Tfw used to be a shining beacon of health

>tfw used to be a shining beacon of health
>tfw bench pressed 3 pl8s natty, diddly 4 (back was always weak point
>never missed a day of the gym
>one day get food poisoning, decide to go to gym anyways because discipline
>permanently fuck up back
>slip into deep dark depression, lifts stalling, then going down, unable to deadlift
>have to quit squats too
>cant sit down anymore, have to constantly stand or lie down
>cant focus on anything
>begin using food and alcohol as a crutch
>lose all my friends
>two years of binge eating and drunken hangovers later
>fat, disgusting piece of shit, stretch marks all over, haven't shaved in over a year, lost apartment and job, living off of ramen and junk food from my old rainy day fund

I've never been this close to considering suicide. I feel as if my life was stolen from me, stolen from me while I was young. I picture myself being 50 years older and still forever living with the pain of that day.

Please, help me Jow Forums. What can I do? I have nothing left...

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An hero

Hang in there champ

This is why I don’t do deadlifts. You’re a big tough cool guy until one day your back goes to snap city. Fuck that.

You had your good days. Some of us never had good days. Get over it.

Fuck brother, I don't know what to say other than bad fucking luck man that's a shit card you've been dealt. But know this, rn you're at rock bottom literally anything you do now is gonna take you up. And if you can make it from this you'll be a legit hero.

Try it my homie, otherwise your only other logical choice is to end it cos there's no point in continuing this shitty existence

Thanks I guess user.
I hope someday you will feel the pain I have and realize what suffering truly is you incel faggot.

>But know this, rn you're at rock bottom literally anything you do now is gonna take you up. And if you can make it from this you'll be a legit hero.
I just don't know what to do anymore user. I cant do any job that requires bending down and I can't sit for any extended period either. I always had hope that it would go away, I did stretches, acupuncture, surgery, everything in my power to help it, it's only made it worse.

I really don't know what I can do at this point. I go for walks but the pain spreads to the upper legs so I have to keep that low too. I feel like a broken toy. I really wish I could do something, but I don't know what. I'm broken. Mentally and physically at this point. Please, if there is something, ANYTHING to help me please. Please.

Who cares if you can’t deadlift you were at 4 plates you weren’t really going to accomplish much with it anyway

Stop feeling sorry for yourself and find some strengthening exercises and work from there finding stuff that doesn’t hurt my fucking gf has a slipped disc and scoliosis and just deadlifted lmao2plate like it was nothing

>Stop feeling sorry for yourself and find some strengthening exercises and work from there finding stuff that doesn’t hurt my fucking gf has a slipped disc and scoliosis and just deadlifted lmao2plate like it was nothing
Do you honestly not think I've tried this? Do you think someone like myself would fuck himself up to this point and try nothing to help it?

Okay no more being an asshole what Legitimately have you done for this problem? What exercises have you tried? Have you been to a chiro/ normal doc/ medical professional? Perhaps a Real professional physical therapist or a ortho doc

this, fucker. Try some yoga, plenty of WWE guys with permafucked backs are doing handstands and shit now after yogurt therapy

>Okay no more being an asshole what Legitimately have you done for this problem? What exercises have you tried? Have you been to a chiro/ normal doc/ medical professional? Perhaps a Real professional physical therapist or a ortho doc
Let me just answer all your questions at once by saying I've tried all of these and more. I'd go in depth but I'm posting from my phone because thats the only thing my car charger thingie charges.

I haven't been to a physical therapist but I've already declared bankruptcy from the hospital bills and can't afford one. I only have less than a thousand left, haven't counted in a while, really don't care either

I guess I'll have to try to find a job, tell them about my condition, no sitting, frequent breaks etc. and hope I get hired

I wont go on disability because of moral dillemas, not that those fucking matter anymore though, I just wont.

>Try some yoga, plenty of WWE guys with permafucked backs are doing handstands and shit now after yogurt therapy
I'll do some research on that. I hope it works. Although for someone who can't bend properly I fear what pain it will cause.

Kek sounds like you were riding the coattails of some good genetics and never disciplined/passionate enough in your training.

I got hit by a car last year and I've beem busting my ass with therapy because I can't wait to get back in the gym

Hey mate I strongly suggest going to a physio. I had a problem with my hip/groin that was the most fucking irriating injury was constantly inflammed fucked up my sleeping etc. Went to a few different doctors had multiple x rays, had ultrasounds none of those useless cunts could work out what it was. Went to a physio both my parents had used. Told the bloke what the problems were and he immediately knew what is was despite it being fairly rare. Gave me exercises to do and put me on a core strengthening exercise program that required me to get a gym membership and this what started me lifting. 4 years later haven't looked back. Don't both going to a doctor go to a physio.

Don't bother** going to a doctor, go to a physio

>I haven't been to a physical therapist
So you haven't done shit. Your fault your back's still fucked up.

Do you know how much physiotherapists cost? I don't have any money and can't hold a job very well. Pls respond.

It was the discipline that got me injured in the first place. Read the OP next time.

Never had problem like this (i am still a dyel) but i wish you luck user. I would jump on disability welfare to fuel the doctors until you heal up.

Ignore those fucktards. Its alright they'll be forever alone or lose the one women they ever manage to land.

If I were you I'd go somewhere else that isn't here. This place is full of retards and fucked up individuals who just want to point the finger and make you seem wrong or weak. In reality they're weak but you won't find a whole lot of sympathy here.

How bout starting a Jow Forums fundraiser for OPs physio?

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Benefits are there precisely for situations like yours mate - take them

How about no.
He sounds like a helpless retard.

This happened to me as well (not the food poisoning part) and I was never particularly strong but I loved squatting. I’ve always been a semi depressive person but squatting was like my outlet and I was good at it. But then I fucked my back up and my life went to hell. I fell into a deep depression, could barely get out of bed, pain down my leg constantly, lost all my friends, grades went to hell.

I wish I could say it got better but it never did. The worst is when your friends just kind of move on without you, most normies simply don’t understand depression at all. Oh well I guess. I also went through back surgery and all the spinal injections and physical therapy and it never got better, still hurts me to this day. What can you do though?

Where do you live user?

how do you even hurt your back doing back exercises? like just open your hands nigga

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>Where do you live user?
Burgerstan.

>What can you do though?
Don't talk like this. If it doesn't get better I know there's only one way out.

Damn bro I can really feel you, I've been there too, not so down through the downward spiral like you, but I know how it feels. I was a lanklet, always cared about strength before aesthetics, I fell for the powerlifting meme, shit was good and fun till I took my ride to snap city, now I got an herniated L5S1, and can barely squat, and constantly live with back pain. I know that at this point you probably tried everything, but I'll try to give my advice anyway. Try to loose weight, even if you won't be fit your back will be relieved of a lot of pressure and you'll feel better, then strenghten your core, do a lot of planks, or stuff like that if you can't bend. Obv you'll know it, but don't be too sedentary, and when the pain hits hard try to hang with your legs upside down from a bar, it decompresses your spine and you'll feel good for a little time. Anyway don't give up, we all make mistakes that fuck us up but even if we can't deny we have regrets, we must look forward and learn from what we've done, maybe you could pass this knowledge to others so they won't go through that shit. I know that when you think of the past depression kiks in hard, but you must focus on improving from where you are now, don't think too much of the past, you have already earned the goals you reached and no one can deny it, now set new goals

lol you fucking pussy, there are plenty of injured people who aren’t muh depressed stop being a bitch

become a monk and abandon your bodily desires

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food poisoning does not fuck up a back, letting your ego dictate your training despite being sick does
What medical problem does your back have exactly?

You did it to yourself, moron.

>get food poisoning, decide to go to gym anyways because discipline
Rule number one, if you are ill, even if its a light cold - you dont go to the gym,
you stay home and do light bw training\rest until you are healthy.

>slip into deep dark depression, lifts stalling, then going down, unable to deadlift
>have to quit squats too
So, instead of giving up lifting and doing physio, excercises for recovery you kept
fucking squating until you "had to give it up"? Slow clap for the retard.

>begin using food and alcohol as a crutch
>two years of binge eating and drunken hangovers later
You did it to yourself, pathetic slime, you just like wallowing in self-pity, i've been lifting
and wrestling for 15 years, and i know tonn of people who had back hernias and all sorts of back
problems, and they all healed them up by grinding through pain doing stretching, bridges and
super high rep hyperextensions and deadlifts with low weight. No one forced you to eat like a pig and drink.

YOU DID IT ALL TO YOURSELF. NO PITY FOR YOU, DUMB, SPINELESS MORON.

>You did it to yourself, moron.
>>get food poisoning, decide to go to gym anyways because discipline
>Rule number one, if you are ill, even if its a light cold - you dont go to the gym,
>you stay home and do light bw training\rest until you are healthy.
>>slip into deep dark depression, lifts stalling, then going down, unable to deadlift
>>have to quit squats too
>So, instead of giving up lifting and doing physio, excercises for recovery you kept
>fucking squating until you "had to give it up"? Slow clap for the retard.
>>begin using food and alcohol as a crutch
>>two years of binge eating and drunken hangovers later
>You did it to yourself, pathetic slime, you just like wallowing in self-pity, i've been lifting
>and wrestling for 15 years, and i know tonn of people who had back hernias and all sorts of back
>problems, and they all healed them up by grinding through pain doing stretching, bridges and
>super high rep hyperextensions and deadlifts with low weight. No one forced you to eat like a pig and drink.
>YOU DID IT ALL TO YOURSELF. NO PITY FOR YOU, DUMB, SPINELESS MORON.

I hope you get hurt as I did, and I hope you slip into the deep dark hopeless existence that follows. I hope you will forever have that voice in the back of your head that tells you it was all your fault, that you did this to yourself and deserve nothing.

I hope you then contemplate the pain and the constant suffering, and remember this post as you put that gun to your head.

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I'm not surprised you slipped into a deep depression after those chain of events and I don't think it's because you snapped your back up. Food poisoning can have an extremely detrimental effect on your gut flora - I can't tell you how many anecdotal recounts I've read of people travelling overseas and drinking contaminated water and suddenly developing chronic fatigue, depression, anxiety, and a litany of other physical and mental health symptoms. The science is in its infancy but more and more research is showing that the microbiomes of depressed and anxious people are dysbiotic (out of balance/have an overgrowth of undesirable bacteria). Shaping subject's gut flora with a specific diet and some supplementation to a more normal state improves mental health symptoms and sometimes puts people in remission. Personally, I used to be a perfectly normal and happy kid/young teenager before I took a shit ton of antibiotics for appendicitus, acne, and then bronchitis, which hurled me into a deep depression. I eventually got something called an FMT (fecal microbiota transplant) where they basically implant a donor's microbiome into my gut and within a few days my depression and anxiety (even social anxiety) lifted. Might be something you wanna check out OP. All the best, you will get through this.

There might be a bit of truth to that.

What can I eat to improve my gut microbes? How can I get rid of the bad ones? Help me out here.

It's become a massive fad recently but going gluten and dairy free is the very first thing you should do. Wheat has been genetically modified to contain a considerably greater amount of gluten over the last century. All seeds, grains, and cereals contain anti-nutrients that cause digestive upset for the animals that eat them, thus enhancing their chance at proliferation. It just so happens that wheat's anti-nutrient is gluten. Wheat is used in pretty much every processed food/bread known to man because of gluten's ability to hold things together. Gluten is made up of two proteins - the one that causes the most problems is gliadin because it encourages the release of a hormone that makes our more inflamed. When inflammation increases, your stomach's acidity decreases and your immune system plummets. For someone who lacks a robust microbiome this can be a DISASTER, leading to a state of chronic inflammation which is directly linked to depression. I won't get too much into dairy but it's a similar situation where your gut lacks the enzymes able to break down casein (the protein in milk). which causes chronic inflammation too.

Anyway, to improve your microbiome diversity you need to overhaul your diet. Out with the junk, in with the veggies. Things like legumes, pulses, avocado, cooked and cooled potatoes are awesome for your gut health. A general diet guideline is provided in the companion guide of Dr. Mark Hyman's book "The Ultramind Solution". Here's a link to it: drhyman.com/downloads/UltraMindCompanionGuide.pdf. Taking a multivitamin and making sure you're getting the required nutrients for your body to function optimally and deal with inflammation is also very important. Rotate that 2 week diet plan over a period of two months and you should feel much much better. The first week or two may be rough however as the pathogenic bad bacteria in your gut dies off. After that, your depression and anxiety should slowly lift. Stay strong.

Stop wallowing in self-pity and do something about it. If you can't afford a physiotherapist get into yoga and research what you yourself can do at home on your own. You made the choice to drink and binge, you have to help yourself go back. You had two choices back then and you chose the easy route out and now you're whining, so change it

Do something else.
Had a similar problem to you and thats how i overcame it.
>Basketball for 15 years
>Mega ankle sprain + crossed ligaments of knees destroyed
>never really recovered my level or athleticism
>go from starting 5 to bench warmer, sometimes driving 2hours to games and not playing at all
>coach eventually relegates me to second team
>i bench warm there too
>gain 15 kilos and depression is on full force
>start lifting
>fuck my shit up again because bad luck ( nigger pushed me when i was squatting 1RM, litterally)
>depression again
>do bodyweight stuff with a roman chair
>its all fine now
Just find something else, do the most of what you can do.

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Return to your blog and an hero, faggot

How much did you weigh when you were injured and how much do you weigh now?

Search for Stuart McGill stuff

Snapped my back, head not in the game with terrible form. Took over a year to deadlift heavy again, my advice is keep moving.

I got depressed as fuck but I worked in moving the back every way I could. Good mornings, rack pulls, bodyweight squats, long walks (inb4 wtf, long walks provided extreme pain relief for some reason), dead hangs, and a visit to a Chiro once a week (find one that specialises in sports injuries, many chiropractors are full of shit). Keep yourself motivated by progressing on movements you can still perform. I spent a great deal of time making progress on weighted chins and dips. I moved my bench from flat to incline as flat just wrecked my back.

It's been 1 and a half years since I herniated two discs in my back and I still now feel a nerve pinch, but I'm squatting for 180kg and deadlifting near 200kg. Nothing superhuman, but not bad considering I was a cripple.

As soon as you can squat and deadlift again do it, even if it's just the bar or with 10kg plates, best way to fix a broken back is to strengthen it.

You probably never had to work hard for your fitness in the first place if you let this crush you. Your first real test and you failed. It's up to you if you just lay there and rot away to nothing or get up, learn from it, and become better than ever.

>inb4 muh injuries

My wrist was ripped back to where my fingernails touched the top of my forearm near my elbow, spent 2 years rehabing it on my own before I could do normal pushups again. Half the disks in my spine are degenerating, bunch of other shit back there I can't pronounce. I'm dizzy and can't walk straight without special retard glasses due to a head injury that did permanent damage, etc. I not wasting any more time typing up all the other injuries I'm dealing with because I'm headed to the gym now to fix it.

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>also is probably bait, “won’t go on disability because muh morals but i’ll bitch and moan on fit” aka dyel larper trying to shit talk lifting heavy “y-you’ll hurt yourself!”

Muscle memory, faggot. Focus on healing your back and fixing your shit diet. Once you're able to get back in the gym you'll get all your gains back in a few months. I broke both my ankles in boot camp, couldn't exercise for a year, then recovered all my gains even while cutting.

Go back to your hole, incel.

This is why I don't squat/ deadlift lol

that's why i only surf, is all you need to get ripped

this is the path all must go down when they choose to deadlift squat and bench

Then you are lost

Bench is fine. Deadlift/squat is begging for ruined back.

bench obliterates your shoulders and not in the good way its a shit exercise for longevity

what's the best routine for longevity?

You's a bitch.

Gymnastics.

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Try inversion table or gravity boots.

Just get disability in the meantime you get your shit together. That’s what disability is fucking for, pride wont be good for you if you let yourself hit rock bottom you fuck.