I have come to the realization that not leaving the house for two weeks is probably detrimental to mental health. I haven't eaten in two days, just drinking water. So addicted to shitposting and watching streams that my life has become a steaming pile of shit.
I was supposed to start work Monday but missed my orientation and pretty much fucked that up. Mfw moving out of my apartment because can't afford it. Going to live with mom again because total loser.
Was dating a grill for about a month who was older than me and 7.5/10 but she met some other guy and is now fucking that guy.
I made a plebbook and proceeded to make a fool of myself to all my old friends who hate the new sperglord me
On another note, I wanna tell you anons about my obsession I have. And I HAVE to tell someone. Basically, I have this fetish that mixes two impossible things to happen in my life. One is Love, and the other is incest. I still dream that one day a really hot thin woman in her 30s becomes my mother (in every sense) and then comes to my room and says she's fallen madly in love with me. I want to be loved not just by a woman, but by my mother at the same time. She confesses that she's in love with me madly and wants to be with me forever. I agree and admit I am also in love with her, I have been since the beginning. Then we make love and tell each other that we love each other all night long. I know this will never happen but it's in my mind all the fucking time. What do anons? Is this a sick fantasy?
>I have come to the realization that not leaving the house for two weeks is probably detrimental to mental health. Oh don't you fucking tell me. Haven't you ever heard what damages Sensory Deprivation does to you? Do you at least have someone to talk to?
>Was dating a grill for about a month who was older than me and 7.5/10 but she met some other guy and is now fucking that guy. Sorry user, but women are just whores nowadays.
I always go full shutdown when a girl leaves me, and so far hasn't mattered since I've been in school and had no expenses. I am dreading going into the working world, where shutting down means you've basically ruined your life and have to basically start over.
Henry Brooks
Erlkonig by Schubert is such a good song. And of course Goethe is a good poet but even after several years of German I can hardly understand him. Schubert in a sense I think as a composer is underrated in that his piano and highly Romantic works have been "normalized" and are good for a quick listen to normal people, but beyond that people won't return to him, therefore ignoring his symphonies and more significant pieces. But it always seems to no matter how Late Romantic or 20th century Expressionist I go in music, or back even to Schubert and his like, I can't recapture that transcendental feeling of listening to the immortal Tristan prelude while falling asleep. Berg's Dem andenken comes close at least. Even Wagner gets memed on hard and people can claim to be a "fan" of his music but sitting through an entire opera of his will kill them a thousand times from boredom more than one by Puccini or Mozart. And even I confess that I remain infatuated in a "honeymoon period" with one piece of another before leaving that too. So perhaps Alles Vergangliche ist nur ein Gleichnis etc. if I can still recall Goethe. And the most damning thing is that there's no one to tell this too, since people who really know this stuff aren't swayed by emotions alone, so thanks for hearing me out
Yeah, it hardly matters now though as /lit/ and /mu/ have become isolation as well, so why not Jow Forums, really? I feel doomed that I will never really know enough about these things to truly engage in discussion, but just enough knowledge in esoteric topics as to distance myself from general conversation. Mediocrity though, of course, is nothing new! The whole time it's like I've been waiting for life to start, but it never does
I'm sorry user. But I think that the problem is not that you have gone too far in topics of /lit/ and /mu/ that we can't follow. Some robots can. But you just posted all of this stuff and talk without focusing on a single particular topic and of course it seemed out of place. What do you wanna talk about? I will try to follow the best I can.
