My boyfriend saw that thread I made the other day about how I find it difficult to have feelings for others...

I'm not completely unfeeling, but it does make it difficult for me to make friends or form meaningful relationships. I wish I could feel more because then I wouldn't dread interacting with people so much. I keep worrying about being called fake, uncaring, etc. I'm not good at conversation because I don't know what to say , I hardly add anything to conversation, or people quickly see that I don't care about the conversation.

feelings
>dread interacting with people
>worried about being exposed
>indifference to conversation
>presumably upset at rejection

looks like you have good emotional responses to pain sorted out. Are you depressed at all?

Have you thought that maybe the problem is that you keep interacting with the wrong people? Maybe you could develop a genuinely intimate relationship with someone similar to you.

Yes, I am depressed. I'm not good with feelings of happiness or anger because I often feel like I don't deserve to experience those.

so date/befriend someone as broken as me. People like me don't have good jobs.

This isn't your blog you retarded faggot

Well, not necessarily someone broken, but someone who can at least understand your problems instead of feeling alienated by them. How fucked up are you anyway? Did something happened to make you like this?

not her but that's probably not it. I just ended a thing with a girl sort of like this. Very fond of animals, liked having sex and saw me as a friend, but she told me repeatedly that she doesn't have romantic feelings towards me or anyone she had ever been with. It was hard for me to tell when she wasn't telling me because she went through all the motions of a standard girlfriend despite not having any of the feelings behind it. The odd thing was she got emotionally involved in romantic fiction, so she understood what romantic feelings were, though she was unable to feel them towards real people.

OP sounds a lot like that. I don't think it's a matter of prince charming coming in and breaking her spell, I think it's more a matter of finding someone who knows upfront about her dulled emotions and can live with that.

given that you're likely not looking to find someone to feel romantic about, what are you looking for in a partner. I would wager that after your last experience that you want someone with whom you can be upfront about your emotional problem and will accept you despite it. What else? Are you looking to get invested longterm in a person? Are you looking to have children? Is there a career you want to pursue, or would you want to be a housewife? What do you seek from a partner?

Go see a therapist. If you care about your relationship, you'll look for a therapist right now and let the guy know you're doing so. After finding a therapist, you'll begin getting some professional help.

>tfw no sociopath gf who offers sex
I want a girl like you so much you have no idea.

My parents didn't interact with me much during my upbringing since they worked long hours. They never showed up to my graduations or any events where they were invited. I was also an only-child so I didn't get to talk much to others or understand when to feel.

What I look for in a relationship:
-someone to to be open about feelings with . All the bad and good. No secrets.
-Sex. We don't have to have it, but the option should be there. Performing oral and each other is a good sign of commitment and trust.
-Being there for each other and respecting each other's needs.

He's mad at you because you dind't love him? And it's your fault?
How the fuck would one control who one loves. He got the best deal a beta male could've get, he should be happy.

Haha you deserve it roastie

>and the implicit point is "women are awful"
Is it? I always assumed the people who posted anime girls were trannies and faggots.

Seriously. the relationship you had is the standard for the vast majority of Japanese pairs. it works.

All things I want too. I kinda feel like scum for asking to talk to you on discord while you're on the rebound but I'm interested in talking to you anyways

Liima#7673

How do i find a sociopath gf? You normies all shame them into hiding their power.

Has your fuck life with him gone down the shitter too, or does he still like plowing your cooch?

Have you ever felt love even if for just a moment? When you watch a movie or read a book can you relate to the characters or be emotionally invested in them?

>someone to to be open about feelings with . All the bad and good. No secrets.
But you lied to him about your feelings.
>Sex
Didn't you say in the last thread you weren't sexually attracted to other people?

good good, we need more roasties to get rekt

Are you a schizoid op?

I think you mean ex-boyfriend, pal. This can be a learning experience for you. Develop some human emotions and try to actually be human for once

A relationship isnt a one way street user
Its reciprocal
If your partner dosent givr a fuck if you die that is a large indicator that they dont give a fuck about you at all

That's how all women are. You just didn't get the memo to lie about it. Other women probably have a natural instinct to lie about it and put more effort into it because it's like a game. They want to play and they want to win.

I can live without sex, but I respect the whole "allowing yourself to be vulnerable in front another" part of sex.

That's the point. I want a gf like that so much. She isn't with me and has sex with me because she somehow values me as a person, but just because its convenient and she already knows me and i know her. Convenience is far more tangible than love.

YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO PUT SHIT LIKE THIS N A GREENTEXT YOU FUCKING IDIOT

So you want to be used?
Are you a masochist, user?

You said you were broken. In which ways other than being emotionless?

Used? I get sex out of it. And someone to live with. And i get to tell people i have a gf, so no need for awkward conversations around that. How is that being used? If anything, she's the one who is being used.

you don't sound like a psycho to me user. you seem to care about animals etc and you have social concerns. your feelings might be more self-centred and less knee-jerk than others. the key is, if you aspire to be compassionate and normal, use "what would i feel like in that situation?" as much as physically possible. project yourself.

good luck user. dude sounds like an ass, tell him you're gonna get therapy and you do love him. also, have you considered you might be autistic user

>and you do love him
But she doesn't.

I care more about being found out than the well-being of others. When someone gets hurt I will come to rescue because I want to blend in. People at work see me as a goodie-two shoes, but I only do good things because I want others to see me as good.

Good hopefully your homeless now. Any chance he has a patreon account I can donate to help him out with?

but love doesn't have to be constant adoring love. if she's willing to have sex with him, buy him things and give him emotional consolation, isn't that a type of love? caring about someone, or even just considering them intrinsically valuable - someone who gives good conversation, is a good person to pass the time with, and is helpful to you - isn't that love that won't just disappear when you find someone else? i think that's even better.

also, bear in mind most love ends up being attachment anyway. people end up infatuated, then after a while they're attached. love is just something murky we attach to both of those concepts IMO.

I think you need to go back to school and learn how to read your own writing.

Oh god pls be my gf. None of that normie pretending and manipulation. You know exactly why you do things and you're not ashamed of admitting it.

I see. Not ideal but it's not so bad. Do you really care that much about what others think? I was a bit like you some time ago and now I don't give a fuck. Feels pretty great. People don't care about you as much as you think and they will respect you and value you anyway if you have other qualities.
You said you care about animals, so you aren't completely emotionless. Have you ever felt genuine care or attraction towards someone else?

I feel like caring a lot about what others think is a good way to survive. I'm not very smart so I need people smarter ,more sociable and more emotionally capable than me to care for me. I never really cared for anyone, not even family, but it's better to be nice than to be edgy. Normies do horrible things when they are stressed. I think that guys can be cute and sexy, but I can't bring myself to lust over a person or have romantic feelings.

You have to watch the movie Gone Girl. You remind me so much of her. She's like the perfect girl. The. Perfect. Girl.

I think your bf did well in leaving you because he's looking for something you can't offer him and he has the right to at least try to find someone who can, but you are all right. You are very self aware of your short comings and you are even willing to work on yourself. I think you will have no much trouble finding someone a bit apathetic but still competent who is accepting of who you are. Honestly to me your only true defect is that you're a bit shallow, but other than that you're all right.

Dig out an old condom and squirt the man batter in you. Maybe you can anchor him down with child support payments if you form babby

ur bf is not W O K E.
find an smart dude.

How's your physical appearance?

Why are you normies all shaming her like she's doing something wrong. Fuck that.

OP, your sociopathy is what makes you attractive and unique.

haha I always love it when roasties get BTFO, your pic just makes it all the sweeter

-5'2"
-110 pounds
-chin length hair, but I sometimes keep is shorter because I hate doing my hair
-slender
-small boobs
-Bruneian

That's all good and all but would you say you're a cutie?

No. I would say I am slightly below average looking at best. my boyfriend was too good for me, but he called me cute and pretty.

You can't be fucking serious with this reply. Defending a fucking sociopath just lol.

>Bruneian
That makes sense. I kept picturing a white girl, but Asians are even colder.

So this is what a self-aware woman is like.

Was your bf hot? How old are both of you?

>Bruneian
Kek, love in the western world is different from love in the eastern world.
You aight yellow girl, that's just the way asian bitches be.

What is the point of being with someone you don't like, aside from leaching from him for purely your own benefit? You go into a relationship with people you can trust, OP is obviously not trustworthy if she views relationships as only an asset for her.

You sound like you could be attractive, but how I see it the biggest flaw is your dishonesty. I'd like to read or watch an anime about someone in an uncaring relationship where both want it, it has an appeal, and it seems attractive when I project myself into a relationship with someone like you.
Some people are fine with not being loved back. Think about the really serious waifufags, they really love their waifus but will never be loved back, but they still do it because even just loving someone is appealing by itself.
So if you didn't pretend you cared, but just entered a relationship where you tolerated their love without forcing yourself to pretend back, where you are completely honest with each other, and could just live together as roommates, I think that type of relationship has a real appeal, at least in fiction, and possibly in real life. Would love to read a long, in depth greentext story about what I'm describing.

time to pay for your own stuff from now on, i guess.

There's a limited supply of men that woman can love (the Chad), yet she has to end up in a relationship due to societal pressures. Thiis is especially true for the uber-beta eastern asians.

How can she be honest, if the "man" in the relationship can't take the honesty?

This relationship can't work, but I was thinking a hypothetical relationship with someone else that knew what was up.
I only mean in so far as to be honest about not loving him and caring about him, and both knowing that, her constantly reminding him and talking about how little she cares about him whenever he shows affection would be taking it too far.
If the man enters the relationship with that knowledge, it may work, and sounds like a really cool and interesting dynamic.

Why does this board have so many whiteknights now? OP is a fucking loon.

im in a relationship where we both have diminished feelings for other people. we still like each other, consider each other valuable, give each other affection and live happily. it's nice to be with someone you can truly be yourself around.

most of Japaniese relationships are like the one OP entered in. They work well. Possibly, most of the participants know what's up after a while, but keep up appearances because that's the best outcome for the both of them.

user we just dont feel like otehrs do we are robots but we still care on some level.

DONT LET HIM GO

I understand, but this also means that betas will never be able to trust their partners. If you're not chad, it doesn't even seem worth it anymore.

It's not even the best outcome per se, just the one that gives them the least public shame. They're not happy with each other, but don't break up anyway. It's the reason why japanese wives allegedly cheat a lot and the men go to escorts/host clubs.

Desperate betafucks, cancer of the board.

How do you feel about butt stuff?

Have you ever been tested for mental disorders, OP?

You sound like a covert schizoid to me. The shitty part is there's no real treatment for it, even if you want it.

Anal is gross, takes a lot of prep time, it's dangerous, and it makes your penis smell.

>it makes your penis smell
How can it smell? It's a penis, not a nose.

>I understand, but this also means that betas will never be able to trust their partners.
The only way out is to not take things for granted and act accordingly, which is actually rather healthy.

>there's no real treatment for it, even if you want it
It can't be all that hard to drop the covert part.

Have you ever been in love user? Lets npt equate it to mundane things. It is earth shattering when it happens. And in my case kinda the worst thing that ever happened to me. But to be frank I wont get married til I find it again in better circumstances

Can we get the bf in here

if its earth shattering, its infatuation, and its impermanent. love is value of another person, similar to attachment.

the only "true", unconditional and unceasing love is the love of a mother for her child. of course some mums dont feel things this way, but motherly love for their children is one of the few things in the world that doesn't fade like infatuation, and doesn't dwindle like attachment.

Cuck logic
Cheater's logic

So you won't care about the person that you'll love, you're only in it for the feeling of love itself? That's very self-centered.

This. I guess not everyone can be alphas like us.

We're not alphas, we're omega scum and that's preferable to being a cuck.

Not that guy, but it's hardly love. You can feel neutral or even hate your job, but don't quit because you feel you need the money. You might tell others you love it, just to keep your job, but that doesn't change reality.

An exchange of services doesn't equate to love.

Talk for yourself, bitch. I'm an alpha. Don't ever tell me what I am or not again. Do you get it, bitch?

Honestly I can't really feel bad for anybody who leaves browser history open especially when they are willing to blogpost specific details like that. Sorry you're going to have to find somewhere else to live, but you made a very stupid and easily avoidable mistake and given the context clues he is probably making the right choice for himself.

And yet the (You)s will keep rolling in. The state of this board. I'll be glad when the FBI nukes this place.

This was way funnier to me than it should be.

It's okay, user, don't Jesse Pinkman up in here. The biggest bitch around calls everyone a bitch.

Believing it hurts noone but you gain a laugh or 5

oreeegeenally this

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA BIIIIIIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATCH

>Don't ever tell me what I am or not again.
Not them but no and wrong you gay pussy. Shut up.

>most of Japaniese relationships are like the one OP entered in. They work well.
They workED well when Japan was a male dominated society where the opinions of women didn't matter and cheating whores would get shamed. But the influence of the West changed all that, with sexy ideas like individualism, women's rights, and the worship of money. Fewer young people are itching to marry in this climate and who can blame them? Japanese society isn't what it used to be, they can only try to keep up the facade. What incentive is there for a man to marry a woman who doesn't love him and work long, grueling hours while she's fucking someone else in her free time at home?