're not always based in how it really is in reality.

Yes, but sertraline makes me cool

>I assume it was just a resting assburger (which is essentially low-functioning autism when you are a kid) that bloomed or something.
interesting.
However stupid it may sound to you I think there is an evolutionary reason why low-functioning autism, at least, exists in society. Your level of self-awareness tells me that you are able to ascertain emotions well, meaning that you can successfully adapt to the world around you.
> Ever since I moved out and went through some ups and downs and eventually met friends I have become a much, much better person - for myself and for others around me. My mother is very glad I changed and understand her.
Im very happy to hear that user. Keep on doing what you do
> so it was mostly exercises to help you overcome your obsessions/compulsions one step at a time; i.e. counting to a certain number or writing down a mistake and not fixing it.
Thanks mate. That's interesting. Behavioral therapy seems like a constantly evolving art and I think that if you were to find a specialist now the help would be even more effective

>Your level of self-awareness tells me that you are able to ascertain emotions well, meaning that you can successfully adapt to the world around you.
Yes, I am fully aware of my autistic flaws, and I would be classified as a high-functioning autist. I have my own autistic needs, steeps and the lot, but I also am able to understand how I should be around others. Sometimes I however feel like I really am living two different lives, and the "real one" where I am myself is something I only let my friends in on, whereas my family gets the made up socially functional me. It's sounds worse than it is, but that's how I've thought about it at times. I however prefer being able to think outside the box and have an expansive mind and thought pattern over "being like everyone else".
Luckily my best friend is also an assburger, so we understand each other very well and can share a lot.

>Im very happy to hear that user. Keep on doing what you do
I will. It has become very important to me lately that I am a very good person to people around me and people I care about, so I try to always be the best I can be.

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