25+ thread

>still a virgin
>still a neet
>still a porn addict
>still haven't spoke to a woman yet
Its never going to end is it?

Unlucky m8

Self-pity is for fuckin faggots

>33
>Entire life philosophy has revolved around some form of fatalism
>"I'm going to [do this thing to prove I'm not stupid and worthless], and if I fail, I can just kill myself later."
>Somehow make it every time
>Now out of things to prove to myself, but not quite at the point where I want to order a tank of nitrogen gas
>Still can't form relationships or relate to other people at all, to the point it hampers my work life (of course, there is no social life to speak of)
>Only goal now is to lose enough weight to get back to my early 20's physique, and fit on a sport bike
>Lost 30 lbs, but it is painfully slow because I keep binging on alcohol and junk food
>Maybe going really fast will make me feel something and will kill me at the same time

It's up to you.

Ask for nothing, get nothing.

I think I'm going to die soon.

My dad died of kidney cancer when he was in his 40, and recently I'm showing a lot of symptoms of fucked up kidneys. I haven't told anyone and I'm scared to go to the doctor to get this confirmed. I know when my dad went though, it was extremely painful and long and our family was a wreck since his diagnose to his death. So I'm considering checking out early before it gets worse.

I will never know what it's like to have a gf and I regret every decision I've ever made, but you guys have always been here for me regardless. Reeing away and making fun of the banality of life with me. I really want to thank you guys for always being there for me and every other social reject. I love you guys, each and every one of you.

At least confirm it before you off yourself. You'll have a chance to maybe indulge in some form of hedonism before you go.

Most of the guys on my mom's side (which I seem to take after) die at 60 or sooner from sudden, unexpected heart attacks or some other heart problem. I'm not even wasting resources saving for retirement, especially since I'm not married.

29-year-old here. Man, do I love history. I have been especially obsessed with the Bronze Age Near East period of history. Over these past five years or so I have been mentally working on a historical fiction novel set in the very beginning of recorded history... something like 3114 BCE with the unification wars of the first ancient Egyptian pharaoh Narmer. Right now I am replaying through Children of the Nile to help me visualize what life was like back then.

Hey now, a 29-year-old NEET with major depressive disorder has got to have *something* resembling a hobby, no?

Small steps. Try and make friends here and there, casually. It helps alot.

Love you too, brother. But maybe check it out before you pass on.

Not strictly true, everything ends eventually. As for whether things could change before they end? That's the tricky part. I'm planning on getting better and doing everything's I can in the meantime. Not gonna lie though I've failed alot.

To be honest I don't even care about being alone. I did finish a decent degree but I hate the field I'm crrently working in. Hate the office job, working under constant pressure so the boss can make his fucking money. Now I just want to move to somewhere comfy like Alaska and take nature in. Work a regular job there and just read or watch films in my spare time. Find one of those smalls houses to live in which is pretty normal there.

Too fucking bad faggot. Ears collapsed 5 months ago with progressive hearing loss. Tinnitus has given me visual snow. Vestibular damage has caused problems with my eye movement. Fuck this shit. Seriously fuck this shit. I now have nothing to look forward to except for killing myself in a few months to a year when my symptoms completely deteriorate.to shit. What a wasted life.

>26 y/o piece of shit
>forfeited the last piece of my soul away back in january
>didn't know God or really believe in hell until I foolishly condemned myself to it

posting here right now is as good as it's ever gonna be for me and it feels miserable that I cant enjoy anything anymore or see reality for how amazing it really is

you can end it anytime you want, user

It'll end when you die or choose to change those things. Either one.

At this point?

Not unless you make a Herculean effort

Man what the fuck is wrong with society. How do we let people get to 25 without them being socialized at even a basic level

What the actual fuck lol

> know when my dad went though, it was extremely painful
For you. KEKEKEKEKEK. But seriously hope you get better, user.

>Man what the fuck is wrong with society. How do we let people get to 25 without them being socialized at even a basic level
The internet probably plays a big part in that

doctors tell you its going to deteriorate to shit? any remedies at all even if minor?

28 here. My mom won't shut the fuck up about why I'm still not married or at least have a gf. She won't understand I stopped giving a fuck about such things after getting rejected gazillion of times and something inside me died at some point.

I'm a huge fucking loser.

>it's a "literally nobody calls you on your birthday" episode
>again
I'm sick of this

if you repent who knows
all things are possible

try some spiritual teachers user
seriously. these people basically were made to teach people like you. recapture that innate thing, even if you feel like you never even had it

>tfw lost the ability to repent with the "final fuck-up"

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bruh you know that you can turn that into something great right? that's a gift.
but youre a neet, i get it. the thing that you don't get is that you can get around it. youre gonna need help though

Substitute alcohol with weed. It'll help with the weight loss and may even help you discover something about yourself.

if it makes you feel like a loser then it hasn't died nigga

nigga all things are possible

I fucking hate stoners with a goddamn passion but this is true. I smoked pot for 6 weeks and lost 30 pounds with ease, if you can eat the same as you always do and resist the munchies most of the time pounds will melt away. I'm already really strong from my job so I looked really fucking good after I did that. Only problem is you feel lazier and think slower.

>still haven't spoke to a woman yet
sup

i'm learning that the hard way

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>porn addict
Am I a brainlet for not believing this or just the only W O K E user? How can you be addicted to porn? Or things in general. I sometimes jerk it 5 times a day, while sometimes I didn't masturbate for days or weeks at a time for various reasons.

>27
>beautiful fiancee
>beautiful electric car
>live in a beautiful house (rental) in best city in America
>saving to buy my own home, should be able to in a couple years
>healthy
>fit
>attractive
>loving family and some close friends

Overall my life is spectacular, I can't really complain. You might say I don't belong on this board, but I've been here since day one, been about 10 years now on this site I reckon.

not op.
but are you 25+ femanon?
whats life like?

I am in my mid-20s
I am a femanon
"what's life like" isn't easy for me to answer in a concise way. I am underworked at my current job so I'm in search of better employment, I spend most of my time playing video games and listening to music to drowned out the silence. I approach life, for the most part, with general indifference

Your mother is still a woman, user, and when women give men advice it's always a lie because they don't want to admit what their real motivations are.

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why indifference and what are you playing right now

Past time for you to leave. Get the fuck out you fucking tit. Go to facebook or whatever you normies do

>try to learn new shit
>forget it immediately
god damn I miss my young brain where I'd at least remember something for a few months just by reading it once

Why come here though? Like I'm a successfulfag too but I'll still keep it to myself and come here rarely, if ever.

This is it. This is the week I start setting goal and find some goddamn motivation and get some shit done.

This week I will
>take the dog to the park, and talk to at least one person there, preferably female
>not spend any money on cannabis, I will save what I have and make it last for another week
>NOT JACK OFF, I can't stress this enough, if I can accomplish one thing on this miserable list I hope it is this one, nofap for the whole week.. 7 damn days.. That's easy enough right?
>buy a work out bench. I don't expect to get this done because i have to clear space in the garage first but I want to get it done eventually
>if I don't get the bench and weights I want to exercise at least two times this week
>drink more water, get better sleep
Okay that's a few things jotted down now I am going to save the list as a draft text. Please user keep me honest to this list and kick my add should I fail as an unworthy bitch

>why indifference
it's easier that way. caring takes effort. If you want for nothing then no one can take advantage of you.

I've been replaying outlast, I forgot that I could be jumpscared so I've been having fun with that. I also play VTMB, Fallout NV, Skyrim, BlazBlue. It depends on what I'm after in that moment, a story vs a distraction vs "I'm going to replay this and get some of those achievements I've missed"

ever been in a relationship/cared for someone before?

man I hate outlast, the gore/imagery sticks in my memory for too long.

>ever cared for someone?
I have, once. I actually wrote "them" a letter in another thread here. It's been a few years.
I don't mind the gore so much, it's the anticipation of the jumpscares and then the jumpscares themselves that get me. Cry of Fear is another favorite of mine, thatn'sgot more puzzles to it.

>started playing scratchoff lotto tickets this month
>spent $144 so far
>only got $31 back

That's 21%. Everyone seems to say you should expect like 50% back. Just how fucking unlucky am I? I know I'm going to lose money but I seem to be losing way more than average.

so, what kind of games do you like, if you play vidja? wanna chat on discord or something?

how did it end/ how bad was the hurting?

always been into horror type stuff? I can't do it. especially games fucks up my dreams too much

yea im down to discord for a bit

>forfeited the last piece of my soul away back in january
how so?

I've always been into horror, my favorites are Resident Evil and Silent Hill, I also like Amnesia

It was complicated how it ended, the short of it was that life events caused me to fall into a deep depression that I had never before experienced, and they had never known anyone with depression before. I believe it made this person feel as if I didn't love them anymore because I was unable to prioritize anything more than staying alive - and I do mean staying alive, I couldn't leave the house at a certain point - so they broke up with me for their sake. I don't blame them. I'm a completely different person now, and whenever I look back on it I see how I could have handled it differently every step of the way.

Anybody else here feel like Frank Grimes? I swear I'm losing my mind here trying to understand other human beings.

I've already seen an actual psychologist and paid him $700 to evaluate me for all personality disorders and mental disorders only to have him tell me things like: "there's nothing wrong with you" - "you're fine just the way you are" - "be happy with yourself". And the people that I wanted the most to care, my family members, don't give a single fuck. They still treat me like I'm a crazy piece of shit. Nobody gives a fuck. Fuck.

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talking cant help me now, does is grow the pain more intensely though or is the threshhold already set

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for you or whomever, my discord is NyappyCatazz#4847

lets continue on kik user.
r9kty is the username.

a'ight den

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its like life just repeats itself over and over and nothing changes. You tell people around you what to do and nothing changes.

it said discord server is not live.

well that's gay, whatever works

>NyappyCatazz#4847
alri, discord back up, I sent invite. username tty

>tfw ringtone rap is dead

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Anyone else feel like there's something especially shitty about the year 2018? There was something special about 2017, I think. Looking back on last year I can't help but feel like it was almost magical somehow. Is it just the major depressive disorder screwing around with the receptors in my brain responsible for nostalgia?

I find myself trying to recreate the conditions that made me feel so much happier last year. Like opening the window and letting some sunlight and fresh air in. Something about certain lighting conditions at a certain time of day reminds me of certain pleasant days of 2017. It feels kinda nice but it's just not the same. Remembering about happier times just kinda makes me feel melancholic. Was it my medication that made me feel so much happier back then? Back then I was taking a different antidepressant called Nefazodone which seemed to be working fine overall except for the insomnia it was causing, so my psychiatrist stopped prescribing it to me. Now I'm taking Remeron and it doesn't seem to have the same effect.

last year I was actually making small steps towards self improvement and doing pretty good

then barely even 2 weeks into this year my grasp on life and reality got turned on its head hard

I'd say it gets easier, but honestly, life finds a way. This chocolate girl is asking how you can tell if something is cooked, and I have no idea how to tell her this thing is black when it's fully cooked. I've been trying to write this message for a few hours.

>26
>Starting full-time work for first time in my life
>Been seeing a middle-aged woman
>Anxious about everything because I have no idea how shit worked out this way and how to be an adult
It's fucking happening.

I don't know about dating a woman part, but the full-time work part gets old real quick

t. been working full time for about 5 straight years now

I wouldn't say especially shitty, but every year has been a little bit worse than the last one. It's like my happiness has been decreasing due to inflation. My life hasn't really changed much in the last decade. I work a low-paying job that I don't care about doing nothing of any real value or consequence. I make enough to pay my bills but not enough to save or do anything with. I'm still alone, never having known what love feels like, what being desired feels like.

I have cousins my age who have careers and families. Meanwhile I'm still stuck in the same place I've been. It looks like my only real option right now is to find a second job so that I can at least afford to get a pace of my own. Which will probably mean a second shitty, low-paying job that I won't care about either.

I don't know what I'm doing with my life. In a few years I'll be the same age my father was when I was born. It's like another arbitrary milestone that I'm failing to achieve. Another reminder that I've wasted my life and have nothing to show for it.

get the fuck out cunt, fucking holes reeeee

>holes
haha what?
you wanna join our discord chat?

>tfw cyborg
I'm on the edge of being datable, I'm on the edge of having proper work, I'm on the edge of having friends. I've improved my life so much since I hit adulthood and realized I didn't want to be a robot, but I'm starting to fall behind again.

I wish I could just know if I fail, because then I could start trying.

I matched with this woman on tinder a couple of weeks ago, we chatted for a few days, I asked her out, she said yes, then stopped responding to my messages. I kind of miss talking to her and I'm tempted to message her again, should I do it or is that pathetic

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If you've already had a large number of messages go unanswered, I'd just accept it and let it go. Then again, I tend to give up pretty quickly. I don't want somebody who doesn't want me.

send a question mark user

Immediatly delete/block number/accounts of any woman who didn't answer you after 2 messages. She clearly doesn't want any kind of contact to you. I know that feels like shit, but there's sadly nothing you can do besides being a pathetic fucking faggot and pestering her.

Only two

Probably the truth, sucks because I'm in a small town and it's hard to find women that I actually like

?

According to Jow Forums I was going to die peacefully in my sleep last night. How disappointing.

>everything ends eventually
I find comfort in that. No matter how bad a thing you can imagine it ends eventually, I'm glad to forfeit eternal pleasure as long as I don't have to experience eternal pain, it's a good trade off, balanced