Morale Check

Everything okay?

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>tfw you look in the mirror and see how much youth you have left but is just continuing to be wasted

Not too bad. Just came back from a few days hiking in some nice, great time of year with the crisp weather and changing leaves. Today is deadlift day and I've got some reloading to do too. Pretty comfy morning so far with a book and some hot brews.

I'm seeing how much longer I can keep my bedroom above 12 Celsius before I get the heater out, I'll probably be good until early November unless the weather changes.

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>going shooting for the first time in 3 weeks tomorrow
>caught a cold
Mixed feels.

I can't be a wage earner or an officecuck. I just can't. My intuition/gut feeling tells me I need to employ myself, otherwise I'll be even more miserable than I am now. I haven't been at this much of a low point in 3 years, I was actually happy again until I graduated and got stuck in this dead-end job, then I got progressively worse up to now. At least I'm not suicidal like I was a few years ago, but I want to fix this before I do get to that point.

I am going to start looking into ways I can self-employ with my skillset, but should I quit my job now or hang in there for a little longer?

I was in a similar situation after uni, got into trades on a whim and it's probably the best decision I've ever made, but self=employment can be good too.

Been waiting on doctors for a month now, finally got an apointment but it's in a month from now and then hopefully when I get some medication it's going to take another 2 weeks to start working. On the upside I'm hitting a manic period again and these are the best

>unsure whether or not i should engage with the world or withdraw completely
>afraid that if i do meet people and build a "normal" life that i'll fall into the same trap my parents did and end up living an aggressively "normal" life filled with guilt trips, blaming and verbal abuse when any problems show up
>worried that everyone around me seem to be amazing adventuring educated worldly souls except for when night comes around and they begin bitching about work and what one of their friends said a week ago
>afraid that if i have anything to do with anyone i'll become one of them or will end up trapped with one of them
and on top of all of this i'm incredibly afraid that i'm just having a tantrum or something and that i'll end up like all of them. but more than that, i'm afraid that i'm actually right and meant to do other things and that i'm slowly turning into the ultimate coward.

all in all a 3/10 week, i just made a milkshake so things aren't too bad.

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>grades holding steady
>getting solid hours, making bank
>get to go home and see my girl soon
>gaining decent muscle mass in all the right places
No complaints this time around.

I found out that there is an outdoor range that is 1 hour closer than the one I had been using. I found it by sheer accident when reading about how the owner was accused of being a white supremacist, he's Mexican everyone on their site is Mexican, he got into a yelling match and started ranting about the jews. When I try to google ranges I often get few to no results. I was amazed that there is a 1000 yard range so close to my house. So I called and asked what he thought about the jews and after a rather fun half hour chat he offered a year membership with unlimited range usage for 50 buckaroos. So needless to say I am going to be shooting a lot more often.

"hey m8 what do you think about the jews"
"fuck those slimy fucker m8"
"hell yeah borther"
did I get all that right?

Hilarious if true

More like they fucking ruin everything they touch. Why do jews feel like they can criticize and take away my rights. Why do we live in a perpetual state of WW2 apology. The Nazis weren't all super villains. Fuck the media and their lies.

I feel you. It's my birthday. I'll be pushing 30 before I know it. What the fuck.

>no money for bullets or gasoline to get me to the range
>no time for work because universitycuck

All things considered, bored but fine. Finally reading some Mishima (that really is above my level). Also, I don't think that's a real SS member, OP

Not going to reply to everyone’s posts but I am reading them, frens

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thank

She picked staying in her unhappy relationship over me.
Sucks but at least I know she's fed up with him and has feelings for me, the poor schmuck.

I've come to the realization that my platoon is only trying to get me promoted so they can get me to do all the bitch work they don't want to.

I want off this train.

>tfw end of month
I feel like at this point range fees would cut into my food budget desu.

Things have uh... been pretty rough. Hurricane Michael fucked my family’s house up pretty good. Haven’t felt a whole lot of anything after we were put in a shelter and now in a motel. I’m going to try to go back to the house and see if I can get a few of my other things back.

On the bright side, at least we’re all alive and I have my 1911 that my grandfather left for me.

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I feel it. I'm sorely tempted to take the next semester off and work full-time, but I also want to get my degree so I can move into the decently-paying officecuck realm and shoot every weekend.

The guys at work want to unionize and I have very mixed feelings about this.

I got paid, did some quick math, and figured I could afford to buy another gun. Found a sweet USP compact .45 for $500 which to me was totally doable and so I got it. Now I'm about to pay my rent and after that I'll have $300 for about 2 weeks. I know I'll be fine but I still feel like a dumbass cutting it close like this. Plus I'm shitty at spending money which makes me more nervous about burning through it.
But hey, new gun, my first 45, and a fucking good one. Can't fucking wait to shoot it.

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Jesus man I have about 7k at the bank and I'm freaking the fuck out whether I should buy a 1k gun I've been lusting over for 3 years.

Yeah, my expenses are super fucking low which is why I can do it like this. Basically if I work even two days in the next two weeks I'll be more than all good. My rent is only $350 a month for everything and I get paid about $200 a day and make my own schedule. Pretty awesome but I also will get into a rut where I'm just on my computer all day every day for like.....weeks. Don't get me wrong, it's bad. I should be saving as much money as possible, but that part of me hasn't really activated yet, but it needs to. Plus I've got mental health stuff which kind of reinforces this lifestyle, but yeah.
It's all good tho. What gun you want?

Well if your income is reliable I guess it's okayish. I'd be way too insecure to live like this.
>What gun you want?
Vz 58

>Vz 58
Not that guy, but just fucking get it already.
But why a VZ? Czechpoint, if I had to guess?

Not to good. Pops always tries to start a fight with me over little shit. I'm pretty sure its cuz I wont get married but 18 is p fucin young and I ain't got no ho.
I'd actually like advice for getting my family closer. My cousins up with some dumpy bitch that literally no one likes. She likes talking shit and now when he talks to me he talks all snipppy.

I'm taking a compress course trig as well as 3 main classes. The trigonometry is all in one month instead of five. It's actually going real good I've got a 90 so far and I'll be happy to settle for 80%

Also why do all the women I talk to think I wanna sex them? I always find out from a friend that they didn't want to talk to me because I was creepy and tryna fuck them.

I also took this out for a hike. The loops of course dug into my back but no rawness.

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Because I wish I was an AKfag but I'm a leaf. It's CSA and I'm waiting for a good black friday sale, the usual price is 1.5k and I'm sure as fuck not paying this much for one.

>tfw you will never serve 20 years in the legion and retire to a countryside villa with several nubile female slaves

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>tfw I'll be 36 in a few months
Going to be literally twice the age of 18-year-old "adults".

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Oh, well then leafbro, fucking buy it any god damn way.
Before the year is out, treat yo'self.
And then buy something cheap like some surplus ammo and flaunt it. I know you guys still get Bulgarian and Chinese shit, right.
>"Here's my $1200 VZ with bitch mags but here's 6 crates of steel core ammo that cost $22 from Canadian Tire" kinda shit.

>want new guns
>only have small amount of money to spend
>therefore I have to save up
>Have to choose between buying new guns, ammo or accessories for said guns
Plus I live in California, so everything sucks.

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>Nubile
>not having qt nip waifu harem

Yeah I've been looking for excuses at every opportunity to not buy one because I got badly traumatized by the poorfag college life but I'm getting it for real this time.

Howdy, buddy

>but I'm getting it for real this time.
>THIS TIME
Come on m8.
If it's a dollar off, just get it.
Let me ask you, has it ever dropped it's "regular price" besides being on sale? By that I mean actual fluctuation in its price, downward? Because if not times a wasting and it's only getting costlier.

>(of a girl or young woman) sexually attractive
All I need. I imagine it would also be quite difficult to find nip waifus in any of the provinces. A devoted man could try trekking east but I imagine that would be quite dangerous and the nips at the time were basically straight up tribals.

>By that I mean actual fluctuation in its price, downward?
Nah, unrestricted class blackticool babby killers get a bigger price hike than every other type of gun every passing year, the regular price was just around 1k when I first got into guns. Basically I'm just waiting to see if I can save a couple hundos around BF and if not I'm getting one anyway.

>losing weight
>looking at houses to buy
>almost guaranteed a raise next week
Things are looking good, definitely improving from my current situation.

I’ve got this deep desire for uniformed service, police or military. But after a year of being a supervisor with my company I’m really disappointed with the way everyone just half-asses things and a bunch of personal stuff outside of work is making me feel real jaded about the world.
I’m debating whether I should pursue duty or making a ton of money in life, because I don’t think my efforts will ever be reciprocated personally.

Even if you can't save a "couple hundos", C'est la vie.
Get your fucking VZ on, son.

>pursue duty or making a ton of money in life
MAKE MONEY.
The suit you wear as a CEO is not that different than a cop/military uniform.
Do you know that you can still "do your duty" once you have money?

Organize and run for office. Ensure it's run fairly and honestly if you're worried.

Everyday I fight and everyday the newfags take inch by inch. I have lost several boards already and I'm running out of ammo, but I'll club them if I have to.

I don't have to win, I just have to make sure they lose.

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Hello texas. I know that textbook