GIOYC

Get It Off Your Chest/Get Input On Your Case
A place for questions and issues not worth a full thread.

Should we make a FAQ cuz I think I have some ideas edition

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I still love you Jacqueline
I wish I had realized how deeply I did much sooner
And that I had appreciated you

SON OF A FUCKING BITCH.

I finally find a medication that tackles all of my mental issues (save for hallucinations) and the fucking thing KILLS my LIBIDO. How in the fuck do I approach my boyfriend for sex when I CAN'T CLIMAX DURING MASTURBATION??

There's no pressure to do it until after I start to tire out and get frustrated. I get close and like a god damn light switch - CLICK - it turns off.

Fuck Sake. I hope this new doctor can help me.

>Want to start an open join creative writing club at my community college because all we have is a women's writing club
>Suddenly, someone makes a creative writing club basically, but it has some things in it that I disagree with (like an explicit clause that in my personal opinion encourages accusations of harassment when they could've just said the school's policies apply, but instead decide to set a bad precedent as well as other unnecessary rhetoric that bothers me. Plus, its really broad, unspecific, and poorly named which would make it difficult to run and without being able to get in contact with the student who runs the club, I don't know that it would accommodate what I specifically want, which is a specific form of giving feedback that I wanted the club to specialize in
>Without thinking hard enough about it and without reviewing the policies enough, I decide to go ahead with emailing my class even though I now realize the club was okayed by the same teacher who was saying before they might okay mine. Not to mention, this same faculty member had told me beforehand that some kind of writing club exists just the very day I was really going to start getting into this, but I decided fuck it its more specific right?
>Look at the description again. It includes workshop in its description. My club has to be approved and I think it has to be different from other clubs
>I just BCC'd like 30 people about a club that might not get approved. I've never even emailed that many people at once. It might be considered redundant, and might end up putting me into a situation where I end up explaining that I don't like this other club's overly complex bullshit.
>I didn't even want to compete originally, just collect names for if even someone else starts the things I wanted
>I was afflicted by pride and stubbornness
>I have no idea what's about to happen

Oh god. What have I done.

I'm so selfish to try and do something like this... that's how I am I know it. I must be. Like when I read other students writing I don't actually want to read it, I just want to present mine and see all the faults they make. But everyone then praises my work usually?
This must be arrogance. I made a mistake. I know it I just know it I must've.

I wish a normal relationship was enough to thwart years of regret. Know that I love you. I miss you. I know it's only been a few days, but I've cried every night this week.

What happened?

I think I'm just going to go ahead and make this its own thread, actually. Don't reply here.
Go here to my probably better worded thread:

Don't know if this is the right place to ask but i don't want to make an entire thread just for it.
Had sex with gf, used condom and pulled out. But now her period is two weeks late. Did two pregnancy tests, one right after she missed it and another a week or so after that, both were negative. She took a morning after pill at the end of august, could that still be messing things up?

First time I noticed I've changed as a person and I'm ashamed of who I've become.
I fully welcome my next crisis, hopefully it's drastic enough to either force me to change again or just destroy me, I don't want what I've got anymore.
I'm such a fucking hypocrite.

I want to die! I really want to die. What would bring me true happiness? I can never tell you the truth. It's if I was dead. Never have I so consistently wanted to die for this long. It's terrifying.

Is there any way I can receive professional help without being put in a looney bin? I can't handle this anymore.

here
What I meant to say was receive help regarding how much I want to die. I'm already on antidepressants.

>What would bring me true happiness? I can never tell you the truth. It's if I was dead.
I'm not understanding what you're trying to say here.

Every day another door closes on me
It makes me anxious as hell. I have to act NOW while im young because nobody will hire an old guy with little experience even for entry level shit.
Im tired of this treadmill bullshit. Why cant i just be done with life? I went to school and i worked some. The powers that be will not be satisfied until im retirement age. Once i have outlived my usefulness at 65, i will get cancer a few years later and die according to their plan.

What "truth"? You can't tell the truth about something?
Are you saying that you can never tell the truth about what would bring you true happiness, so you would rather claim to yourself and others that what would bring you happiness is if you were dead?
Is that what you're saying? I don't really understand.

I've become really good at hiding it, and pretending I do, but deep down I have absolutely no remorse for the things I did, the people I've hurt, and the lies I've told.

I really do still want to do it, and I fucking will, and none of you fucks are going to stop me. I'm going to do it, and they will suffer and cry and inside I will feel nothing.

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>but deep down I have absolutely no remorse for the things I did
So what did you do then?

What exactly are you doing to cause them to suffer? Should have reposted with Nagatoro.

I wasn't finished with my post fuck.

>I really do still want to do it
What are you planning to do then?

Nothing I really want to admit to on the internet, sorry.

Just being kind of abusive to some people.

I love you Steph, nothing will change that but the emotional abuse, the financial abuse, I can't do it anymore, I miss you every day and I don't think I'll ever get over you but it wasn't worth my mental health being with you

It's my birthday, I'm in a call with friends, nobody remembered.

But then I don't remember their birthdays

What is wrong with me.

I'm afraid I might get addicted to Xanax.

You want the attention user.

Also happy birthday man

I'm sorry Chelsea.

Thanks user.
I feel like a woman sometimes wanting attention.

Some people just crave the attention. It's understandable. Just don't ruin your friendship with them.

Why though user? Is it fun?

The site I ordered moda from had a honeypot operation conducted on it. The staff are being silent on discord about orders and the ordeal itself. They've only made one announcement about what they "believe" was happening. No serious offers of refunds or reshipments ensuing the most recent aforementioned announcement.

This is the second time I've ordered it; the previous time was almost two years ago. I just wanted it again because it's the only thing I've had that would keep me awake and alert for half a day and didn't stain my teeth yellow.

You say that you don't feel anything but I sense from the way you're typing that you enjoy causing pain which would make you a sadist or sociopath.

Are you self-aware enough to know why you do what you do?

I mean of course I enjoy causing pain. I'm just a sadist.
Honestly I would prefer to find a girl who is into it. Never found one yet though so must make do.
Yeah.

Did you suffer childhood trauma or abuse or have you always been a sadist?

Not trying to prod I'm just mildly interested in those who exhibit darker traits like yourself.

I've wanted to hurt women sexually ever since I had a sex drive.
I've never had any interest in hurting men or animals or anything in a non-sexual manner.

I mean my father yelled a bit and maybe grabbed me once? Nothing more than a normal childhood to give such experiences. Often bullied maybe but that's everyone here.

Just a thing I have, everyone has a thing.

Man I did something I regret. I still regret even thinking about doing it.

>be me 23
>dating 20 yo gf for 6 months
>started having sex for a month and a half
>she is always understanding
>she has helped me through anxiety attacks
>I am her first real gf (broke her hymen)

Basically I really fucking love this girl but I see her on the weekends only. I have been dealing with sexuality issues.

>think I am bi
>she is supportive and wants me to expirement to understand myself
>try dildo go soft
>but watching porn makes me lust for physical touch
>currently traveling, cant be with gf
>download tinder
>ask girls for cuddling
>one 21 yo college girl says "bet I won't platonic cuddle rn"
>gives me her sc
>tells me to get her an uber
>get real nervous because I might do something stupid if she comes
>heart is beating through the chest
>tell her an uber round trip is expensive for just cuddles (back out)
>she says oh well and ghost me
>I've been jacking off to porn all week

I feel disgusted that I almost shared a bed with another girl. I am scared this is the beginning of the end. I am waiting for a therapist but any advice would be great.

Did you grow up in a city, suburbs or rural area?

It seems to be more than just a thing, it seems like you're causing tangible harm to others whether it be psychological or physical.

You don't miss me, you just miss the chase.
I saw your death glare from the corner of my eye. Do you really feel what you feel or is this a front for something else?

Look, I disowned you. It was a lowdown move on my end but it was just. I figured you were too thirsty to take me on and I wouldn't be compatible for you ever.

I ain't chancing this shit. Either you feel what you feel or you don't. I felt we were soulmates that's how fucking stupid I was. After a while, I realized differently.

Why are you asking this... I feel like you are trying to dox me or something.

>I felt we were soulmates that's how fucking stupid I was.
I felt the same; we're as stupid as each other then (we're a perfect match!).

Lmao, if only you were a woman who felt the same.

Seriously, she was the Eve to my Adam and I blew her off. I even fucking dream about her a lot and yet I keep that low profile.

Stop samefagging your edgy make believe story
>I sense from the way you're typing that you enjoy causing pain (nevermind all the ambiguity)
>of course I enjoy causing pain (because that's obvious to us some how)
You're not a good enough writer to pull this shit off. You just sound like you're imitating a generic fictional villain.

I don't know what I want.

I hate myself for self-inserting too much. I'm not that important for fucks sake.

Whatever you want to believe champ.

Same problem here. I had a vice president tell me I should listen more and talk less. Fuck.

Just curious, I have some ideas about how darker personalities come to be and I believe the environment where someone grows up plays a significant role.

I'm not him, I don't often run into people like him who have some awareness of their nature so I like to take advantage of it to add to my knowledge. Of course, as a manipulator he could be lying so it's probably futile to ask these kinds of questions.

I have temporarily funked up my life. How am I going to sort this one out then?

Don't worry about it. Enjoy your travelling. Maybe monogamy isn't for you? Go to the gay bar. Always use a condom and tell others before you meet. There's always chastity too. Perhaps you should start a band?

Now, go tell Jacqueline.

Son of a fucking bitch. Really?

I’m not a doctor so I don’t know.

She’s pregnant.

Glad you see it.

I was asked what I want in life. What would make me truly happy. I answered but I cannot tell them the truth, which is that what I truly want is to be dead. I've gone through enough.

Why does he want to make me crazy? How can he benefit?

I'm a quarter to almost considering hooking up with a coworker some months after finding out my boyfriend (who I'm still with) cheated on me. But I'm pretty moralistically conservative when it comes to my sexuality, so I'm kind of faced with an impasse.

I know I'm never going to do it, I'm too much of a pussy on top of hinging a decent chunk of my decency on never sleeping around like everyone else seems to. I genuinely do have a big dumb crush on this coworker though, and I feel super shitty that I keep getting flustered around him.

I guess I have to lose my best friend. Fuck. Whatever.

You probably drove him crazy.

You don't want me to isolate myself any longer, but the decision you want to make will absolutely cause me to be isolated. It'll barely feel like we live together. I'll come downstairs to get food and that's it. If I'm going through a depressive episode I won't even come downstairs at all. Are you sure you want that? Because I don't.

I'm black, but it's like an asian dude is inside instead. I like tons of asian shit and barely any black shit, luckily when asian people I know learn this they seem almost eager to "dunk my head into the tank" so to speak. But on the bad end, I get a lot of flack from black girls.

I'm ultimately going to live for myself and do what I like, but I get hung up on this sometimes.

Black girls give you shit because saying you're Asian inside because you like anime and katsu-don is cringy as shit.

t. black girl who really wants to bully you after reading this embarrassing shit

I feel racist for not wanting to date non-white women

had a chance to make a friend but the chance slipped by

oh well, maybe i'll try again someday. i've been alone for so long, what's a few more months/years?

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Can you bully me instead? I'll be your white piggu

>you like sex
>you like how i make you feel and how you make me feel
>you tell me you're having trouble with resisting me when i look you deep into your eyes
>you like the funny, charming yet confident and "random" me
>yet you don't want to give us a 2nd chance

i don't get it
i just don't

Why are only white dudes into femdom?

i want to find whoever stuck you with this paranoid neurotic mindset and beat her to fucking death with one of her own limbs

that’s ok, as long as you’re working on managing your depression. i’m ok with the episodes and the isolation as long as you’re doing something to get better.

Do whatever you like, I don't care. What's strange though is it's only the girls, guys don't care.

Oh, also I would never say that in real life, that's to give emphasis to the post. That should've been obvious.

Why the hell dont you message me? You said yesterday that you'd let me know if you had time this weekend. I get that you are busy with exams but is a short message too much to ask for? Have some respect for my time. Fucking hell.

But you don't want me to be to isolated and I don't want to be isolated either... I'm not sure what I want to do.

I've been pretty happy. I'm starting to be really confident in my body due to 8 month of gym and going from Auschwitz mode to a little buff. Clothes fit me better and I have more energy. My research have been going well; I finished an article and I'm now waiting to see if I'm going to do a presentation on it at a major conference next year.
I did a small coding contest at my school with great success. I'm now more popular than ever. People stop me all the time to say hi or to chit chat. I'm going to pretty much every party for free. I'm reading more, I'm calmer and more mature than I ever was before. I feel like I'm making it. I'm gonna do research, I'm gonna be happy.
But I still miss being loved by you.

ok so im breaking the larp because you sound like you need some help. if you don’t want to be isolated, and your partner doesn’t want you either, then what’s the issue? do you isolate yourself, even if you don’t want to? is the isolation intentional or unintentional?

i miss you.

This is how i feel today

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I'm not isolating myself. This issue is that my partner is not used to someone existing in the house with them at the same time and wants alone time. I give that to them but I guess they need more. I'm stuck in limbo. They don't want me to isolate myself but gets overwhelmed with me in the house with them.

I wish you were single... it's cold out and all I want to do is snuggle by a fire with you...

they wanting to be alone doesn’t mean you gotta be alone too, use that time to meet with friends or do hobbies or sports - it’ll only make them miss you more than if you’re hanging around waiting for them unhappily

y'all niggas need to learn how to use the catalog

I was so careful not to go through this again and here I am. I always care too much and now it makes sense why you said "why are you so nice to me" multiple times in the beginning. I don't think any guy you've ever had in your life treated you well and so now you don't know how to act. You broke up with me over text after a 2 hour convo with your best friend that should have happened between us, not you and her. She even told you to apologize to me the day after bc you both knew it was fucked up to do that and you still couldn't even do that.

You never cared.

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My name is Alexander. My story is unusual, for I am the one that made it. I'm a man wishing to jump to the stars, to cling to the vast bodies which surround the planet on which I reside. These are not stars and planets in the physical sense, but metaphorical. I want to do something big. But I know I must sacrifice something in order to do it. A part of me. A part which I cherish. A part which I must simply do without, if I am to complete this task, this mission of mine.

It's my love. My love for a significant other. My duty on this Earth is not to love. My duty on this Earth is not to be loved. It is to make others feel loved. It is to lift others above my head and scream for them to jump into the sky. Perhaps, maybe, after the countless others I've put into the sky, I might someday join them. But this love of mine. The one I harbor for certain individuals... I must let it go. My love must be equal. My love must be attuned to each person anand their needs, but not different. Jesus loved all. Now I am in no way a saint, but I hope that maybe, just maybe, if I sacrifice myself and my wants, that others may achieve what they deserve. Peace and happiness. I hope all others can feel love, for with this sacrifice, I may finally achieve my most important goal in life.

You ruined it now, I hope you can't sleep and you dream about it and when you dream I hope you can't sleep and you scream about it
I hope your conscience eats at you and you can't breathe without me

why are there two GIOYC threads

I guess this place really is meant for me. A place I can hide amongst the crowd and never be noticed.

I'm sorry Clarissa. I wish i would've realized how amazing you are. I fell in love with you too late. I treated you like a second choice. I'm so sorry.

I feel so sad and depressed at night. I miss talking to my friends but I can't go back. I have to learn how to better control my emotions or else I'll just keep suffering.

I'm on the verge of quitting a job I've been at for over a year because the next shift always accuses me of fucking them over and I dont have anyway to defend myself to the day manager

No. Your ideas are stupid, OP.

It feels wonderful, doesn’t it?

At least you have the experience.

Then don’t get addicted to Xanax?

Same.

Ok.

Take care.

You go, girl. Keep up the good work.

Ok.

Finally.

Different people, different tastes.

Kind of a major surprise having you text me the other night. I'm shocked you still have my number, but I immediately knew who it was as soon as I saw the number.

I appreciate the thought though, We talked for a little bit but haven't heard from you a few days. Just wondering what made you think of me? I don't really hate you anymore, Stephania.

Doesn’t hurt at all.