I can't feel any emotions. I havent for almost 2-3 years. I'm 25/m/uk.
My life is fine on the outside, long term gf, £50k in bank, renting a decent house. no friends though other than online but fixing that. I can make friends if they talk to me first i just cant initiate it. Good job too.
I think I preferred having my depression and suicidal thoughts from years ago, because atleast I was feeling something.
I havent cried for years and I laugh and smile regularly but I am empty inside. I don't feel anything other than anger or excitement.
Currently off sick from work for a month or so, got another month off to relax.
Currently on:
Propanolol - anti anxiety (around a month) zopiclone - sleep (around a month when i need it) venlafaxine - 150mg - anti depressant (doubled this week) aripiprazole - 5mg (reduced) anti psychotic.(1 week)
the only reason you can't feel is because you're a coward and you're using psychopathic adaptation to just be a pussy instead of conquering your limitations
Sebastian Bailey
meds might be messin with you. talk to your doc/whoever prescribes you them about your current issues.
Brody Rodriguez
explain a bit more what you mean. Are you saying I'm stuck in a comfort zone? I could get behind that but I've done amazing things the past couple years every so often and it doesnt change anything. I felt a rush of excitement going on a rollercoaster like 30 times in a row a year or so ago. But its happiness/sadness that I'm missing.
I told them that this was my problem and this is what they put me on, but they are changing them every so often like 2 days ago they doubled/halfed some of them. I wasnt on anyt meds for 2 years until around a month ago.
I was on risperidone for a while years ago and I somewhat think its done some damage to me.
Luis Russell
You really should get discord and add me user. I literally have all the answers but I want to share them with you. Feels weird just posting them on a thread. It's also too much to type out in chunks I'd rather share it with you in convo.
Just download discord and add me broski. It's nto voice chat, it's text.
If it makes you more interested, or if I seem more valid, fwiw in from 2013 to 2016 I was on venlafaxine at 300mg. It was the fourth antidepressant I tried. It's a dual-action SSNRI and that is why I went on it and why I was immediately cranked to 300mg.
I'm 100 percent healthy now, but still on venlafaxine, 75mg dosage, only reason I'm on it is I haven't wanted to go thru the gnarly withdrawal sideeffects whilst studying.
literally just download discord and add me so I can fucken help you help yourself lol.
Nathan Murphy
looking into getting it now. appreciate it. May not get it soon but maybe later today and I'll add you.
Mason Hernandez
My advice is just do it. It's a series of mouse clicks and some typing, that's all. That's my measured pressure to you, apart from that I just say I hope you do and there's no rush, you can add me whenever and I'll be happy to chat brother.
And fwiw the first poster was born with more limbs than braincells and his situation has not changed - the second poster gives common advice, and is courteous, but their advice, in comparison to the knowledge, understanding, and wisdom I can share with you, is like a teacup and my advice and info for you is the fucken massive ALMA telescope array.
any advice from anyone else? Anyone who has felt similar and got out of it? or even still in it?
Noah Lee
everything we see on the most basic level is external stimulus processed by our brain it is light, it's not the object itself, the object could be anything, or at least, it can be, once we know of other objects - it's our neural connections that actually present our world to us, the stimulus is always being interpreted. The brain functions using symbols, and the main two languages in processing these symbols are the language we learn at birth, and numerals. Language in and of itself is governed by a logic. Logic is an intangible concept that has a kind of magic, in that it exists and is real but does not exist in our reality at all as far as we know our reality and as far as what we know exists as it does exist according to our logic - so you see, logic is a beautiful thing, it doesn't need the limelight, it doesnt' need to take centre stage, rather it is like a friend who has our back, always there to guide us if we need their help on our journey. We may even consider logic to be ourselves, in so far as logic is needed for our existence, and our existence is needed for logic. Just as we give logic a name, know it's function, althought not necessarily it's form, logic also seems ingrained within everything, to a degree, and logic is logic - that is to say that symbolically speaking logic is beneficial to existence, and illogic is not. It is logical to drink and to eat. It is illogical to jump off a tall tree, or to throw ourselves into a spiky bush.
I am not here to explain to you the answer to life the universe and everything. In fact I don't want to. Because what I want to do is give you some information, and education, to help you live the best life you can. Because you are bloody amazing, you are gifted, you are talented, and you have so much potential. More than you know. And I want to honour that by helping you.
Grayson Reyes
our minds are not perfect, which is not to say that they are broken, no, rather they are like a car - a car functions wonderfully when taken care of by a professional. The professional understands the form and function of the car, knows how to do regular checkups and perform maintenance, and mechanics often have a deep appreciation for cars. This is how we ought to understand our brains - we are the mechanics, I'll get to that a bit later. There will always be mysteries of life - of our existence - of human beings. And that's okay. We don't need to know everything. I mean that, we can live a wonderful life, co-existing with one another, without knowing everything - we just need to know the right information and know enough of it, to understand ourselves, first and foremost.
