I'm an ugly beta autist loser 28 year old with no friends, acquaintances or social experiences since school, no female attention ever, and I've never been to a pub, club, or party, even through university.
I did a degree I had no interest in, so I forgot everything in it. I became the ugly loser that nobody talked to within one day of all of my jobs. I'm blackpilled and know that women and Chads have lives on easy mode and sex and good times on tap, while my life will be difficult
I waste all my free time on internet browsing. I binge on junk food and coffee almost every day, which rapes my bank balance. I have no passions. I have read many more books than most people my age but couldn't talk about anything in an informative manner for more than 10 minutes. I see my previous success in education as evidence of my lack of initiative and high docility. I now feel more proud of the times when I did badly due to losing all interest- at least that was evidence of balls.
I'm a meek, charismaless loser. I failed over 50 graduate job interview processes. I have a good job that I will start later this year but I am not posh or extroverted enough to succeed in the workplace. A large percentage of my money will go on rent. Working 9-5 feels like a prison sentence.
I'm 28 and have none of the happy social memories that people my age have. I lived in London for over a year and felt sad the entire time, from summer to summer. My job miraculously required no work and I couldn't use the time at all. I spent two years straight as a NEET or working part time, and I didn't show any initiative to do anything seriously productive in my free time at all.
I envy people that can "produce", i.e., entrepreneurs, STEM academics, good artists. I just mindlessly consume. And at work, I will be a bureaucrat. I am back office material without any connections. There are hundreds of 21 year olds making millions through software.
Being good at being a wageslave or interacting with dumb normies does not make one a better person. Most normies are miserable fucks who pretend to like each other, if you pay attention. You are worthy, treat yourself. Don't ruminate on the negatives in life, take advantage of what you do have.
OP that is quitter talk, you are still a young man at 28 years old. Turn it around and dont beat yourself up, people are doing much much worse than you
Jacob White
Look up Alexander A.J Cortes on twitter.
Jordan Carter
Jeez there must be something you care about or want to do. Like i want to make a game and take up snowboarding
Have you at least tried things to stop depression like not eating junk food, no masturbating and exercising
Bentley Collins
Hey OP, I'm one of those 21 year old soon-to-be graduates who intends to make bank selling my own software. Also do relatively okay socially (not incredibly popular or anything but I can fit in and have a small number of very close friends), and have been to pubs and pubs (overrated) and had sex with a few girls, currently have a lovely girl that was virgin before meeting me.
Never thought I had it good but reading your post made me seriously count my blessings. Thing is, I started with low status too. All I had was I did well in school and I was competitive. Honestly if you want to enjoy the benefits of such a lifestyle you have to actually WANT to operate at a high level. I know it sounds a bit rich but really - you have to actually want to take a risk and start your own software development oriented business or whatever it may be. You have to actually want to do well socially. If you don't have a strong enough desire you'll just think of reasons not to do it. This post could be a turning point for you as it seems you have realized just how shit you have it and what you actually would like to get out of life. Or I don't know, maybe objectively you're not that sad but you see everyone else is happy with these things so you feel worse just by comparison alone.. kinda like how Denmark is the happiest country in the world but doesn't have a low suicide rate (people that ARE sad think there's something wrong with them because everyone else seems so happy in comparison)
Thank about you want then try to actually get it instead of acquiescing for some back office wage cuck shit. If you want to break the mould you'll find a way to break it. Word of advice though: You most definitely DO want to break that mould. Life can be good when you let it
Eli Roberts
Me and France Bro will help all anons in suffering. This aint a joke, he are Chads in looks but we are frens.
Stay alive user! This aint a joke! If need to talk hit me on email and I give you my telegram
John Green
Torrent and watch some of the pua shit like David DeAngelo or mystery method. It's all gay af but it could also turn your life around. It costs you nothing to try.
James Stewart
Gj describing me perfectly.
Gabriel Morgan
>I'm lazy with no drive in life.
That's what you're problem is. Get up off your ass and claw your way out your rut. The problem is you, dude. Open your mind. You're smart, but you play dumb. You're capable, but you pretend to have a handicap.
I once knew a guy like you. Same scenario. He was a good friend (and still is), but we gave him a lot of shit because of how weird and awkward he was. But no matter what, he always came out with us. Always tried to hang and be down with us. He never could, but he tried. Until one day, something happened to him. He woke up a completely different person. He went from faggot awkward beta to super alpha chad banging multiple bitches at the same damn time. Know what his secret is? He got tired of people thinking less of him. He was tired of people thinking he was a pussy, thinking he was a quiet awkward faggot nerd. Deep down, we all knew he was a cool dude. He was different and not the usual friends we all had, but he blew us away when he "grew up" and said fuck you. Now, he's probably lived 10x as much as I have, fucked 10x hotter bitches I NEVER thought he would EVER pull, and runs his own yoga business for stay at home sluts (he's into inner peace and whatever).
Stop being a faggot and live your life.
Luke Thomas
And what happened to you for you to be reply to this thread on a belarusian get rich quick scheme forum
Tyler Turner
Based
Wyatt Nelson
Op would have a gf by now if only he had bought chainlink while it was low.
