Personality Disorder Thread

Can someone here identify what I am:

>good looking with good body (muscular, 6'2")
>lots of sexual experience, however I am very inept at actual relationships and they disintegrate. Nonetheless, I have a lot of girls attracted to me (they disclose)
>view 99% of people with disgust
>described by former girls I've been with as an "asshole" or "crazy"
>reputation on uni campus as bipolar narcissistic sociopath (?) with angry and violent outbursts
>disliked by a lot of people for my "racist, sexist, and misogynistic views", however I can mask these views very well when I see fit
>manipulate whoever I want with ease, yet no one ever says no to me despite my reputation
>lots of friends, no difficulty making friends, even if I secretly dislike or resent them
>past experience on the "wrong side of the law", mostly talked my way out of it (shoplifting, assault), however did 6 months probation for assault
>drink 5-6 days a week, use steroids

I don't get it. I'm at a loss.

Also, general personality disorder thread (I'm guessing I suffer from a few)

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Also, this is how I look, just for reference

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You 100% have a cluster B personality. I know you're going for sociopathy, but it sounds a lot like Borderline to me.

That's some dark triad shit senpai.

hyper normie

Yeah I thought antisocial or borderline mixed with narcissistic personality disorder. I'm genetically predisposed to borderline disorder, as my grandmother had BPD and schizophrenia and killed herself. My dad also has BPD and is an alcoholic.

I really dislike living and feeling this way.

Other symptoms:
>crazy mood swings
>feelings of vindictiveness and I hold grudges, crave revenge for stuff from years ago

I'm not a normie trust me. I present myself as one (until I let my disdain for blacks, homosexuals, or women slip into a conversation), but it's just camouflage. I do sadistic shit all the time, especially sexually. I hit women while I have sex with them and call them filthy cunts etc. When I was a kid (9-10 years old) I lived near a forest with lots of bike trails. I used to tie wire to two trees and sit quietly in the forest where I could observe the trail for hours. I would watch cyclists full off their bikes and I found it very fun, like I was a hunter or something. I also would hit and beat my mom's dog when I was home alone when bored. I don't really feel bad about it at all, I am just cognizant of the fact that it was abnormal behaviour.

What's dark triad?

I'm fairly sure I'm a schizoid but i dunno lol

>What's dark triad?
The dark triad is a subject in psychology that focuses on three personality traits: narcissism, Machiavellianism, and psychopathy
>Narcissism is characterized by grandiosity, pride, egotism, and a lack of empathy.
>Machiavellianism is characterized by manipulation and exploitation of others, a cynical disregard for morality, and a focus on self-interest and deception.
>Psychopathy is characterized by continuing antisocial behavior, impulsivity, selfishness, callousness, and remorselessness.

Schizoids usually fly under the radar due to their lack of interest in contact with others and thus don't view their behaviour as strange, no?

>lol guise listen to this story about how I'm Chad lol
>did I mention I'm Chad???
No one cares about your tumblr problems, OP.

Yeah that definitely sounds like it would fit me to a T. What are the implications for people who fit this dark triad?

Lol, yeah because being in a state where the only feelings you ever really feel are lust, rage, and elation due to praise from others sure is a blast... Furthermore can't relate with anyone aside from my best friend (only person I respect, he exhibits the same personality as me), and you have uncontrollable fits of violent rage that you can't control.

Sorry man, it isn't made out to be what you think it is.

enjoy your ban faggot
fuck off to normalfag

they do fly under the radar, as they rarely feel the need to get diagnosed or treatment. I am well aware that I'm strange, I just don't know if I give a shit though, I used to, but now I'm fairly content.

Yeah from what I've read they're pretty content with their inner world. What's it like? It sounds kind of serene to be untroubled by the outside reality.

Lots of sex and money

>Furnham [84] (2010) has identified that the dark triad is related to the acquisition of leadership positions and interpersonal influence. In a meta-analysis of dark triad and workplace outcomes, Jonason and colleagues (2012) found that each of the dark triad traits were related to manipulation in the workplace, but each via unique mechanisms. Specifically, Machiavellianism was related with the use of excessive charm in manipulation, narcissism was related with the use of physical appearance, and psychopathy was related with physical threats. The dark triad traits have also been found to be fairly well-represented in upper-level management and CEOs.

>Studies have suggested that on average, those who exhibit the dark triad of personality traits have an accelerated mating strategy, reporting more sex partners, more favorable attitudes towards casual sex,[90] lowered standards in their short-term mates,[91] a tendency to steal or poach mates from others,[92] more risk-taking in the form of substance abuse,[93] a tendency to prefer immediate but smaller amounts of money over delayed but larger amounts of money,[94] limited self-control and greater incidence of ADHD symptoms [95] and a pragmatic and game-playing love style.[96] These traits have been identified as part of a fast life strategy that appears to be enacted by an exploitative, opportunistic, and protean approach to life in general[97] and at work.

>Several academic studies have found evidence that people with dark triad personalities are judged as slightly better-looking than average on first sight.[103] Two studies have determined that this is because people with dark triad traits put more effort into their appearance, and the difference in attractiveness disappears when "dressed down" with bland clothing and without make up

Sounds like a sweet deal, especially since my goal is to become a doctor (although most people probably don't think I should be one).

consider rope because you're a faggot

The thought of suicide crosses my mind at least once a day

lol i dunno.
It's not completely serene as I still have to go outside sometimes, and I get nervous about it, I don't feel all that comfortable. The idea of having to be around people is a bit worrying, I don't really have anything to say, and I can see people's faces change when they realize I'm weird.
Best part of the day is just relaxing alone building my fantasy storylines.
The reason I'm not sure if I fit is because they're usually asexual, but I'm not. I used to be obsessed with sex and would jack off a lot, and I wanted a gf more than anything, but that has diminished in the past 5 years, Thinking about actually having sex with a real girl isn't that appealing anymore, I'd rather just jack off.
I do laugh at all the >tfwnogf people here now tho.

Based

Do you have a job?

>Very low self-esteem, constantly changes into very high self-esteem.
>Can't start any project because self-esteem drops very low when I am thinking, when doing something self-esteem goes very high, but because I must think what I doing, I can't choose anything
>no strong interests except finding a gf and just doing stuff for fun
>very secretive, but can sometimes talk about myself, when asked
>dislike almost everyone because I don't like something about their public image
>love a good fight
>unable to do anything I don't like for more than 5 minutes
>ok looking, intelligent and funny, but unable to get a girlfriend because I am only interested in having sex with them
>addicted to pornography since I was 11
>going constantly bingeposting on Jow Forums for 2 days, not doing anything else at all, feeling shitty afterwards
What am i?

Never, but I stayed in uni for as long as possible and am almost finished and will probably get a job then.

That's simple.
You are a faggot.

epic cherrypicking and avoiding all the parts where it states dark triad holders are much more likely to be hostile, more likely to break the law, and generally just be niggers and sick fucks like Jimmy Saville.
please do not go into any field where you must care for people. you are a fucking retard for even thinking of this in the first place. why the fuck would a psychopath WANT to do something where empathy is a basic requirement?

retarded Chad serial killer in the making just off yourself now and save the state the trouble.

Probably borderline.

Best of luck in future pursuits.

1. I'm not doing it for empathetic or compassionate reasons. I do not care at all. I fake empathy and compassion and will continue to do so when I become a doctor.
2. Lots of money.
3. Societal status.
4. I've always wanted to wear expensive clothes with a tailored lab coat and my name embroidered on it above the left front pocket.
5. I've always wanted to have Dr. in front of my name and have people address me as doctor.

enjoy dropping out of medical school or never getting in at all then. people that go into medicine for prestige or money don't make it. go be a dentist like all the other faggots that thought like you.

>I've always wanted to wear expensive clothes with a tailored lab coat and my name embroidered on it above the left front pocket.
based
>I've always wanted to have Dr. in front of my name and have people address me as doctor.
same desu

What makes you think I'll fail or get denied? I have a 4.0 GPA and volunteer a fair bit, in addition to working at a doctors office and running a couple clubs on campus. In my country, the med school grad rate is 98%, so once I get in I'm basically guaranteed to graduate.

I will be a doctor, and there is nothing you can do to stop it.

I've always found Dr's empathy to be quite fake and they just do it because they think they have to.
They see a million patients and they can't cry about all of them.
Just as long as they do their best to fix problems then they're fine.

>in my country
oh you're not american so it basically doesn't matter

kill yourself normalfag.

Precisely.

Based.

Just because I'm not a fat incel doesn't make me a normie.

you are a Chad psychopath and don't belong here the same way Ted Bundy wouldn't.

die

Why not?

We are both highly misunderstood by society, although for very different reasons I will admit. We are both excluded and don't fit in. We are more alike than you may wish to admit.

I think you are narcissistic. Like OP's, my father is also an alcoholic and extremely emotional person like my mother said, I thought myself that I might have BPD so you may be right.

the core of being a robot is being ostracized for reasons beyond your control. you voluntarily choose to ostracize yourself because durrr no one understands me and psychopathy! you're a faggot Chad and need to fuck off from this board. it's pathetic that you need to come here to humblebrag.

I - person you're replying to - am OP.

Also, what do you do that makes you think you have BPD?

My personality is no more within the bounds of my control than yours is. Stop being so angry at me for nothing.

your personality doesn't result in others consistently shunning you for no real reason. you self-ostracize because you hate everyone. you are not a robot or even a cyborg; you are a Chad faggot here to boast about being Chad to losers without suffering any consequences.

kill yourself slow and painfully.

Bad relationships and extremely dependant on mood changes and maybe because you said it yourself. No constant self-image and self destructive behaviour

Your post implies I care about consequences. I don't.

That's fair, I exhibit the same symptoms to a certain extent, however I'm not really dependent on others nor do I have an unstable self image.

>your personality doesn't result in others consistently shunning you for no real reason. you self-ostracize because you hate everyone
>kill yourself slow and painfully
m8 you sound unhinged, and it makes me think that you are ostracized for the way you act towards others. Calm down.

Well said, originalllllyydfhuyrfhj

then go talk about how great you are on faceberg or something. just get the fuck out of here. go lay on top of the elephant's foot in Chernobyl until your skin melts off.
sage
yeah i'm unhinged when Chads come here and shitpost about how much a loner they are and the faggot hotpockets are all asleep so he gets away with it for hours.

Oh no -- God forbid someone other than yourself wishes to anonymously describe his problems!!!

Because the only problems/pain in the world that are valid are your own, right?

You need to look at this from a different perspective.

bad case of psycho chaditis

Am I a goner?

What should I expect from here on out?

your problems aren't real you stupid faggot. you are a successful Chad whose only real issues are misanthropy, which everyone on this board already has, and psychopathy which is basically autism in how it affects your ability to empathize and there are many autists here.

you are preaching to a choir that is much, much worse off than you are. a starving niglet in Africa can't be fucked to care about a fat American child not getting a toy he wants. fuck off from this board and die.

So you concede I have misanthropy and a lack of empathy in common with the board; thus, you should have no issue with me posting here as I have two major themes of this board in common with other posters here.

The only difference is I have good genetics, I guess.

you coincidentally have two minor traits robots often have, but lack the major traits needed for comradery. every square is a rectangle but not all rectangles are squares. now fuck off.

I totally identify with that, apart of steroids... and honestlly? WE ARE FUCKED! WELCOME TO MENTAL HEALTH!!