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i get what you're saying but you can never truly go all in with a dayjob. i get home exhausted not just physically but particularly mentally, all of my creativity and desire to create is totally drained. Just a fap, a shower and sleep is all you can really do after a full days work

I still haven’t stared my job and desperately trying to find some meaning behind it outside of survival.

At least I learn _______

>this day in age
Literacy is a prerequisite for employment brah

I feel you fren. I had college and work these past few months and it's been basicly impossible to learn technical analysis in that time. Just got done college classes and might just take one next semester or none because working while going to college basicly makes personal development impossible.

unless you're black or somehow eligible for AA

This hits so close to home, just replace game dev and furry art with music and bike vlogging. If LINK doesn't hit at least $20 in the next year I'm going to kms, as it's just getting to be too much. I told myself when I was young I'd never let myself lose sight of my creative ideals, and it's horrific watching me lose it now, slowly, day by day, at age 30, not because my value system has changed at all but simply because exhaustion and time/energy debt have totally eroded my will to pursue it.

I'm terrified I'll make it only to discover there's no dream left to pursue. Winning financial freedom and using it to just sit around all day with my thumb up my ass, every day until I die at 80 or something.

Im 26, make ok money. My monthly expenses are about $900 max after rent, food, transport etc. I make 2276 after taxes every month so I can save a bunch. I never do though, i only have $1400 in my savings account. I usually work 3 or 4 days a week but they're 12 hour shifts. If I work 6 days I'll make $960 for the week, i get paid weekly too. I have no life though. After work all I do is lay in bed and read or sleep. Sometimes I go on bumble or tinder to see what I can match with but I'll always match with hot girls and say stuff like
>Pic related

I know for a fact something is wrong with me. I look normal as fuck on the outside but everyone and anyone that gets to know me intimately will run away. I think this all stems from a traumatic brain injury I had when I was 14, fractured my skull. Dr claims there was no brain damage but if you ask me it's as if I got a lobotomy. It sucks man, my whole life has felt like I was looking through an impenetrable window and just on the other side is where I want to be but no matter how hard I try I can never get past the window. I'm not complaining though, I've lived a good life and been very fortunate and had sex with many pretty girls. I just wish I could feel normal again, when I was 14 before I had the accident

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me

We've already lost brother. If you think "my life will begin ONCE I've made it" then you already lost.

Same here.*

I have managed to put about 20k into crypto by DCA for about 15 months. Whatever I could afford to put in, I did.

I’m not gonna make it but I’m not giving up either.

(Autoparts Store)*

wow this is weird, I'm 25 and the same thing happened to me. When I was 17 I used to skateboard and had like 3 diagnosed brain trauma concussions and 1 hairline fracture on my skull in a year and ever since then I feel like I've been fucked up even though I've always felt melancholy even before that as a kid. I also save like 2.5k monthly and yet I never save any money and am always broke. I don't even know what the fuck I spend it on I just don't care enough to look after it. I don't really crave social intersection at all but whenever someone does get close to me I always make them fall in love with me then hurt them and abandon them after they become unuseful to me. Guess I'm just a psychopath.

Great blog man, I liked and subscribed.
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NOT!

try high quality CBD/hemp extract (not from Amazon they are all fake) or try medical marijuana. Brain injury patients show a lot of symptom improvement sometimes after trying mmj.

Just turn 21
Have ADHD
Work at Amazon
Make $15 per hour and work 10 hour shift 4 days a week, sometimes 5 for mandatory overtime.
Stand at a station all day scanning items into the system.
Still live with parents and paying bills.
I hate my job and want to find another job but I dont have college degree.
Don't want to go to college because I dont want to be in debt and get a bachelor's to get denied by richer companies.
Want to start my own businesses and start multiple establishments. Have a budget of $300 right now for this plan.
Any advice?

>whenever someone does get close to me I always make them fall in love with me then hurt them and abandon them after they become unuseful to me

What the fuck I do that too.. i just turned 26 last week btw. Ever since I had my accident (fell off a roof ) I've always been alienated from my peers. A loner. I just like being alone

Is this board filled with whiney americans? How about you fuck off and fix your shitty life

whenever i smoke i just get severe anxiety and chills even at low doses though when I do smoke I usually go all out because fuck it

happy birthday user, pretty sure we have early symptoms of CTE and will probably end up suiciding in a decade

YOU STUPID FAGGOT...ARE YOU RETARDED? OBVIOUSLY YOU BROWSE BIZ AND THERES LINK THREADS CONSTANTLY AND RIGHT NOW THERES LIKE 42 LINK THREADS GOING BECAUSE THE SIGNULARITY IS NIGH....

PUT FUCKING EVEN JUST 1K INTO LINK IMMEIDATELY AND YOULL BE A MILLIONAIRE WITHIN A YEAR OR TWO

I smoke weed everyday all day since the age of 17. My mind races at 1 million thoughts a second but when I smoke pot I don't hear anything except silence.

just buy ftm

OIL OF OREGANO DUDE......ALSO DRINKING YOUR URINE WILL HEAL YOUR BRAIN

Me. Fuck.

got into crypto in 2012

made $470,000 , down to $300,000 from the crash

been NEET my whole life, started with $5000 in BTC, im 24 years old got about $250,000 left, how am i doing?

Thank you friend. I don't think I will an hero though, already tried haha. However I always figured if I had to go into a home or be bound to a wheelchair I'd just swallow a bullet. Good luck user hopefully we don't have CTE

Better than most people of your age i guess.

stop making tragic superhero background stories for yourself and man up

seriously just reads like a bunch of faggots who convinced themselves they're something they're not

fuck

We can't because we're literal brainlet retards. Can't you read faggot?

If I could hit a button and kill every humblebrag poster instantly I swear to god I would do it

Me but I'm working from home, just jacked off to superheroine porn and now I'm off to a big steamy dump

what is he bragging about? he's literally talking about how pathetic he is. he makes way less than average and can't even form relationships. If you're jealous of this user do us a favor and be an hero

yikes

>just b yourself : ^ )

You should put every cent of that 300 into LINK so if it doubles you have 600 dollars, and once you have that much you'll be ready for retirement

>working a job I don't like/fully understand
>constant stress due to unreasonable expectations from client
>people think I'm doing a great job
>just got a salary bump $90k
>30 years old
>unable to have sex with anyone I date
>fuck [spoiler]tranny[/spoiler] hookers regularly

My one goal is to not work, but I won' be able to for decades.

Your problem is that you're attracted to men, not women.

I feel the window thing exactly as well, I call it my plexiglass prison. I guess it's a symptom of dp/dr. In my case I think it stems from a child spent obsessively playing 'progress quest' type video games like rpgs and mmos. Talking 8 hours a day average from age 8 into my 20s. Think it completely fried my developing dopamine system such that nothing in real life feels real or salient to me.

I always get laughed out of the room when I talk about this online, which I think is a defensive reaction from anons as most of then play a lot of vidya and they dont want to believe that too much of a good thing can damage their reward systems. All I'm saying is playing too much of a certain kind of game during developing years can have lasting negative consequences. It sets your brain up to expect a low threshold of effort to receive reward which is great in a video game but is not how real life works.

You are the product of god knows how many millions of years of life and successful reproduction. Please do not let stupid nihilism stop you from propagating your genes.

25, just quit my minimum wage job to move across the country (UK) and start another one shit job.

>tfw I flopped cs in uni

I'm thinking about taking the merchant navy route

£8k p/y, but they provide training
>tfw i flopped CS in uni
>tfw i'm now shook to take the marine engineering route

I'm most definitely attracted to women, I already tested this out, guys don't give me a boner and I tried anal with a chick and it's gross as fuck. Can you imagine with a dude? No thanks
I did play alot of video games growing up but it was mostly after I fractured my skull. I just withdrew in a way. Shit man I guess I'm not gonna make it afterall, I mean if I'm 26 and I'm not normal yet it's pretty much a wrap

why post tfw if no face

self-fulfilling prophecy