I honestly don't know what to do anymore, in the beginning of the year I was such a good innocent girl that wanted to keep her virginity till marriage. I've been feeling lonely and empty inside for the last 3 years, I never really thought a lot about guys for a while and just focused on others things like school and drawing. But I started to think that it must be nice to have a boyfriend or someone that I love. I tried out dating normies, nice guys, Jow Forums faggots, incels even fucking chads and there isn't one guy that could keep me interested. So maybe the problem was that I didn't want to try out sexual things. So then I started to give bj let them go down on me ffs I even tried to lose my virginity but I just can't seem to get wet or enjoy it at all. Like it's an hassle and I just want it to get over quickly, I actually was relieved that he couldn't get his dick inside of me. I just don't know what my problem is, I look around and Every one is in love. But I can't seem to have that how hard I try. And I feel disgusting as well for the things I tried out but idk it just sucks to wake up and not feeling anything at all for almost your whole life. I always tried to satisfy others and don't know how to satisfy myself because of that and it makes me feel sick and dead. Like I'm watching a movie about someone who makes stupid choices. It doesn't feel like it's my own life anymore Idk what to do. I probs should go to /advise but idc I'll post it anyways so you guys can call me a thot roastie whatever.
I honestly don't know what to do anymore...
I bet you got molested as a little girl
You're just an undiagnosed autist, calm down.
I didn't, I did get abused by my mom though and she would always call me a prostitute slut etc for No reason. But on the other hand she's a good mom and I know that she loves me and I appreciate Everything that she has done for me so far. My dad on the other hand was never really a dad he seems more like "just a random guy who lives in our house" both of them were forced to marry so maybe that's also a reason why I can't seem to like guys because I didn't really have a good example of a healthy relationship.
I wish that was the case, I've been tested and I'm not autistic :(
lol your mom was just jealous of her own daughter's youth
Roasties are truly awful (you seem ok though OP, hang in there)
Thanks user I appreciate it, she probs is a bit jealous beacue she didn't get the same opportunities like I did when she was younger idk
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I'm not since girls are disgusting and worthless, I really dislike gays as well.
Haha if you're so sexually fucked up that you're triggered by guys sucking each other's dicks perhaps you should stop focusing on relationships to fix you and start looking at fixing yourself.
Seems like you're only dating someone for status and resources, ya slag.
find someone you love
>feels lonely and sad
>becomes whore to fill the void
women everyone
Why does not feeling any love mean you should become a whore? Are you this weak? I don't understand. Why would you ruin yourself so easily because of that? It doesn't even follow; not having successful relationships means you should start sucking dick? What?
>wanted to keep her virginity till marriage
>have sex anyway
Why the fuck would you do this
>imagine being a female so your problem is that you get to one day to just "not be lonely anymore" and automatically get all the attention you want just to realize you don't even want it/enjoy it
it's not even annoying, just retarded at this point, you don't belong here because no one can relate to your "problems" why not go to lolcow instead, literally, not even misusing the word here, a place for people like you?
how about maybe just find friends, you know, those things that provide the emotional support as well as just company and anything else that a partner does minus the sex?
or get therapy considering your emptiness inside which could be a symptom of so many things listing them here would be retarded
or maybe before that try filling the void with new hobbies or traveling or whatever else you can think of?
Well I thought the reason why I'm not really able to love someone is because I missed the physical aspect of it, It's called making love right So I thought I could At least try it out. But I was a retard for thinking like that desu.
The thing is that i do have friends i do have hobbies and stuff to do in my life. I still feel lonely it's more like I want "love" just like my friends love their partners. I want a deep connection with someone but it never works out, like I said above I thought it Maybe was because there wasn't touching involved in the beginning so I went and tried it out hoping it was the solution. But it's not, feeling lonely and longing for the right one is something that everyone does.
then i dunno t b h
i've been lonely all my life, no partner, no friends, no one that understand, but like, i never found a solution, i do drugs to fill the void, but it's hardly the advice you want to give someone
maybe go to a more "social" board, like lgbt and disguise and alter your question a bit to fit the general topic of the board but make the gist of it "how did you find someone with whom you clicked, what it took etc"
honestly your best bet is as i said lolcow, actual females many of which probably were/are in the same situation as you
>I want to save myself for marriage
>or not tee hee I'll give random dudes blowjobs
why are women such flakes?
Being lonely and depressed can really make you change
Well, I'm not about to rip into you about being a roastie because I think you already know you made a mistake. Just learn from that and know that being provocative isn't gonna make you happy. Stick to your guns and don't go around sucking dick because that's only going to make things worse for you. If you learn from this then maybe you aren't all bad.
Also it's bad to make excuses for yourself such as loneliness and depression, by doing those mental gymnastics you're distancing yourself more and more from the situation and making everything you do seem okay. Don't act on the spur of the moment just because you feel like it. You'll regret it like you're doing now. Feeling depressed isn't an excuse to throw yourself into degeneracy.
>400+ posts incoming
>40 beta cucks giving their discord
>all for some used goods who thinks giving blowjobs will fill her void
i just wished i died in my sleep.Fuck this shit website and i fucking hope every normalfag gets fucking cancer and dies.
That's just a bunch of bullshit. I've been "lonely and depressed" before, it just makes me lazy not abandon simple principles like "don't do X". In fact it makes it easier by virtue of the fact that you literally don't have to do anything to succeed.
>lonely
>dates chads and a million other man
what am i reading?Not only are you retarded you are also delusional.
And they weren't random they were guys I had relationships with but I couldn't love them in the end
>has friends
>has hobbies
>dates literally everyone she wants when she wants
>has sex
>"ooohhhh i wonder where should i go with my terrible problems"
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Thanks user and I sure did learn from it I won't touch or let anyone touch me again if I don't genuinely like them
>gets into a relationship
>doesn't actually love them
you are a sea of contradictions.I hope you go through some self introspection instead of making a fool out of yourself.
serial monogamy is pretty much the same thing as casual sex idiot
Once you started giving out blowjobs you've set the standard for any relationship. You can't realistically go back to "saving it for marriage" with the next guy as that basically shows you don't value him like previous partners to whom you handed out blowjobs willy nilly.
You guys act like I have been doing stuff like that with hundreds of guys I only had 4 boyfriend's longterm though and didn't get into short relationships. I actually tried really hard to give my best into loving them I just couldn't .
What made you unhappy about them? There had to have been something in the first place to get YOU interested in THEM, otherwise why date them at all?
I've known all of them for a long time I was friends with all of them at first since I'm a social person and like to hang out with all kinds of people. And sure I liked them, the way we spend time with Each other, the inside jokes etc. But I just didn't feel "love" that's why I thought I missed the physical aspect of a relationship but that wasn't the answer as well.
4 relationships is a lot and the fact that you don't think so really highlights how women live in a totally different world. nonetheless you can't really go back to the "saving it for marriage" meme when you've already taken plenty of loveless dick.
Well for a 25 year old 4 relationships aren't a lot desu it depends on whom you compare it with.
Do you have a libido or is sex and arousal just not a thing for you? My wife has hormone problems and was like that when not taking bc pills to help balance them.
>I became a whore because I was bored
Sad
Dont try i did and got nothing but bullshit
you're better off without it honestly
But there was an attraction right? Not just friendship. There has to be SOMETHING there, otherwise it was doomed from the start honestly.
There was attraction yeah, I wouldn't date them otherwise it just didn't work out.
4 relationships at 25? that's a pretty compact timeframe for a series "long term" relationship, it is a lot relatively for somebody who only engages in long term relationships
Like I'm fine with touching myself I never went inside though Maybe that's why I couldn't have sex idk but it just seems like a hassle when I tried doing stuff like that and I didn't enjoy them touching me etc so I usually just stopped in the middle and never did anything afterwards again.
Depends on what your definition of long term is mine is around 2 years since I'm the type of person who changes casual friends from time to time
"It just didn't work out" is the cop out explanation. Something went wrong somewhere along the line, and you have to face it to figure out why, and ultimately what's wrong with your love life.
You may still be a virgin but you aren't pure anymore. You failed yourself. I'm not mad at you, just disappointed.
My advice is that you should be patient until you meet someone you actively like. Don't force yourself into being someone you don't feel comfortable.
I know I'm disappointed as well, but I have learned my lesson and know that I shouldn't take this path.
What did the gays ever do to you
At 2 years it's a lot, it would mean you basically spent none of your adult life single and just hop from one relationship to another. That's red flag as fuck to any guy with a bit of sense.
You've already taken the path, you can't turn back and pretend to be pure now
I don't dislike gays who don't push their whole agenda and parade half naked while making out on the street while children are watching. That's the only problem that I've got with them it's also unnatural but hey who am I to tell others what they can and can't do and eventually disliking a whole group without looking at the individual I guess.
Not pretending to be pure but making better choices :) I won't deny my past but just learn from it
Not really I had a boyfriend at 15 for 1 year then again at 18 for 2 then I was single for a year and got into the 2 other relationships that I took a bit more physical.
You can spin it any way you want it's still quite a lot
Alright then but hey I'm just trying to find someone that I can love
too bad you fucked up your ability to pair bond lol
so? why are u telling everyone here this? what kinda advice do u expect i cant tell u how to fix ur life if i dont know who u r, tho even if i did i prolly couldnt still
>if u dont love urself u cant love nobody
>if u dont know urself then u nobody
This is the best advice so far though
>>wow i get all this attention but i'm literally a feelingless whore
fucking slut no one cares. Look how easily you just went out and got a BF and got sex.
meanwhile we can't even get a girl to look in our direction.
Idk why you American anons can't get any girls, here even the biggest losers have lots of girlfriends tf
>That's just a bunch of bullshit. I've been
Stop right there, people are different, and they react to certain things differently. It's nice to see you thing logically right now, but some people get really emotional and do make bad decisions because they are depressed and sad.
the fuck? I'm not even American and maybe only half of guys I know have girlfriends
No people make bad decisions because they are impulsive or stupid on top of being depressed and sad. This is "alcohol made me do it"-tier excuse making
Do you life in Asia or something because thats reallllyyyy different compared to here
no, western europe
Which county are you from, it's quite weird not being able to get a gf here?
What country are you from where they hand out free gfs?
The Nederlands, the lowest of the low even have ugly children together here
This. Jesus Christ. "I was feeling lonely so I just went out and found a guy :("
>land of lanklets
makes sense getting a gf is trivially easy
fuck off you piece of shit. unless you experience very little human contact and you never been in a relationship then you can say you are lonely.
because in America we have to compete against the fucking billion dollar welfare state and the government. women get all the provision from the state so things get very hard for the average guy.
Hurrdurr look at me , I can get a date with little to no effort
Fuck off roastie
Start using sex toys to pleasure your self. In time after experimentation your libido should increase. Make sure you experiment with porn as well. If you are taking any meds its very likely they are part of the problem.
But can you truly trust in yourself not to go into that path again now that you know you fell for it once? Can you stay strong and become worthy again?
It's not like I wanted or enjoyed doing stuff like it was more like I forced myself so it won't be a problem at all desu
You sound alienated
Do you have trouble connecting with other lovers, or do you feel that lovers can't connect with you?
Is it common for you to have deep emotional release such as celebrating or crying loudly?
Did you live in a religious household? Is that where you were taught about chastity?
Are you strictly heterosexual? Do you solely fantasize about men?
How did your mother talk about your father with you. In what tone?
>Wants to keep virginity until marriage
>Betrays own moral standards because Chad complains about his dick not being wet
No wonder you're not in love with anyone.
Have you tried to masturbate to 2d anime characters?
You should see a shrink, you've obviously got some unresolved mental illness.
ur just both stupid, and mentally ill
u still follow thread?
I think u might be demisexual