i was on a 5 week cut doing great until my old faggot friend baited me with cocaine again
so it ended up like this:
>3000 calories in booze >falling in love with prostitutes in brothels as i always do >dick wont even get hard cause high >take a blue pill and nearly get a heart attack >am hard now but cant finish >take many benzos and ambien to come down >at this point im not human anymore >gamble away thousands of dollars >finally lay in bed with short breath focusing not to die but take another line not to come down and fap 6 times to sick fetish femdom videos >heart racing like im sprinting at this point >5 days hangover eating like shit >usual routine now completely rekt >do this exact retardeded shit like 4-5 times in the last few weeks.
i feel like death bros. i literally threw my phone away. no more social contacts until i become shredded which is my only goal in life at this point.
