My face is riddled with blackheads and tiny whiteheads. The only places where they don't appear are the places covered with scars. My skin is irritated all over and I literally look like a monster in natural lighting. It doesn't help that I wasn't even very attractive prior to this. My pores are also gigantic, like the size of pencil tips. My cheeks look like oranges. I would literally cut off two of fingers to have clear skin. My pinkie finger and the one next to it on my left hand. I've shilled out hundreds of dollars over these past years for all sorts of "cures". I haven't eaten sugar in 9 months, I change my pillowcase regularly, and I rub honey on my face three times a day (current cure). I swear I drink at least a gallon of water daily. I got so desperate, I even tried using demonic magic. All of this stuff only reduced the acne slightly, and my skin is both abhorrently dry and oily at the same time from over processing. I don't know what to do anymore. I bought some antifreeze from Walmart and I'm thinking of ending it. Is there anything I can do? I feel so tired. I'm almost twenty years old. I'll never survive in the greater world in the state I'm in. I'm afraid. An adult can't live like this. I've lost everything, and it's been like this since age 13. I lost everything. My friends, my confidence, my ability to look people in the eye. My entire highschool life was pissed away, and I never got to experience anything. Now I'm being faced with the very real possibility that this may become the rest of my life. I can't even get within five feet of a person because my face looks actually horrific. My family members always scream at me to have more confidence and ask my why my only friends are losers, and why they've never seen the "girlfriend" I told them I have. It's because of thier shit genes. I swear, I would kill a fucking child if it would reverse what has happened to me. I've watched my own life fall apart in real time.
My face is riddled with blackheads and tiny whiteheads...
>tfw born ugly so forced to become smart to survive
>Became smart enough to become aware of my own ugliness on a metal scale and realize that I'm really not that smart
I guess this is what they meant when they said your worst enemy is yourself
Don't end it yet OP, you're being too shallow if you want to end it already just because you think you're unattractive. I'm going through the same shit you are in (skin problems and all) and I'm still contemplating whether or not to end it because what I did in the past is tormenting me.
Also, I recommend using aloe vera gel (I'm using the one from Nature Republic.) It's working fine for me.
The cosmic gag is when you catch yourself thinking "whatever, I'll just grow a beard or facial hair to hide the scarring" only to realize that the hair doesn't grow on pock marks.
You either shave and have to deal with the pock marks or grow out what little facial hair you have and look like you tried to glue shaved pubes to your face.
Well, I guess I try Vera gel then, but I'm not expecting much. I just don't want to die without trying everything first.
Please stop user. You're scaring me even more.
what's your daily hygiene routine?
well since ur already scarred its ugly forever so might as well go full wizard monk
>start getting acne at 12
>really, really fucking bad acne
>not enlarged pores and black/whiteheads dotting my face
>no, fucking tracts of deep as fuck cystic acne that resemble miniature mountain ranges, all over my cheeks, forehead, chine and upper neck
>had it through the latter half of middle school and all through highschool
>literally never looked in a mirror during highschool
>ever
>not hyperbole
>eventually get accutane after trying other remedies that didn't do shit
>after 2 years, acne is pretty much all gone
>still have scarring, but that's because my dumb ass would pick at the whiteheads during highschool
>scarring isn't even that bad, and is fucking nothing compared to actually having the acne
Get Accutane OP. Seriously, get fucking Accutane. If shit is as bad as you say it is then a dermatologist will definitely prescribe it. That stuff fucking works.
There's so much dark scaring under my lip that it looks like I have a Hitler moustache
I don't have a dermatologist, and don't you need a prescription for Accutane?
At least you're not like me. I'm actually an attractive looking guy and I've had girls tell me that but I none of that is going to matter because I'm killing myself in probably eight months or so, so yeah I blew my one chance at life. You haven't.
Hitler had his mustache above his lip. And yes, you do need a prescription for accutane. Get a dermatologist.
>Wake up at 6 am
>Drink three glasses of water
>Wash face with water and mild facial scrub
>Let face dry
>7 am
>Pop black heads
>Apply honey for half and hour
>Rinse off
>Face drys and cracks
>At 12:00, face gets kind of oily again so do the honey thing
>Drink four glasses of water
>4:00 pm face getting oily once again, but I just use the facial scrub and extremely small amount of lotion (face is really dry at this point, but I'm afraid the lotion could be causing break outs)
>Drink more water
>9:00 pm take a shower wash face with soap
>After shower apply honey for half an hour
>Drink four glasses of water and wake up every two hours for the rest of the night to pee
How does one get a dermatologist. I don't have very much money of my own, and my family is pretty stingy.
You need accutane bro. I'm on it now and it's great. It will boost your confidence and your skin will start healing fast. Go to a doctor
Oh yeah, I also change my pillowcase every two nights (I flip the pillow over after using one side)
haha fucking rekt op
yeah problem is the 'wash your face' thing is bullshit it clears the oil then your glands freak out which is the last thing you want. try going natural. shower infrequently too. early humans didn't do all this skin shit.
Earlier humans died at forty and lived in holes in the earth. Stop this cavemen did it and they were fine bullshit
Stop putting fucking honey on your face. Clean and clear sensitive skin cream cleanser. That's it. Neutigena stess toner + benzoyl peroxide. Then find a cream that doesn't piss your skin off, maybe Cera Ve. Stop fucking touching your face. Avoid hot water and anything that'll make it red. Read up on AHA and BHA for skin.
I've gone through this shit before and have more info, but first learn to be gentle and fuck that homeopathy shit and stop popping unless it's a whitehead or pimple literally about to burst. If it's cystic and all else fails, get accutane.
they lived to old age minus infant mortality and I didn't say cavemen. anyways that has nothing to do with the facts of skin care lol.
Could you afford a chemical peel? I'm hoping to get a VI peel for mine and I heard it works well.
tfw dermatillomania
i wish i was dead
kek. that's me
oreganoginal
Try a soap called Gojo. Small white tub available at stores where automotive techs shop. It does a great job cutting through oils and grease and it safe for skin. Get it without the pumice.