I believe in god

And you know all of this for certain, how? Don't try to pass off your theories as fact.

no one cares, virgin.

What I said is part of the apostolic teachings, so these aren't my theories per see and is found in different works of church fathers, be it Isaac of Syria, John of Damascus and so on.
As for certainty, I'll be honest: I believe in this and faith isnt as easy to describe as it sounds. I just find it convenient, be it for general teachings and prophesies in OT in relations of NT and shroud and Turin, 12 Apostles enduring the torments and still believing in it, etc. Also, any kind of certainty needs a foundation. Its kind of like axioms in euclidean geometry, it is just believed in and upon it is rest of the geometry founded.
Judging from my personal experience, I can say that you should start with the axiom phase and simply at least try to believe in it and over the time the questions will be answered. I had such "eurika" moments when I expected them the least.

what do you call yourself if you don't believe in god, but you want to?

indenialist

Rational

lapsed atheist?