How do you deal with your existence, Jow Forums?

I am smoking a lot of weed and listening to music. I have a feeling everything is falling apart again.

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Im not even sure what normal people feel like anymore, everyday i want to die regardless of what I do, I guess I hate myself the least when i get high and then use escapism like anime and vidya

Used to self medicate, now I just watch the time pass by or read a book in an attempt to become content with the station I have.

Nothing. I don't do anything. I just exist, painfully.

within the past week, I figured out how to connect my guitar to my computer and record while listening without lag

tfw want to get into reading but dont know what books are good, any reccomendations?

Ive not read a book since highschool but I dont struggle understanding big words

I have stripped all forms of escapism from my life. I used to cope existential dread by consuming media and playing videogames. I have come to realize that I won't escape the vortex of nihilism if I refuse to confront reality of my situation. I don't care if the tide washes me away. At least I tried to fight. I want some form of control and agency.

Please dont mistake my reading as taste. I recently enjoyed Waldo and Magic Inc, maybe you would as well.

Start by reading Kafka. The Metamorphosis is a good start.

I stopped caring about what other people think of me
I accepted the eventual end of everything
now I'm just trying to do something that is meaningful to myself (and hopefully future kids) and will not harm anyone directly but hopefully benefit people who deserve it

I have a feeling like I'm as high as the fucking SPACE SHUTTLE!! I'm completely out of control high!!! I'M OUT OF MY MIND!! My fucking MIND is just FUCKED right now! Listen to me! Blagahaggaggagaggagaga haha Jesus man Jesus...

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>everything is falling apart
How old are you?

I procrastinate on a essay I have to deliver on Tuesday

Same as you OP, plus stand-up comedy, which comes in periods when I get sick of music.

t. stoned and listening to ulver rn

> How do you deal with your existence, Jow Forums?

Living on the internet

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Consuming manga and anime
Watching sports competition on streams
Watching porn everyday and fapping
Playing a few shit games

There are no better alternatives other than suicide.

>How old are you?
Fuck off grampa
Just because youre a sad old sack of bones doesn't mean I can't have my life fucked up

>asking a community of shit posters and incels this
>there is a board on the same website literally devoted to books that has an extensive recommended reading list

Duuuuuude weed
Also you chose to live this way. Man up and face the consequences for your actions.

>Man up and face the consequences for your actions.
This sentence is just meaningless buzzwordry. I suspect it feels good to write it from such a high horse.

I spend most my time either in Video games or in my self made daydreams and world. So basically I distance myself from reality itself as much as possible.

It's actually just shitposting, similar sentiments with little semantic difference are being posted in many threads at the moment.

I like gardening. Its one of the only things that I like anymore. I like it because a plant wont judge you or be a bitch in general.

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