Jesus fucking christ, tomorrow are my 28th birthday and I just hope I will have courage to finally kill myself. I literally achieved nothing in past 14 years, I played vidya for 12 hours a day and I still suck at every imaginable game. I have never worked longer than two weeks. I have never kissed a girl. I didn't accomplish anything I dreamt of when I was a kid. I just cant take it anymore. I spend every single day shitposting on Jow Forums and watching some dumb videos on youtube. My every day begins and ends with me crying and wishing I could turn back time. I never realized how much I will miss 2000s, I just feel like world ended in 2012, seriously everything after that in my life was just so meaningless and soulless that it might as well not happen.
I rent my grandparents apartment for some shit money
Carter Flores
Don't beat yourself up over it OP.
I'm turning 28 later this year and almost all I did for the last six years was working and/or studying for uni without really having spare time to do something I like. I used to really love vidya and watching movies or anime but I haven't done any of that shit in years. I started lifting weights, which I absolutely hate to do, but I somehow convince my self to continue because it is supposed to improve my life. And in spite of doing all this, I have never kissed a girl. I didn't accomplish anything I dreamt of as a kid.
By no means I'm saying that I have it worse than you. What I want to tell you is, that you could have spent all those years trying and still be at the very same point now, so don't regret being somewhat lazy.
I'll wish you all the best bro. Either in this life, or if you want to end it, in what ever follows afterwards.
Kayden Baker
Same, every day i pray to finally kill myself
Dominic Morgan
Hold it until your 30th. Birthday, that's what I'm doing.
Sebastian Sanders
maybe just try to change your routine drastically, whatever it is, force yourself to do other things, maybe for two weeks, maybe for a month? you might be surprised at the new, fresh thoughts steming from within you. consider it a thought experiment, you have nothing to lose. and dont be that hard on yourself. im sure there is passion somewhere deep within you
Leo Edwards
if I don't find any reason worth living by the time I'm thirty I might an hero or conduct a shit load of bombings unabomber style.
Andrew Perez
Im too tired for that, new train station was opened near me last week, I will probably get drunk and jest lie on tracks tommorow
Josiah Ward
I could be an ass, but I sort of pity you user. Get a wagecuck job and go from there, I assume you still live with your parents so you can live somewhere until you afford your own place
For what it's worth I did all that normie career shit my parents and society peer pressured me into and I still want to die.
Accomplishments feel good for like a week or a month tops before you feel bad again. Not worth the months or even years of sleep deprivation, sweat, and tears of wagecuckery, even prestigious wagecuckery like sTeEm
Cameron Russell
How does OP support himself?
Lincoln Rodriguez
>I just want to close my eyes and wake up in 2003 fucking this
OP, Don't be a fucking ass. Get a job, seek help, don't just fucking lie over and die. Get in shape, get a job. If you still want to die, join the military, and go to Iraq or some shit. and at least help somebody before you go. I am not saying you have no reason to want to kill yourself, but at least try to get out of depression.
Nathan Thomas
>join the military, and go to Iraq or some shit. and at least help somebody before you go >joining military >helping Not sure if
Nolan Rogers
did you try being yourself brah?
Kevin Martinez
well its better than killing himself. if he survives atleast he will get some respect
