this is going to be a pretty typical response, but you really shouldn't compare yourself to people like that. it isn't easy, but just keep in mind that whatever he's doing doesn't have anything to do with what you're doing, and that spending even a second feeling jealous or inadequate because of him is a waste. i wish you luck in your own academic pursuits, friend.
i know the feeling of always wishing that you would just try harder, but never actually trying any harder. you want to, but at the same time, you don't. it's a tricky thing to even wrap your own head around sometimes. my hope is only as good as yours, but i still hope that you may find some way to pull through, friend.
you tried, friend. i hope things go well for you tomorrow.
gross. but you are welcome.
i feel pretty similarly sometimes. by even that small amount of creation though, you at least aren't letting yourself go entirely into decay. personally, i think that if you can keep that going, even if you were to die at 30 it wouldn't be all in vain. i suppose it depends on how much you care about that music.
if you are entirely sure of that and it isn't just some irrational fear, i wouldn't keep yourself around those people for much longer. there isn't much point in being around people that don't care about you. although if you really want to avoid being completely alone that badly, you could just stick with them until you find better company. but, you know, being alone isn't all that bad either. your choice, friend.
you're doing a good job at keeping yourself busy and not stagnating, which is very worth it if you plan on existing for somewhat of a long time in relative comfort. just keep at it, friend. good luck.
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