Why here /never/ making it?

I feel like everything I've ever attempted has lead me to breaking even, I havent even lost money.
>tried TA
>tried knowing more than other people
>tried pnd groups
>tried blind guessing
>tried building and using bots for a million different things
irl working hast never seem to get anywhere beyond middle management.
I think I am an NPC, I was never meant for more than this poverty bs, it seems that no matter how smart or hard I work on something it ends in mediocrity. When things do look like they might be coming together, life throws a grenade at them out of nowhere and I dont have the money to exploit, when I do have the money things just go sideways.

I have a high IQ, I am attractive, I can see patterns and make connections others need long winded explanations to understand, my whole life people have told me I'm definitely going to make it but I'm 29 now and am no further forward in life than I was when I was fucking 20 years old.

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middle management pays pretty good though, you need to get into a bigger company

Its not for me, I dont enjoy hiring people, I dont enjoy being responsible for other peoples bs, I dont enjoy office politics

>hurr durr i want more in life, money, respect
>hurr durr I'm not willing to do what it takes to make it there
>waaaah life is hard

Fucking kys

managing people isn't for me either. i've told my boss many times that i can do more for the company as an individual contributor. although i've made it, so it leads me to believe you're not as smart as you think. or you're not putting your skills to very good use.

your will is weak

my theory is that you rise to the level you're destined to be at, which is determined by exactly the things you stated - skill, looks, and to an extent, work ethic. luck is definitely a large factor too, but it seems like you've already been fairly lucky if you're as smart and good looking as you say. enjoy your mediocre life. i hope you have a little more good luck. in the meanwhile, it doesn't get better

I think you missed the important part in the OP with regards to never making it.
>When things do look like they might be coming together, life throws a grenade at them out of nowhere

I guess the original question should have been why is it some people never move forward in life irrespective of what they attempt. In my own situation, I dont rule out that saying the universe is stacked against me may well be a massive cop-out but I think people as described do exist in the world.

Just hodl numbnuts, you're impatient.

>i hope you have a little more good luck.
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>my theory is that you rise to the level you're destined to be at, which is determined by exactly the things you stated - skill, looks, and to an extent, work ethic.
its a nice theory and forever I've held the same view but the realities of the world around us tells us it isnt the case, we do not live in a meritocracy at all.

we live in a true meritocracy, the strong rule the weak.

Self fulfilling prophecies

> Be smart
> But on an autistic way that makes me unreliable for anything important
> My niche autism could have been useful a century ago, no point now because technology
> Not comfortable around people not real common interests
> Complete lack of confidence
> Try shrink
> Leave after second visit because I don't really want help or change myself
> Accept mediocrity
> Realize dumber people than me get ahead in life because they put effort in their lives have goals and basically deserve it more
> Stop being angry and jealous at them and wish them the best
> Try things
> Get distracted when I don't get the results I want when I want them then jump to new thing
> Stop enjoying being alive
> Irritate everyone I try to become friends with
> Realize I'm boring and too afraid to say anything inconvenient to make a real connection
> Buy meme
> Hope it works
> Get angry when anyone mentions meme
> Don't really understand it
> Hope when day soon I won't wake up
> Nothing I can feel proud of in 33 years
> Hope there's nothing like an eternal soul just get me out

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You overestimate yourself and underestimate others. Everyone thinks they're above average in some way, but most people aren't. You play too many video games and have convinced yourself you're the protagonist of reality or something when that isn't the case at all. As you get older, people will pick up on your unwarranted sense of self importance and dislike you even more for it.

Just be patient and stop being so narcissistic.

>you're the protagonist of reality or something when that isn't the case at all.
I literally said I was an NPC.
Your advice is probably sound for other people, surely my probably is not having enough belief rather than too much?

>my probably
my problem

Just DCA low cap alts with big connections.

There can only be one Alexander or one Napoleon. 98% of the population to ever have lived were NPCs so yeah, you are a NPC too.

'Succesful' people are 'succesful' because they do things that other people want to pay a lot for. This means that 'succesful' people have to live by and for other people's concepts.
Let's imagine a wealthy tailor who designs and sells popular clothes. Every step of the way, he has to figure out the kinds of styles that other people like, the prices people are willing to pay, the strengths and weaknesses of his competition, how and by whom his materials will be delivered, and how and by whom his clothes will be shipped. He has to cut deals with the people sellong his clothes to retail customers, and make sure that they are getting a favorable trade for their money. He has to deal with people who own the property his factory is in, the regulators who come to make sure he isn't dumping waste illegally, and the tax people who want the government's cut of his profits. This isn't even mentioning employees and family members. Hopefully you get it now, but the more 'human important' value you want to extract from the world and people around you, the more you have to accomodate OTHER people's needs, their imperatives, their sense of art, their anxieties blah blah blah. This is all completely unavoidable unless you are so fucking good at what you do that people come to you specifically to buy your good or service, because it's that fucking special, but even then you'll STILL have to cut deals and compromise your grand vision in order to make somebody else happy, because sometimes that is always better for your bottom line than the alternative.
Understand, the above process is not for everyone, and it doesn't sound like it's for you. Back to the clothing example, how could you possibly expect to get into the right mindset to succesfully design and sell luxury velour pantsuits for 50 year old rich women if the idea of catering to that demographic, or the attendant concepts of "luxury velour pantsuits," if you find them stupid, abhorrent, a waste of time...

...cont.
The point of this rant isn't to belittle your idea of things, or to belittle other people's concepts. The fact of the matter is, you're probably intelligent enough and have been exposed to enough 'alternative' modes of thought (as on Jow Forums) that you will never want to attend to or even come close to relating to the needs of the more 'typical' people around you.
This is all fine, there is nothing wrong with having your own philosophy or with questioning other people's imperatives, but you also have to realize that 'typical' people with 'typical' concepts are in a big social meme network with eachother, and they'd find your skepticism and denial of their experience VERY offputting, to say the least.
IMO, besides normifying yourself and becoming subject to culture, your best bet is to wageslave until you can afford to OWN your own property and the means to produce the things that YOU want to produce, on YOUR time. I'm sorry, but this is the lesson, and this is why every single one of us is here on biz trying to get rich trading memes.

Thank you for the long post and the good advice, the tailor analogy is a pretty good one I have not heard before to highlight that connections with other people are not only unavoidable but worthy of more attention than mere tolerance.
I guess if I'm ever going to be happy and comfortable the advice is to either grind out a few years wagecucking and accept it or find where I can offer value to other people, as going solo doesnt work.

that sucks bro. ive done ta, guessing, and betting on chinks, and im doing really good. plus im only 20, so i feel kinda bad for you. good luck with your stuff user. if i had to give you advice, just do what i do and go for neo and its icos man. good luck

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