Hey Jow Forums, I've been suffering from depersonalization for a little under 2 years now.
A little bit of background about me:
>DP symptoms started around mid 2016 >not prescribed any medication >lift 5 days a week, but no cardio >diet is high protein, high carb, low fat >work in an indoor marijuana farm, but don't smoke
Everything just feels... off. Like I'm viewing myself from behind my eyeballs, like in pic related. My past, like things that happened just a year ago, feel incredibly distant and unreal. I've tried subjecting myself to pain and adrenaline but it hasn't helped.
Are there any of you out there who have had it and found a cure? I'm don't think it's going to go away on its own.
Heres your problem my man, I used to plant and cut marihuana, but didnt smoke also. Always feeled weird and DP/DR when cuttig weed. THC absorbs through skin and the air you breathe. Find another job , weed is a major cause of DP
Alexander Rivera
I'm going to start cardio today. What should my macros be instead?
Jason Morgan
I'm thinking this may be the problem as well. My coworkers don't seem to have this issue though. I haven't taken any time off since I started. I had panic attacks and spurts of DP but never chronic DP until I started working at the farm
Kayden Hall
More fat, less carbs
Caleb Ramirez
Do you know how long it took for symptoms to go away? I'd like to take a vacation to see if that's what's causing it.
Joseph Powell
eat high fat, high protein, low carbohydrates. it's a good idea to avoid vegetable oils like olive oil, corn oil, etc. instead use butter or coconut butter
start fasting. try to do 7 days without food (take a multivitamin and potassium pills etc.)
i feel like the most important thing though is to quit porn. not even masturbation, just quit porn and you will feel good again
Juan Moore
Carbs from grains and legumes are cancer
Don't play any video games
Connor Walker
Not the guy your talking to but it took me two months after quitting to start feeling real again. My tip is every hour to remind yourself that your here right now and this is not a dream. It helped for me hope you get better man
Ian Flores
Thanks man. I appreciate the input. I'm going to try all these things.
And thanks to everyone in this thread for the advice.
Jackson Barnes
I'm pretty lean as it is, won't fasting make me lose all my gains? Is the ratio you're recommending ketosis? I don't watch porn
Gavin Allen
I've had chronic DP for almost 10 years. I wish I had answers for you. I used to be a huge stoner until I had a HUGE panic attack on weed. Went to sleep, woke up and felt like I was high in my mode of perception, but without the euphoria. For the first year or two I was absolutely obsessed with how to get rid of it. I tried supplements, diets, physical/mental exercises to no avail. I thought my ability for happiness and basic enjoyment of things was over. Il tell you that getting my first girlfriend was the thing that took my mind off my altered perception and made me come to terms with the disorder. Just a thought, but natural and primal things make me feel more "real". I try to get into nature whenever possible. I've always been a very existential thinker and have struggled with nihilism which adds fuel to the brain fire. I don't know if it has gotten mild over the year or I am just better at living with it. Probably both.
Just know that what you are feeling is real, not normal and other people go through it with you every single day. I wish you well user. It has changed my life completely for better or worse.
Someone did 3 mild arson events in the dorm near mine the other day. My severe anxiety has me thinking about it non stop. Yes I know it's irrational but how do you Bros deal with this shit. I'm tired of being scared and anxious by menial wimpy shit.
Dominic Johnson
I spend most of my time infront of my computer. Even when I'm not gaming. But I need my computer for my university studies.
How do I keep my dumb ass from surfing the internet just to pass time?!
Henry Campbell
At one point in my life I felt myself tending towards that way, basically because of being unsatisfied with life and feeling like I was a bad person. Over time I've built myself up into a stronger person emotion wise and it has helped to bring order and contentment to my life.
Carson Diaz
Any tips on doing that?
Evan Ross
Get like an internet blocker or time tracker thing and limit your own use. Best way to do about it is set and inforce your own boundaries
Cameron Hughes
Exercise Socialize Organize
Accept that you will die and will not know the day or the hour.
honestly, sounds like you should look into antidepressants. it sounds like you lifestyle is pretty healthy so i doubt it could be due to your lifestyle. as skeptical as people are about antidepressants, a recent study shows that they actually do work. and it sounds like they might be what you need. again, you lifestyle seems healthy. it might be purely a chemical imbalance. you should give them a shot for a couple of weeks, they take time to kick in.
Ayden Nguyen
Do you have any hobbies OP? Maybe join a social sports league or another team activity. This will force you to work with other people on a regular basis to achieve a common goal.
What makes you happy? Does anything make you forget the existential dread for even a moment?
Jaxson Murphy
I got denationalization from weed + being in a very stressful situation. I also had impaired cognitive abilities. The first couple months saw a huge change but still felt off. I can say that it was gone after a year, although probably earlier, that's just the benchmark I used.
Funny enough, there were some perks to it. My reaction to emotional pain was basically nonexistent, so I could hit on every girl I came across and not give a shit about rejection. It was sit for forming relationships in general though. Now I experience anxiety again, because all of the problems of life feel all too real, but it's worth it.
Jayden Phillips
I started SSRIs last week (lexapro) and now my BO is really strong and smells different to before, anyone else get this?
Also I desire alcohol a lot less which is nice. Not that I was an alcoholic but now I can go out sober
Nolan Jackson
I feel you. It's like being in a limbo. For me, I would say what cause me that was loneliness. I was extrematly cocky and angry during my teenager years, conviced that I didn't needed anyone. Also self-boycott for everything you do, even being good at some things.
Besides that, I socialize, I'm not good, but I do socialize. My problem is that I do not feel comfortable anywhere, I don't belong. it's like floating away and no gravity in this universe can pin me down.
I have a good family, I love them. I have good friends, I love them too. I just can't conect myself, surrender and be one of them.
Thanks user, it's such a bizarre thing. Seems like weed is a factor in it. Hopefully we can find a solution some day. I'm going to try to consult with a DP professional, there are a few out there.
Zachary Reed
Schizoid personality disorder
Adam Smith
I am going to finally see a psychiatrist within the week. I am just nervous about the mental and emotional damage untreated issues has caused.
Henry Wood
>get diagnosed with Asperger's/ASD in 2014 >have depression as well >think all my social problems are due to these things >friends tell me otherwise >don't even believe my diagnosis is real >decide to forget about it >make friends easy >get complimented on speaking skills >have been able to pick up on subtle cues >become popular everywhere I go >summer job rehires me because they loved me so much and co-workers begged to have me back >tfw I made autism my bitch >tfw mental illness is a fucking meme nut up fags
William Hill
I used to be a fucking man back in my day
>Basically between ages of 18-23 I struggled so much and was always broke >Never thought I would make it but at age 25 I finally struck gold and it changed my life forever >The problems happened when i got tooo successful and started to have free time like i never imagined before >I started to realize what i was missing all along >I had money, i had a wonderful career and than the promotions wouldn't stop coming >I was promoted multiple times in the span of 3 years and than decided to move to another company which only sent my career sky rocketing to the fucking moon >Than i find myself where i am today >I used to be a good, strong, leader/man >Now im a rich slob/fatass who sites on his ass all day and has tons of money and knowledge in various fields and interests but depression has me bad these days >I'm fucked
I need to dig myself out of this hole and find a new journey to go on in my 30s
what actually happened when you're referring to striking gold? a new job or someth? im 23 and fucking struggling in life and ur story gave me some hope
Anybody else feeling like their life is slipping by them?
>19 >away for school but want to be at home >all of my friends are leaving in the fall >hate it at current school >/fat/tie >every day that passes me by is another day wasted >feel empty and like nobody will want me >pushed around by parents
Weed is known to do this to people. A friend of mine tried weed once, and he suffered from this for about a year. Then, one day, he woke up and was better again.
He has a brother that has schizophrenia. He's terrified of developing schizophrenia. People that are genetically at higher risk of pychosis can experience these effects from marijuana use. Stay away from weed if you have these issues.
Christopher Sanchez
>striking gold Moved to new state New job Promotions Six figures within short time span Living like a king
Developed depression while having tons of money. Don't fall for the same mistake I did
Social responsibility matters more tha your salary. I focused on business since I was tired or being broke and drinking with the lads every week. Look what happened.
I moved away to start a new life. They're will working manual labor jobs, married kids. Etc...
You're still young. Plenty of time to fetch that corner office..
Joseph Lopez
yeah i just have no idea what to do though lmao, i have literally 0 direction in life. just working a shitty retail job at the moment trying to decide if i should go back to university in the midyear to try again for the third time. considering seeing a professional that can help me figure out what i want to do and how to achieve it because i'm a bit of a hopeless cunt atm
Dominic Morales
Sorry for the late reply.
Turned my life around from basically failing uni to starting a company, taking lifting more seriously and just generally being more involved with new things and opening myself to new attitudes and interests, and basically just not wallowing so much. Not sure why I did this. But it definitely took root when I started working on beginning a company. For the first time in my life something big was happening and I was the driving force. But hey maybe I just got older.
Don't give up hope, I strongly believe that is the death of a man.
Asher Morgan
>It is extremely painful to live in my soul.
Alexander Gutierrez
This is almost exactly my story. Bought the most expensive property in my city and I have considered burning it down before
Jackson Torres
>Younger sister moves out with her boyfriend tomorrow >tfw I'm going to lose my main sources of socialization for people my own age >Genuinely going to miss the pair of them because they're basically my best friends
