This is it

If I try to get help. They'll just lock me in that mental hospital place again. I don't want to go back there. That place made me almost completely lose my mind.

You got friendzoned ang got rekt in crypto and that's you why you want kill yourself, because you a quitter, a weakling "man". No wonder she dumbed your beta ass, getting emotional over a axe wound roastie, pathetic.

life is hell as fuck, aspies live in hell fuck crypto

Crypto trading should've taught you that hodling is a meme. You want to get rid of an asset when it's at its peak because a depreciating assests value is only going to go down. She is gonna age like milk soon, you dodged a bad investment, congrats. Her best years are behind her like her bf when he slams her doggy.

pics?

you should try to learn to accept you have ZERO control over this world. a fire could take your house, banksters can refuse giving back your money(bail-in), even if you had a gf/wife/kids, or whatever kind of relationship you think you want, ANYONE CAN DIE AT ANY MOMENT

you should understand these things are not up to you. the only thing you control is yourself, and if you dedicate your mental faculties to yield this control, none of the other stuff even matters.

Yeah. The only thing that sometimes makes me feel better is him knowing that I was her first and there's nothing he can do about it.

>Crypto trading should've taught you that hodling is a meme

Everytime I had sold a coin, it would go up. Crypto trading only taught me to HODL no matter what, and it was fatal.

Here: jesseroberts835310@gmail.com . I have almost nothing left to lose. If you con me idc because I won't feel a thing at this point

Listen, you got her best years, you should be happy about that, but instead you sulk thinking that if you get her back your life will be good again, but it won't. You can't go back in time and it wouldn't be the same if you got back with her now anyways. If it's been years since you've been with her then you don't even really love her anymore anyways. You just want to relive the past because you associate it with happiness. I'm a bit older and I remember being absolutely in love with my first gf. When we broke up I felt actual pain in my chest as if my soul was being eaten. For years I pined after her thinking that I lost my chance at happiness, that no one understood my pain. I knew she wasn't the prettiest or the smartest, but she was perfect to me. I lost touch with her and she hit me up on Facebook many years later. She got married, had a kid and became an absolute hamplanet. I laugh my ass off when I think about it. Hang in there and you'll be ok. Your life is the only thing you should always hodl onto no matter what, user.