Mfw 23

Yo dude come to my province, no bullshit. Spend a couple months here and you'll regain some of your faith in humanity and enjoy yourself.

It's not a big city here, couple hundred k people, wilderness, drinks and the like.

step one stop drinking.

try a pool cleaner vacuum while underwater, especially with a heated pool, it will give you the best orgasm of your entire life. the fans rapidly but gently smack the head of your dick while giving really strong suction. obviously stick your fingers in first to make sure it's safe, not every pool vacuum is the same. I've had blowjobs from 3 different women and 4 different men, I've used vacuums, cock-pumps, fleshlights, vibrators... and NOTHING compares to the pool cleaner. I'm not even fucking kidding right now, if you get the chance, try it. the only thing that is even remotely close to how good that pool vacuum felt was straight up vaginal sex with this fat chick who had a really warm snatch, it was like sticking my dick into a wet loaf of banana bread straight out of the oven, and yes this fucking pool cleaner vacuum was better than that. I don't own a pool or else I'd be doing it every day. unfortunately the owner of the pool caught me doing it so I'm not allowed to be within 1000 feet of his house anymore but it was so fucking worth it, I'm telling you that fucking pool vacuum is like heaven. honestly the only reason I even want to get rich is so I can afford my own house with a heated pool and of course a pool vacuum. I can't wait to buy a dozen different brands and styles of pool cleaners and fuck them all. I live for that day to come.

>probably spent more on coke and amphetamine

It's really not that hard to figure out why your head is fucked up bro.

You shared energy with all the hookers, it's going to be rough.
What you need right now is:
>GYM
>READING PHILOSOPHY
>THINK

It is because you live like a poorman whit much money.
Start living like a rich. Fucking fagot. Wakeup!!

I read every day and have done for as long as I can remember. Read before bed without fail for the past 10 years. Sometimes even when drunk or drugged, lol.

You can only start to appreciate the world and people around you if you spend your time with intelligent people and commit yourself to hard work on something that is important for you.

If there isn't anything important than just read and learn, you will find something.

Pain brings the truth, now transmute the pain into working on yourself and you will find some meaning.

the province of invisibility?

Where?

I've stopped drugs now.

Stop LARPing, you pathetic faggot.

>spent over 200k on hookers since 17

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as someone who is probably in the top 1%+ of happiest people on the planet,

> meant a passing feeling, not something which can be attained and held forever.

this is incorrect. i am and will be happy forever regardless of anything going on in my life. grief and loneliness are a total joke, i cant even experience 1% of these effects

i have no money, no friends, no career, basically no interaction with anyone except Jow Forums. the goals people spend their lives chasing are completely irrelevant to happiness. they will only ever realize this too late

you know what i've realized after telling people time and time again the precise steps to become happy? nobody cares. they're not willing to change their lifestyle or thought patterns. they not willing to put any effort. so now i barely even try to help

and in that vein i refuse to cast pearls before swine. if you want to pay me for help you can contact me at my throwaway [email protected]

or not, idc. even if you paid me there's pretty much a 0% chance you'll listen. people just absolutely refuse to change. its not even difficult, its just radically different than the status quo

I'm clean but I got chlamydia once

>How do I become happy?

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the body
the body is governed by three forces
one blood that is fire
two water which is water
three breath which is wind
you need to bring ALL three back into tune with being to once again experience the glory of life

Was ist Glück? – Das Gefühl davon, daß die Macht wächst, – daß ein Widerstand überwunden wird.

Decide on a change you want and make it happen. Rinse, repeat.

Read books, stop drug abuse, get into a hobby or craft and improve upon it, exercise, meditation, etc.
you don't have to do all at once but do some, you've been pampered by the amount of money and the low effort you needed to obtain it. Drugs and dopamine have desensitised the regular world, you need some strucure, some feeling of purpose and belonging, now your just a richfag that doesn't understand the world and does what he wants, like a spoiled child getting everything he wants without effort.
Get yourself in order, maybe participate in some sporting events, build or create stuff don't just consume, maybe give away money to poorfags like me who give you free advice, could be your coach if you want to, I'm at the point where I would do whatever just for some money (no gay sex)

How much effort you ready to put in lad? Like, are you serious enough to benefit from rehab?
That shit works if, and ONLY IF, you actually want to change and put in the large amount of work needed. It will also get you a couple social connections. Even if you don't want to keep those people around in the long term, train your social skills on them.

Not saying that it is easy, but if you manage those 2 steps then you have a real honest shot at making it.

Just not feeling like a fucking wreck from alcohol-withdrawal when you wake up in the morning will make dealing with your depression a bit easier.

People who are always happy are just retarded. Low IQ, etc. Why would I take advice from someone with low IQ?

The smartest men throughout history have battled deep depression and sadness. Many succumbed to it.

Why would I trust someone who says "I'm always happy"? That isn't a good thing, if you ask me.

I want to be happy, but what I mean by that is happier. I don't want to be a bubbly tween retard.

You can't have passion if you are happy all of the time.

>f you want to pay me for help

desperate beggar enjoy your ban faggit

I know I've read all of that believe me, overcoming, the meaning of life is to overcome, etc. But the thing is, those are all just theories and words really. They are logical in a world that isn't. Life isn't logical. Passion isn't logical.

>he still thinks happy is an emotion

Thank you for making me feel like less of a brainlet for not selling ark at $3.80 a few months ago

You just found out why religion exists, user. It's time to get back in touch with your spiritual side, and give your life over to the Lord.

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You're done for. Ignorance is bliss.
>This is why talented musicians always off or ruin themselves.
An overdeveloped chimp's body and mind is not prepared for the kind of excitement you've experienced, no normie family gathering or bowling with coworkers will ever fulfill you ever again. You can only find happiness in bigger and bigger doses of those things you've described and nothing else. You'll keep on chasing until your addictions kill you or bankrupt you.
Good luck.

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You op??

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140iq. scored 99% on nearly every standardized test while growing up

as i said, people refuse to give up their beliefs(like for instance about being happy all the time isnt a possibility, when its infact every humans birthright and its practically criminal we dont have a mental health class in school)

dont even bother contacting me, you won't even try a single thing i suggest anyway.

Yeah, phoneposting.
I would never pay someone to tell me how to live. It's not my in nature. Even asking anonymously was difficult. You're not dealing with your average incel, are you? They're incel due to other things like lack of drive to begin with, or laziness. Never in my life have I been these things even at my lowest. I find it difficult to ask because I am born to take. Do you understand?

>The smartest men throughout history have battled deep depression and sadness.
Name three.

Gogol, Tolstoy, Van Gogh

first step is to stop larping

forcing fantasies into your head will never yield anything good

Newfoundland brotendo.

Pretty much any and every philosopher. Most writers, most poets, most inventors, most musicians, most of the "great" men of history. Who wasn't? One of the reasons they became great at something in the first place is because learning meshes well with certain introverted traits, or things (habits, moods, etc) that stem from deep sadness and loneliness.

Self discipline, loneliness, sobriety (or the opposite of this to the extreme), an excessive workload, relentless effort, disregard for his likeability, self denial, and self abuse, rejection of self indulgences, constant pressure, gruelling accumulation.

dedicate your life to the white race

How fat are you? With all that money you could have a really nicely prepared personal meal plan and personal trainer to do all the logistics and motivation for you and you would be a much happier person. You need to take care of your physical self to achieve mental wellness

this guy gets it

i was professionally tested at 15 and scored 153
intelligence is potential, what you do with it boils down to other factors
here's the logic trap you're falling into: how do you define "the smartest men in history"? you're looking at overachievers with great accomplishments. but every intelligent man doesn't change the world, in fact most don't. there is a reason most presidents, elite lawyers, bankers, doctors end up around 130iq despite there being a large enough number of 150+iq people to fill their shoes: social achievements don't bring you any more happiness than other kinds of achievements, and being in the public eye comes with a variety of drawbacks. it's much healthier to put your mind to work on a passion project and optimize the course of your life to provide yourself with the material comfort and the personal relationships you need

Crash the market.

has nothing to do with telling you how to live. its about acknowledging your own brain is computer that can be programmed however you like. you're currently running your culture's program/your parents/your friends, etc. that program is extremely toxic and not conducive to health or well-being.

with effort you can create your own program. but you won't. you absolutely refuse to even acknowledge the possibility of other points of view. its fine, at least you're in good company

i've already wasted too much time, good luck

Start making art, music, film, etc. Try to make people happy through your art and educate them with what you have experienced through the lifetime you have lived

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Jeez, just from your replies tells me you have a shit attitude op. No wonder why you're in that position lmao

You've been fooled by the system. You're in hyper normalization, you need to retreat like you already are doing. But to nature. Rent or buy a home near the ocean and woods. Become friends with people that live there. And limit yourself to exposure to mainstream stimuli, consumption, shit TV, etc. . You're gonna hate the first two weeks. Then you will be at peace. And happiness is not a goal in itself, it's a passive effect from something else. Usually when you're engaged in something that makes you forget everything and you're completely in the moment, you're happy. Chasing happiness is analogous to chasing good health and you become a hypochondriac.

I've read enough Evola to know that you're going in the wrong direction.
I'm not fat at all.
I would rather dedicate my life to something greater than myself. Maybe this is where all of my issues originate from. I have high standards and high expectations of myself which I am not living up to in any way at all. It is a constant battle I have internally every day since I was 14 or so (or whenever my brain turned on as it does in puberty or just after) which consists of part of me wanting to at least try to do that (dedicate myself to something greater and sacrifice everything else) even if it means never feeling happiness again, and the other part of me saying "No, just relax, prioritise happiness over anything else. Don't make any sacrifices for anything, just live for now and be happy like normal people do"

Either way, as a result, now I'm completely lost and running around in circles.

This is true.

Look in to nihilism user. It sounds like you've realised nothing matters. This is the ultimate achievement, but the one that will destroy you emotionally.

Hedonism is the only way out of the hellish existence of nihilism, but that lifestyle will make you anxious about destroying your body and dying painfully.

I still haven't found equilibrium, I hope you do.

God speed user.

I already to that but as a hobby. It does help soothe me but it is temporary too.
I am probably a narcissist and arrogant. I can't help it even when I try.

You sound arrogant and deluded.

Give me 50k my mom has cancer

I'm gonna be honest with you, I know this is a part of it 100%. I spent some time away from the internet for 4 months, and the first two weeks felt like hell. It felt like I didn't exist. I went through withdrawals from the internet. I don't think many people realise how addicted to the internet they really are. That being said, I couldn't pull the plug on it totally. I am addicted to rapid fire information which is why I use Jow Forums in the first place. Isn't that why we all use it? You have to be a certain way to find this place, get used to it, etc.
I know that nihilism isn't the way and although I am pretty pathetic now, I still know that everything does matter. I am not nihilistic even if my actions are.

Come to my land man. There's plenty of opportunity and lots for you to do in the meantime.

This is a port city and we accept people of all kinds around here. Economy is crazy too and you could potentially find what makes you happy.

You need structure, responsibility, and discipline.

Happy can't come without unhappy. You also lack gratitude for actual work. "Things" won't bring "happiness" without anticipation.

Your problem is easily solved (But I can tell you're no fixer):
Make a schedule. Take small bites of your long-term goals each day. Set a detailed to-do list. Everything from brushing your teeth to making your bed. Rob yourself of specific luxuries if you stray from your path. Follow through on it; don't be a bitch.

Boom. Happiness. Gratitude. Achievement. Self-worth.

Robin Williams, The Rock, Bill Hicks, and a lot of comedians. Einstein and some great minds had depression and dyslexia.

How exactly is somebody supposed to go from "skeptical of the supernatural" to "give myself over to the lord" without serious delusion?

see: Nihilism is not a state of enlightenment and it is not a red pill. On the contrary, it's a rejection of the spiritual forces that have for centuries elevated us above the beasts, and guided us towards the creation of human civilization. Without divinely inspired limitations on our instinctual lusts and dopamine inspired cravings we are little more than hairless, talking monkeys, who will find no purpose in life beyond instant gratification and selfish material pursuits. If such a way of living were to take a hold on an entire society, it would do to that society what it does to individuals such as OP.

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Brainlets like you don't realize that nihilism is entry level and the real red pill is figuring out how to dispel it entirely and find meaning in life.

he might not word it nicely, but he's 100% right

then think about the best way to get to your goal. being miserable will likely put hurdles between you and any great endeavor. spending a couple years to build sustainable inner happiness is a worthy investment in the grand scheme of a 80-year human life. this is actually a sacrifice - forcing yourself to stop running ahead, going against your instinct to view big and do big right away

You will find peace and happiness when you become one with God and spiritually aware. Our society is too much focused on the physical like you were and still are. Read about some greek and roman philosopher's and you will come to realization that through their way of thinking and philosophies they were trying to find the creator and find a way to live life as it was meant to be lived. Read some Seneca, Marcus Aurelius, Aristotle etc. and your journey should ultimately lead you to Quran. Listen everything we do and say affects us in a way we don't understand because we're too deep into the shit that globalists introduced us to eg. porn, casual sex, drugs, partying, movies, football fanaticism and other brainlet activities. To finally understand it would be like giving a person born blind his sight back. It really is like a complete new sense. Trust me you don't need to be smart, rich, have "luck" or anything else. All you need is to stop being arrogant and look for the truth. The right road is always bumpy and full of treacherous traps but it leads to greatness, the wrong road is always easy to walk on but as you have experienced it leads to darkness, it is a botomless pit. GL

I'm testing to see if I'm still banned

arrogant hmm "having or revealing an exaggerated sense of one's own importance or abilities."

well i have no importance to anyone. i just hang out in my room or at a park all day. and i have no abilities except my control over my own mental faculties.

deluded? maybe... maybe im deluded in saying you could inflict the worst possible torture on me and i will remain happy. i mean my life has been pretty easy and its likely i dont have much experience with "real pain"

does it matter? would you rather be supremely blissful or (opposite of deluded... enlightened?) wait this is getting confusing, isnt that the same thing?

either way whatever i am, its working for me. and will always work for me. i hope you can say the same

Jesus Christ this will be me very soon. Haven't worked for over a year bcuz btc and smoke err day. Started drinking too.

I already know that nihilism isn't the answer, but the default state of everyone alive now is pretty much nihilism anyway. They would not end up like me. This is something different.

But I have seen so much. I have felt the highest of highest of highs and the lowest of lows. Most people do not, and I am inherently sickened by most people. If that makes me an asshole then I must be, but I have always felt this way since I was a child.

I'm here, just my ID changed.

>How do I become happy?
depends for me happiness would be not having to do anything i don't want to.
i can absolutely be happy if i do nothing just game browse the internet, chat, code for fun whatever.

i actually want to do a project based loosely on cryptocurrencies. it's not a fucking scam or an other shitcoin it's about making the world a better place. having time to work on it would make me happy.

>Read some Seneca, Marcus Aurelius, Aristotle etc. and your journey should ultimately lead you to Quran
Everything else you said is correct, but if you want an idea of where the Quran will lead you spiritually, look no further than the horror show that is the Middle-East and North Africa.

Yes cannoli is delicious, have with chocolate chips

You are the average I would rather die than become, though. People like you die happy and you live happy, but you just don't do anything. You're the equivalent of a hot model with life on easy. No substance, no understanding. This is why you're happy. Your version of happiness is not the same as mine, it's blunted. Mine is intense and sharp, yours is dull but prolonged. You are happy, but you are uninspired. You are happy, but you are bland, etc.

And I don't mean this in an offensive way, it's just my experience after having met many people from many countries who are like it.

This, OP

You're completely misguided. What happens in mid-easty is literally proxy war of pawn nations of freemasons. You and I will literally fight their war because people think islam is the root cause and i'm not saying this because i'm a muslim. Stop looking at the surface, look deeper, we're all being played. It saddens me really because all of this can end right now.

There's always a thread like this on here.. larp.

>probably spent more on coke and amphetamine
serves you right.

Jow Forums doesn’t count faggot

None of those things make me happy. In fact, my own hobbies and passions don't make me happy because I feel a nagging voice in my mind that tells me they are not useful and I should be doing something more worthwhile. I do not understand how someone can play video games, etc, all day. I could never do that. I have to be doing something that can have greater impact at some point later, even now in my current messed up state, I still struggle to waste time (in an individual way), even though in general I am wasting time by being in the state I am in, if you understand me. In other words: I struggle to do individual things like say, playing a video game or doing something purely for 'fun', but I am still how I am as my OP described. Posting on here is probably the closest I come to wasting time on any individual 'hobby'.
I realise this is probably not easy to understand but, yeah.

Just find love. Someone that matter more than anything else. Someone you feel comfortable to be with.

But to find love the hardest part will be to not to think about her in doggy style everytime you look at her.

I'm not talking about war. I'm talking about their cultural practices and their sinful ways of life (e.g. incest, polygamy, murdering adulterers and homosexuals, child marriages, actual rape culture/bride kidnappings etc.). You need to look no deeper than to compare the life and teachings of Christ to that of Mohammed, and understanding that ultimately, practicing Christians and practicing Muslims are a loose reflection of their central figures.

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Read philosophy
The ultimate luxury

>smartest men throughout history
>Robin Williams, The Rock, Bill Hicks
???

Believe or not, that was my story as well.
icanonlyimagine.com/

Watch this movie. Find peace my friend.

Also, one of the reasons I loved drugs (always uppers which makes perfect sense given) is because I FELT like I was moving forward. With coke, I felt like I was leaping forward. It suited me down to the core, but I guess most addicts would say "It suits me". This is obviously why I loved it so much when I did, but later realised this anyway and obviously stopped because I don't want to die, lol.

to each their own

ive crafted my mentality partly through the belief happiness/fun is not only the point of my personal existence, but probably the existence of all beings in the universe. i dont really care if we ever have really amazing technological breakthroughs and conquer our galaxy. if we could all just be happy and loving to one another while having fun making cool art and entertainment i think that would be pretty neat

theres some other good advice in this thread, hope you find what you're looking for

This is the depth of the people giving advice. This is about the same as most professional therapists too, btw. So don't waste your money if you ever end up where I am.

Hook me up with some funds and i'll give you the secret to everything.

>make you feel a whole lot better
>stop spending money on bitches
>help your fellow Jow Forums frens
>Get rich together.
>Then we can all chill and do cocaine off bitches asses.
>Overlooking Whistler.

There is nothing to add to this thread anymore. The answer is here dude.

The most complicated thing to give and get and the most important thing the most fulfilling thing.

All the rest is BS.

> it was like sticking my dick into a wet loaf of banana bread straight out of the oven

So have you actually tried sticking your dick into a fresh loaf of banana bread straight out of the oven?

Asking for a friend.

Did u even try DMT

I've done all of that. Women don't interest me at all except purely for release. That is my view on all women due to past experiences and too many hookers, I just want my release and then I'm done until I need the next.

You know that feeling you get when you just reached orgasm and now you want to stand up, push the girl out of the room, and get on with your actual plan of the day? I feel like that all the time, except for about 10-15 minutes every 2-3 days.

>BTC
Found your problem. Go 100% in TRTL right now. Will be happy tomorrow.

I know this is your current state because you did too much bitch. I did that too, I felt the same. I slowed down, less and less up to 0, then normal people, still playing, less and less, then no sex date, only seriousness and then you find someone great.

It's a lot of work to pass from a sex machine to a love machine. But this is the cost to become happy.

And it worked to me so you can do it to. You have to reformat your brain and think about girls as nice human beings just like you instead of thinking about their vagina/asshole.

Invest in yourself to invest in someone else later.

Then you will invest in your children. ( later later later)

yeah man you got a miserable existence and perspective going on there. I don't think taking any of these actions is going to help you until you commit to change your mentality and how you view the world

You stated you're your wasting time, implying your time is valuable. Your inability to identify this confirms how deluded you truly are.

>thinking in terms of red and blue pill

how binary of you
because life is full of black and white issues with no grey overlap

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>implying this has been a constant throughout history
islam on its own has done wonderful things, like preserving greek literature, and being a center of learning for a few hundred years
just because wahabism is the most visible form of islam (to you) doesnt mean its all bad

religion is a great force for society, zealotry of any form is abhorrent cancer