>be me >be ugly beta 27 year old nofriends loser autist with no friends or social experiences since school, no attention from women ever, never been to a pub, club, or party, even through university >walked past a university today and saw literally tens of qts and Staceys in their primes >felt incredibly demoralised because I'm an eternal loser with no motivation in life and they'll always see me as an ugly loser >went through university as a loner loser >lifting did nothing, having a full time job did nothing >normies are all enjoying themselves and I've missed out on everything
After seeing some pop music videos and Instagram posts today I became even more demoralised. Everyone but me is loving the good life. I have no motivation to do anything in my free time. I just waste it on the internet. I have no passions in life.
I'm such an ugly boring charismaless loser. I become the ugly loner nobody talks to within one day of all my jobs. My level of introversion and lack of normieness makes all professional effort worthless because you need to be a normie networker to get anywhere.
Even junk food barely keeps the pall of ennui and boredom away anymore
nice blog bro just get Jow Forums, rich and spite all those fags that's all you can do
Grayson Lopez
What can cure me of the motivational collapse that I have had for 4.5 years?
I'm a 27 year old ugly beta autist with no friends or social experiences since school. I've never had female attention ever. I have no passions and no hobbies except for mindlessly browsing the internet, reading, exercising, and walking around while hoping my 20s spontaneously stop feeling wasted.
I currently have a boring bureaucrat job, though it gives me miraculously little work. My ugliness, autistness, and lack of poshness cause me to fail almost all job interviews. Working 9-5 crushes me mentally and it is worse when I save almost nothing and will never advance the career ladder quickly.
I did very well in education when I was motivated but being around normies in their prime while I was a loser doing a degree I didn't care about was tortuous. My motivational collapse started in university. My work ethic became non existent and I barely passed with an acceptable grade.
I live in a tiny flat in London and save nothing, though I will start a higher paying job at a famous employer later. I waste large amounts of money on coffee and junk food binges to stop feeling sad.
I have had so much free time but I have wasted almost all of it due to an extreme lack of initiative. I find it nearly impossible to do productive things in my free time when I know normies are out having fun or getting large salaries for rewarding jobs.
I know that social skills are mostly down to looks. I know that I have life on hard mode because I'm an ugly male. I know that all women and Chads have life on easy mode.
I understand that all philosophical axioms are arbitrary. No self help or religious bullshit will ever help me. I constantly think of myself in psychological instead of definite terms ("If I eat now, I'm less likely to do work in an hour"). I constantly feel guilty for not being productive, like a loser for not having fun, like a coward for not having my own personal philosophy.
should i wait for bitcoin to dip more before getting into the crypto meme?
Adam Jackson
>Everyone but me is loving the good life. Actually most people are having a shitty run of it, they just put on a facade on social media. My aunt and uncle are hideous and devoid of personality, but enjoy themselves. It's all about what you make of things.
Evan Johnson
he already did that. its over for him. just get a dog bro. mans best friend. you are probably gonna get a 6/10 wife at best and not a have a wedding because you wont have a best man and will be a disappointment to your wife. or just kys or dont get married. its over. also this is biz not Jow Forums or Jow Forums
Mason Robinson
>woke up at 9.30 am >browse internet on my phone and read a book >really hot and sunny day in London >go out to buy coffee and see multiple 9/10 Staceys which was demoralising as fuck >feel worried because I saw a girl yesterday who I thought was a 9/10 but I worry that I would've seen her as a 7/10 maybe only 2 years ago- immediately thought of myself as "that 27 year old boomer who thinks all 18-21 year old women are hot" >drink coffee in flat while browsing the internet and watching tennis >decide it's too late to go to the gym >bin the coffee I bought because I should give up coffee >go to central London to walk around, feel sad about life, and maybe have my last coffee ever >walk past Trafalgar Square to Leicester Square and see normies and Staceys galore >now drinking coffee and feeling sad about life
Going outside and seeing happy normies everywhere who see me as an ugly loser feels insulting.
My main hobby is walking around, feeling sad about life, drinking coffee, and browsing the internet on my phone.
I can't bear to sit in my flat all day and learning or doing productive stuff when it makes me feel like a loser. I go outside and hope my 20s spontaneously stop feeling wasted. Of course that's stupid but it's the truth.
I've never worked hard on anything under my own initiative. I simply float through life. I look back at myself and wonder whether I had free will. I am due to start a more prestigious job later this year but I know I can't stand 9-5 living. My current full time job requires me to do no work and spend no time at the office. I'm living in a miracle situation but I'm still not happy.
I feel guilty about everything I do, don't do, and how I do things. I'm also blackpilled and know I have life on hard mode due to my ugliness and my youth is wasted (I'm 27).
I feel like binging on junk food tonight For The Last Time and hoping that I'll wake up tomorrow with purpose and willpower.
>not having a super autistic hobby that makes life seem worth living
Adam Ramirez
>tfw I have never been to a party ornightclub or had female attention ever >tfw I see pictures like picrelated and realise every single girl goes on the hunt for chad dick every friday and saturday and every day if they are at university >tfw feels bad to be too ugly to get a gf or anything at all >tfw eternally bitter >tfw demoralised after seeing Staceys everywhere and knowing they all have 100 tinder matches with Chad >tfw I will never have the extroversion and alpha personality to even be seen as human by Staceys >tfw ugly face dooms me no matter what
