25+ thread

What we are waiting for isnt coming user. The only thing that waits for us now is to see how much more suffering we can take

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CompTIA
Whatever works, feel like there's progress being made anyway. Better than housekeeping

>feeling down
>people were nice and friendly to me at work today
>feel better about myself

Man sometimes all it takes is for people to be nice to you and talk to you a bit.

I literally read the entire A+ book and studied but didn't even go for the test. I'd rather get the Network+ and Security+ ones since I got a degree for security.

Are you saying that a CCNA is more important than ComTIA's certs? Got me the A+, N+, S+ and working on my CCNA with my Bachelors Degree. I've also got random microsoft certs.

Something that will never come.
The best we can do is make small changes.
Any movement in a positive direction is good.
You can scoff at it now, but in the moment you will feel much better.
Don't wait to be rich and famous, it won't happen.

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How difficult is the A+ test? I feel like they expect you to memorize so much random shit.

>33
>Wizard
>Recently unemployed. Quit my job because of ethical reasons.
>Barely left my apartment over the past 8 days, just applying for jobs during the day and drinking at night.
>I wonder if I'll eventually move back in with my mom and just completely embrace the NEET life.

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It's the hardest of the three in my opinion. Tons of random shit you really don't need to know.

>ethical reasons
I smell story time

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I am waiting to die, very hard to get a bf when you're old.

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I'm just waiting for death. Not depressed though. Maybe kind of empty but sometimes angry.

I just don't really live for anything and only ever feel motivated when I'm mad at something.

Oh, 32 here by the way.

this times a millions of millions

>25
>hikki/NEET on welfare for 5 years now
>live with mother and little sister
>go out once every 3 months
>no ambitions, no goals, no friends, no skills, depressed, feel useless
>all i can do is stare at the screen for the whole day so i don't have to think
I'm waiting for the sweet release of death desu

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Even if I could get better there's still going to be sadness on a wasted youth plus it's like starting over at age 30 and you're so far behind others it's like being handicapped

I just want to feel good

I wish I wasn't old enough to post here

It's so far away though. I get so bored and lonely all the time. I'm sad.

In a nutshell, price gouging & claiming things were completely legitimate when they were not. I had enough and bailed. Idk, I still feel like I did the right thing by leaving, but I wonder if I committed career suicide.

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>Got a job
>Don't have a car
>Don't have my own place
>In ok/good shape
>Had sex 3 times at 28
Life's pretty eh bud

>Meet hot 22 year old
>Single mom of 3, but has a shitload of money for seemingly no reason
>Studying to be a doctor, trying to push me back into IT/Programming
>Treats the baby dad like a bitch, mostly because he is a bitch
>Big fat round ass and decent size tits
>Works out like every day
>Still not sure how I pulled this off
>Starting to get my shit together to get my A+ cert and do that easy as fuck MSOffice cert because may as well
Neat.jpg

>got a job
>got a car
>have my own place
>also ok shape
>have had sex hundreds of times
>cuddle up to a pillow every night
>usually cry myself to sleep
>wake up and realize Im still alone
so fucking lonely, all the time.

>zero interest in girls my age
>feel weird about going after girls younger than my brother (he's 23)
>attraction to women in their 30s/40s grows everyday

my sexuality makes no sense!

I find that life goes by faster and faster. The last ten years or so flew by before I knew it. Feels like I'll be in my 50's in not that much time.

LOL yeah, there are some 40something MILFs at my office. Which is great since i'm 40something now

I just have to not sexually harass them (although, since they are in their 40s, they'd likely be flattered)

>utterly terrified of what people think of me
>but also nothing worse than being ignored when i put myself out there

It's bad

Same. Is there an explanation for that or is it just stupidity?

>have to take a break from therapy for nearly 3 months due to health insurance problems
>no motivation to do most things, anxious about failing classes
>finally found a non-student tier job
>gerting sex regularely with a girl I like after being a virgin for 28 years
Could be worse.

>have had sex hundreds of times
I just want to rest my head on the warm soft thighs or back or chest of a woman again

Between school and work I have spent the last 7 years collecting sheets of paper. In the last 2 years I overcame the nihilism that allowed me to be who I was. Now I just need to figure it out from here.

Anyone else have a existential crisis at age 26? I've been scared of death and the afterlife the past few weeks. It's pretty bad, i've been crying like crazy. Doesn't help that I have sever paranoia and OCD so this stuff never leaves my mind.

Yeah, I did and funny enough it was when i was 26. Started to get real paranoid about dying and just generally started playing it safe for a couple months. As time went by I evened out again, realized that while I've only got one shot at life I'll shit it up if I'm too careful. There's a nice middle ground in between "live fast/die young" and being too responsible/stingy to have any fun.

have you tried getting laid?
I got puss on the reg now but she is sort of gross and a whore and the girl I really like is so close yet so far away and doesn't really know I exist so much, and even if she did I couldn't have a normal functioning relationship with her probably because the way I am

I'm not that guy, but you don't make it sound good.

it's really not good. Once a girl completely whores out for you you begin to resent them and realize that you can't have a functioning relationship with them or respect them as people.

Don't grow things when renting. It's just not worth the risk.

29-year-old with major depressive disorder here. The depression is hitting me really hard this year. I think what really hit me is the realization that I am a 29-year-old, unemployed, high school drop-out friendless virgin who lives with his 72-year-old mother while other people my age have already gone and been finished with college since they were 26. When my brother was my age (he is 46 now) he was already making $5,000 every month, he already had his own car, he already had multiple girlfriends, he already had a 9-year-old son... when my father was my age he had already known my mother for years and I was already 3 years old. And, man, it really trips me out that my third and most recent psychotherapist is this cute little 29-year-old blond thing with a doctorate, and her husband is a lead engineer for SpaceX. And my psychotherapist wants nothing to do with me now.

I often times break down crying late at night, calling out to God for help even though I do not even believe in God. My body often times feels like it is in physical pain. I find myself crying, shivering, laying on my bed and whispering: God, if you exist, please help me. Please help me, God. God, please help me. God help me, God help me, God help me.

Maybe if I say it enough times, I figure, God might place my consciousness in my 17-year-old self. Then I would immediately track down a psychiatrist to prescribe me Adderall to help me finish high school and go straight to college.

>And my psychotherapist wants nothing to do with me now.
Hahaha were you that mental deficient a thread ago who wanted to fuck his therapist?

I was neet for 6 years. And end up getting a job at 27. Simply because of boredom, i feel like loosing my mind. Started from IT tech support, currently working as Junior QA.
It helps somewhat, as a distraction. Sure, i have around 5-6 free hours in a workdays, but it's not like i was doing something productive with that time before.
Change nothing though, manage to mimic as a normie in front of coworkers, but that about it. Still feel alone, alienated, hopeless, have zero ambition and growing apathy. I'm starting to think that without job as distraction, i would just killed myself by now.
Yes, older you get - faster time goes. I feel like January was yesterday, but we close to mid-April already.

Bills bills bills bills

Fuck man my whole life is bills

Its my birthday next month and I am being asked what I want by my mum and my girl; all I want to say is pay a bill for me please but I dont want to look like a failure of an adult who cant even handle his own damn shit.

I got paid TODAY and I am already almost broke; 440$ I need to outlay for new tyres really decimated this months pay.

>30+
>manlet, jawlet, hairflet, friendlet, brainlet, virgin
>hate my brainlet family, don't want to breed

I honestly don't see a future.
I can get a super shit job, and an ugly retarded GF, but what's the point

Nothing's coming.
You've got to do the work
Take St. Johns wort
Listen to Jordan B. Peterson

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Yep. That was me alright.

How did you go from a six year job gap immediately into IT? Did they care about your unemployment at all?

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>Lived alone, but never really "moved out" and when I was living alone it was only for some months at a time
>About to move to a city a hour away with no family nearby

I'm scared because I know I won't make any friends and if something goes wrong I won't have anyone to call upon.

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sly ol bear

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>Take St. Johns wort
>Listen to Jordan B. Peterson
hahahha no

Did you greentext the failure? I missed it

>29-year-old
>72-year-old mother
You never had a chance

Yes, right around 26/27 I started freaking the fuck out. Began crying several times a week, had frequent panic attacks, etc. It was at that point I decided to seek professional help which helped a little at the time but didn't do much in the long run so I stopped.

Now I'm 28 and I feel better, maybe I'm just more comfortable with dying.

That makes me wonder, how many of us were born late? Mom had me at 34

What changed to make you feel better?

Not sure what you mean by greentexting the failure, but here goes my lame-ass life story:

>I am turning 30 years old this year
>dropped out of high school at 17, back in 2006
>the only "education" that I've received since then has mainly been Wikipedia and Khan Academy
>have been essentially unemployed for over a decade
>have only had one "real" job: a mall cop job for a single month, back in 2011
>have not had any "real" friends since 1997
>have not had any "internet friends" since 2009
>have never had a girlfriend
>virgin
>have only ever kissed one girl: a stripper in Mexico, back in 2006
>spend all day playing video games even though video games do very little if anything for me anymore
>am currently living with my "retired", single, hard-working, 72-year-old mother
>have been officially diagnosed by an actual psychologist as having three different disorders: major depressive disorder, social anxiety disorder, and generalized anxiety disorder
>have been officially diagnosed by an actual psychiatrist as having attention deficit hyperactivity disorder
>diagnosed with four different disorders that nobody in my family nor anybody else in the world seems to believe are "real"
>am currently being prescribed an antipsychotic (Abilify), an antidepressant (Remeron), and a psychostimulant (Adderall), none of which seem to do all that much for me anymore
>being prescribed medications to treat disorders that nobody seems to believe are real
>have now become 30+ pounds overweight thanks to Abilify
>the psychologist who diagnosed me has been ignoring my e-mails and phone calls since March of 2017
>the psychologist's subordinate (my third and most recent psychotherapist) told me last month to stop trying to contact her or else she would take legal actions against me

I had mine back at 18. It's easier once you realize what is after death, which is nothing. No fleeting thoughts, no 'looking back at your life', no reincarnation. You just stop existing never to be seen again, much like how today just passed by.

Nothing in my life really changed, I think it was just a big hill you have to climb up and hope you make it to the top before you run out of puff.
Of course its not actually a hill because once you get to the top it merely levels out, you don't get an easy walk down.

The following year I tried really hard to change things up. Traveled, tried some new drugs, sold some objects that I had felt deeply attached to for far too long.

I just lied about my past employment. Said i was working at small companies without official registration. Company with tech support vacancy just got new investor, so they really increasing amount of their stuff and i guess HR decided that i'm good enough. Besides, tech supp in IT is at the same level as fastfood in normal jobs.
Got somewhat lucky with QA. But same stuff, lied about past experience, with adding that i """worked""" as a freelancer at some very easy tasks during web development and got accepted as intern. 2 months of working for food and rent and they raised me to normal employee.

>wake up
>have to make the hard decision between going to work or taking a sick day to kill self

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I don't fucking remember where this bitch came from, but so and so female told me to shut the fuck up a few times. The first time, ignored her. The second time she said it, I made exaggerated head positioning movements looking at the ceiling to signify that I didn't give a shit what she said, to intentionally poss her off. After that, she exclaimed "who the fuck do you think you are?" and decided to call some weak looking faggot over. In the process of her bitching about me, I decided to wave and smile at the guy she was trying to sick on me, which ended up in him waving back to me. After that, I ended talking to somebody at the bar, and the female said "didn't I tell you to shut the fuck up"? Of course, I completely ignored her. This led her to say "who the fuck do you think you are?", to which I replied "a customer just like you. You can feel free to be mad all you want, but none of the people you tried to get mad at me would do anything, so tough shit."

And then she slapped me, saying "oh yeah? Well, who just did that, huh?" As an aside, this is the most female contact I've gotten in a while, and it was pretty soft and weak. To this action, I got extremely close to her face and responded "That's it? You're weak, you're trash, and you're fucking garbage." After that, I basically left my tip and went out the door before I actually lost my temper. Obviously I was one more move away from back handing the shit out of her, bit I decided to leave before I engaged in that.

Should I have stayed and tormented the roast for being mean to me or did I make the decision in walking away?

is this pasta? it's so fucking lame lmao

Happened less than an hour ago, user. Still drunk as fuck from the bar. Feel free to give your opinion.

Yesterday I got mistaken for being under 17.
> Need petrol, so go to petrol station.
> Get out of car.
> Press "pay at pump" button.
> Lift fuel nozzle.
> Put nozzle into car.
> Squeeze.
> No fuel.
> Keep trying.
> Keep trying. wtf.jpg.
> Manager comes out and asks if I've stolen my parents car.
> I'm 28.

>Manager comes out and asks if I've stolen my parents car.
wow

I don't like that my vacation is over and I'm back to the same shit as always.

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Literally I was lost for words and for the first thirty seconds of my stuttering and general bewilderment the manager probably thought he had caught me.

I look young for my age and have quite awkward movements but this has really left me wondering how many people mistake me for a child but don't say anything out of politeness.

I'm not meant to be in a world with other humans..

>things happen
>anxiety
>nothing happens
>depressed

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>health problems getting worse, constant difficulty breathing
>there's also a good chance I have thyroid cancer, just waiting for results now
>I'm only 29
>if positive I'll need to nuke my thyroid and will need to take pills for the rest of my life, otherwise I will die
>I may well have cancer before I ever get pussy

What a funny joke, God! You real prankster!

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>29
>custodian at high school
>opioid addict
>haven't gotten laid in over a year
>been 2 years since my last relationship

I've been struggling with the goal to start a relationship with a woman who wants a family. I mean i have always had that goal going back to when I was a teenager but what gets in the way is these thoughts I have, "Is it worth the risk/hassle in this day and age? What if you have children then your wife just wants to leave you and ruin the family? What if you have a daughter and she ends up a pornstar?" Basically those types of thoughts because I know of so many that turned out like those (other then the daughter pornstar). It's devastating because I just wanted to have a loving, wholesome family who go on hikes, county fair's, bike rides, ect. every weekend with a caring wife and respectful kids. I just feel like it would take a miracle these days to have something like that because this generation is so fucked. I can't stand the current social media culture and thats just one aspect of a laundry list of what's wrong now. I wish it were the 60's or 70's. Obviously things weren't perfect then but I feel like it would have been a he'll of alot better then it is now. Does anyone else feel this way or am I just a whiny cunt?

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if your daughter turns into a whore its literally your fault

Why is that? You don't think there's ever been a dad who pretty much did everything right in raising his daughter and she still ended up a whore? If you seriously think that, youre wrong.

>tfw balding
>tfw 21

>pretty much did everything right
>opioid addict

Ok

I don't have a daughter, dude. I'm saying fathers who did do everything right and thier daughters turned out whores still. It happens.

My plan have derailed again thanks to deadlines. Do I really have to wait another year before I can get into the profession I want?

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If you have the time, wait it out. A year will fly by.

>almost 28
>watching tween shows on freeform

Does it get any lower

Watching young people interviews how they say they are full of ideas and how cool life is for go getters.

Also stalking my ex crush on instagram. Yesterday there was a post that she acquired a new boyfriend in a subtle and witty way she is (with rabbit ring on her finger and note) "The only pet i care more than my rabbit is my boyfriend :)"

I don't even like her per se, it's just a fantasy, idea that i keep because my life is so empty and dull.
8 years..., I still can't stop loving you u bich...

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>5th day of being sober after two years of heavy drinking
Am I cured now?

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>40 year old woman at work getting married
>wants to have at least 2 kids
>both her and her husband-to-be have histories of mental illness
It's like they don't give a shit. Just have some kids to stave off the loneliness and then grow to resent them as they achieve nothing.

Manchild here.
apparently there are more people like me, feels good to belong , here :D. How ironic..

>40 year old
>Having children
At that point, is it even possible without having retarded kids?

How the fuck do some of you guys get laid? I have serious intimacy issues and anxiety about relationships. I've been diagnosed with major depression, GAD, and social anxiety but I honestly feel like I have something else, maybe avoidant. I might be alone forever.

>27
>still live at home
but
>have car
>have job
>pay rent and pay for car
>planning on returning to college for an AA at least
a-am i gonna make it lads?

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>33
please god do this. there's nowhere for us

21yo here
>inb4 CAN YOU NOT READ
Yeah, I can, but hear me out, nigger:

I have observed that the changes in maturity were quite drastic in the last few years.
At the age of 19, I still felt like a teenager, despite legally being adult (European so age 18: legally adul5), but between that span, from 19 to 21, I have matured to become a nearly entirely new person, developing personal independence, rational decision-making based on the ressources I have (on the contrast to "maybe mom will pay it"), taking responsibility up as a natural thing to do, often realizing that I'm "coming of age" (I know that sounds ridiculous, but what I mean is the feeling of the youthful, naive, impulsive and unstable yet vastly energetic attitude slowly fading a way, shaping you into what you used to classify as "old people", I think majority of you can relate) and such things.

Now, my question is:
How will this proceed further?
Does this speed and intensity of change in oneself increase, decrease, stay the same..?
What am I to expect of the next 4-9 years?

reminder not to reply to children, especially the ones that unironically say nigger

>How will this proceed further?
You'll eventually come to cringe at these sort of posts when you learn what real responsibility is.

Of course you are robot. You're already doing better for yourself. Start looking for a cheap apartment. Having your own space is good for your head.

I worked on my insecurities and waited until I was ready to start seeing people. It may take a while, try not to judge yourself too much until you get better.

This is a bad idea. If it's that important to them they need to adopt.

What is it like to work a dead end job for several years or more? What does it feel like when you show up for your 975th day of work and your brain isn't even turned on because your muscles have remembered every part of your job for you. Yet those moments hit you where it's 5 hours into your shift and you suddenly realize that you're not day dreaming anymore and that you are currently in the real world and your misery comes swinging back at you like a bullet.

I Just had the craziest dreams man

I got fired today because of cutbacks