1. Cunt

no, i have no future.

I'm thankful (or at least try to be) for what I have and I have hope for better days
I'm working to achieve my goals
I admit that I cryed a bit last night tho
I'm trying to forgive myself for "wasting" so any year of my life
Everyday I understand myself a bit more, important step to stop self hating
Meds and therapy are helping a lot too

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Yeah, it's pretty fucking great.

1. my cunt is not what it used to be
2. no i too can't be happy anymore. where to go? why even bother? what is the sense in all that?

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If I laugh does that mean I'm happy?

Why not?

Than what's it about?

Elaborate, frens

I'm here for you, lads.

>Elaborate, frens
I spent years being clinically depressed and I didn't seek treatment until a few years ago. Best years of my life were wasted. I did finish university after that, but as of now, I have no job and no real job experience. I have huge gaps in my curriculum vitae. And I don't know where I want to go from here. Where I could possibly find some happiness. What to strive for.

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No, no, maybe god I hope so

you dont have to seek constant motivation for evetything everytime, thats unironically cringe and bluepilled, just do whatever floats your boat without harming others and if you want to start a new project or something; discipline is the way to go

I am semi-okay at the time with who I am and what I have because I've managed to make some improvements in the recent years.

I don't really think about the future. Everything that has pushed me forward in life I've decided to do ex tempore and I will probably just keep doing it like that

how old are you?

46.

Sucks man. Probably impossible to find entry level positions in your field given the time frame.

Fug, it sounds like me. I'm 28 now, and so far, especially looking at what others had and have, I feel like majority not my life was a massive failure. I finished the my army service, worked as a guard, finished university and now work in a respectable office, but when I look back and compare it to what others had I see that all of what I did was just things I was required to so and almost nothing was for my happiness. Only for a short period of time back in 2014 when I changed something did I feel a little bit happy but it all went downhill after enrolling to university.

Now I feel as if my life is on autopilot with nothing special in the horizon.

I try to but I feel it leads me nowhere. I thought graduating with a degree would be a fresh new start but my current job has nothing to do with what I studied and my life is a big loop atm.

I know what you mean. My plan for the near future is find a job, maybe I'll have to move to a new town, and then I'll try out a few hobbies and see if that makes me happy for a while. Or at least brings me new acquaintances to spend time with.

If I had American self confidence and residence, I could do something like move to Monatana and make sponsored YouTube videos about moose hunting or something.

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I think you have a much bigger chance to improve your situation greatly. Germany is the new land of opportunity, r-right?

Maybe so.
My insomnia has kept me awake until 13:00. It's time for me to retire I think.
Best of luck to you. I hope you find something that works out for you.

It used to be. Now you can't pay for housing or rent anymore as prices have skyrocketed, and bringing over 2 million refugees into the country who get every rent that is demanded paid for them by the government isn't helping things.

Thanks, buddy. I hope you get some decent rest. I used to suffer from insomnia due to depression, and that really, really sucked.

At least you all live in the 1st world

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No, but im content. I have no real hardships, but i do have anxiety about my future after college and the fact ive never had a gf
i want a family and a nice job, but i feel no will to work towards it

im well i've said all of this before, but having no friends and no interaction for so long has stunted me socially to the point that i cannot hold a conversation for more than 30 seconds. i constantly give one word answers, i never try to pursue the conversation and i come off as a cold asshole who dislikes everyone because i don't know how to talk to people. im afriad of the conversation steering towards something i don't know about, which is almost always since i don't really do anything other than play paradox games and post here. my sense of humor has been absolutely wrecked, i can't make myself let alone anyone else laugh. i think i used to be funny when i was 12 but honestly im not sure anymore, but i am sure that i was far more socially capable back then than i am now.

i crave attention or friendship so badly but i seemingly cannot get it. even when i was supposedly funny back when i was younger, i was still never invited to anything, never asked to do anything outside of school, like everyone had already decided their friend groups by age 12 and i was just locked out.

everything i say or do is repetitive, i do nothing all day so i pretty much am just left alone with my thoughts which usually makes things worse. even this post is repetitive, it's extremely similar to multiple others ive made before. i cant even get attention on this site anymore, most of the times when i post in a thread it dies, and even when it doesnt i barely get any replies because nothing i say is original or interesting

i really fucking hate my life but i have no idea how to escape this shit. all i want is to be normal, but for some reason i just cant.

thanks for reading, or more likely not reading this rant. at least this time im more prepared to get zero replies.

So, what is stopping your country from becoming 1st world? You have left communism, it's been almost 30 years now. You have natural resources. You have money. You could get more money for investment if you cleaned up a little. You have production in your country, you could improve the standards.

What is stopping you?

>life in russia actually got worse after communism

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>thanks for reading
I read it, but I'm at a loss at what to recommend. You see my life sucks, too, I also have no friends, but I know I can make a bit of smalltalk, and back in uni that went a long way.
I am ashamed of aspects of my own life, and I evade those points or quite frankly say I don't want to talk about them when the point comes up.
What helps me in conversation is that I'm genuinely interested in other people. I don't have to feign interest, and when we talk, I ask them about this and that and comment on experience I have made myself.

Btw. that was a point I developped quite late in life as I was bullied in school. This is why I'm optimistic that it's never too late, and you can probably improve your skills, too.

Fug, this sounds exactly like here except instead of rapefugees we got Orthodox Jews and Arabs who demand gibsmedat.

I live in a three story apartment building with three hookers, elderly people and a Moroccan family related to criminals.

>play paradox
Lmao fucking same.

And it all sounds very similar to me. These days I can talk to pretty much everyone about anything but I feel like it's everyone around that are either shut or just too ignorant to have a normal conversation about topics outside of food, celebs and pop-politics.

>everything i say or do is repetitive, i do nothing all day so i pretty much am just left alone with my thoughts which usually makes things worse.

Jesus, it sounds exactly like me most of the time. I really know what you're going through, fren.

1) Russia doesn't produce anything to export
2) Russia's too big which means logistics is expensive
3) The country is ruled by a bunch of ignorant kleptocratic bastards
4) If Yavlinsky's economic program were accepted by Gorbachev in 1990, we wouldn't suffer so much in the 90s and it is possible that the ussr wouldn't collapse but instead would become a union of independent states like the EU. But Gorbachev didn't have balls for that (bc there was an alternative program and he wanted to combine these two programs) so when Yeltsin seized power and formally dissoluted ussr, Russia's economy went through so called "shock therapy" instead of smooth turning to capitalism and free market

>Russia doesn't produce anything to export
you do realize that part of the reason that the rest of europe hasnt done anything about crimea is because they need russian natural gas, right?
>Russia's too big which means logistics is expensive
true.
>The country is ruled by a bunch of ignorant kleptocratic bastards
what did you expect to happen? people with power will fill a power vacuum
>If Yavlinsky's economic program were accepted by Gorbachev in 1990, we wouldn't suffer so much in the 90s and it is possible that the ussr wouldn't collapse but instead would become a union of independent states like the EU. But Gorbachev didn't have balls for that (bc there was an alternative program and he wanted to combine these two programs) so when Yeltsin seized power and formally dissoluted ussr, Russia's economy went through so called "shock therapy" instead of smooth turning to capitalism and free mark
could be true. sudden government change is usually never good for stability

Russia exports only crude oil and gas
I mean, we don't even refine it

Depression is a 1st world problem

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If I didn't have time to realize how much of a miserable sack of shit I am, I probably wouldn't feel like a miserable sack of shit

Norgay.
>who you are
I have mixed feelings about this. I've achieved a lot of the things I've set as goals over the years, which is something I'm very proud of. At the same time, there are certain aspects about myself I don't like, and even though I'd like to do something about them, I can't seem to do it. Hopefully I'll achieve that too in due time.
>what you have and what you hope you will have
Yes. I've got most of the things I've wanted to have. What I don't have and hope to have isn't particularly ambitious and I firmly believe I will have them given some time.

Aztlan

i'm very happy actually, i mean we have great food, great landscapes and beaches, i have a well paying job, a high end pc, good health and girlfriend.

i struggle to find a reason to not be happy

False, depression is more prevalent among the poor, they just recieve less attention

HONK HONK

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desu, I can't get over the existentialist dread that comes with existing. I will never feel comfortable with life, I've stopped trying. I can never be sincere in any pursuit, it all feels fake. I am nothing

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Nice.

even if we were a meaningless occurrence within the infinite expanse of the universe there's no reason to not take this chance and do whatever with your life, specially if this world is so big and full of crazy shit.

thanks for understanding friends

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haven't felt any bit of satisfaction in the last 7 years, only ambition is to get out of this country with a masters degree but i lack the motivation to study for anything, only thing i do is disappointing my friends and family so yeah not really happy

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flg
idk im fine. what's wrong with you guys?

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>get out of this country
Why ? Life in Turkiye sounds comfy.

why 1st world countries so depressed?

...

that's not the answer

i don't completely hate it and there are some aspects of it that i really love but i feel trapped when living an ordinary life is so expensive, not to mention with the way the government is shaping the country both the people and the economy are just getting worse and worse

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fuck i meant