No alcohol and coke

>when the fuck will the suicidal thoughts go away?
Never. Suicidal thought s are a normal part of thinking. NPCs don't think and are programmed to react with surprise and horror to the idea, but humans all get them.

>wearing pants

this but unironically. sober living is a fucking meme

You americans are fucked up in the head with your drugs.

PAYING FOR FUCKING UP THE REST OF THE WORLD WITH THEIR SINS

You’re lost for good user, you’re a rat in the kike cycle forever

5 years clean and I dreamt about coke this week. Everybody has different willpower, but I know myself and know if I meet someone who can get it I need to cut them out of my life and move on one day I’ll have them buy for me. If you want to be clean, you need to be all in.

yep. took me almost 1 year of being sober after being a drunk for 10 to feel better. 3 years to completely reprogram my brain. I'm not the fucking same person anymore in the best way