How do I properly deal with this story from 2 years ago?

>be me
>meet hot chick
>she is super interested in me
>dunno why, but she is russian, qt and I connect with her well
>I invite her to some chilling nearby of a see
>am virgin
>she doesn`t know, however we have fun, it was a little cold
>tell her that it`s pretty cold, hinting that I might have to go
>she gives me her jacket and we share it a little bit
>she says user you can come over to my room, for some drinking to warm you up
>doubt.jpg
>agree anyway
>we sit on her bed and he invites me to drink more and more kek
>I genuinly felt like in a movie, because I saw so many "signals" of her, like touching her hair, playing with her nails etc. (don`t remember everything)
>She starts to cuddle me and to touch and kiss me
>wtfwejustmeteventhoughilikeyou.jpg
>she tries to use her tongue, I barely respnd because I feel bad
>she kisses and bites my ear etc. wants me to feel her hearth and shit
>her hand is moving lower down to my pants
>I reject her offer and try to move her hand away
>she is kinda sad
>it`s really late now, no busses, train etc.
>I sleep with her in her bed, however the regular sleeping, like you do when you`re alone
>wake up and leave
>we`re still in contact but she kinda was a little different, maybe she felt "rejected" I dunno
>after some time we break up
>ff 2 years still virgin and occasionally think of her, however decided to become Jow Forums so I will see where it leads

Honestly she was hot as fuck and maybe I should have "allowed" her invitation, she even said that she never does stuff like that and I must admit I really "felt" the connection and liked her
(I know it`s quite possible that she lied, but still)
So yeah, hopefully I will find a qt again soon and until then I have to work on myself

Any advice from someone who was in a similiar situation or advice in general? Should I just say fuck it next time and go for it anyway, or "wait" first?

Attached: slightly worried wojak.png (300x250, 13K)

I think that if you want to fuck, then simply fuck. I can tell you're actually a robot. I know you're thinking in a very logical way, and you're thinking of action vs reaction. Just try to input a little emotion and feel why you're doing things

what can I say
some people are too "shy" to let their inner beast loose.

Thank you. I just felt like her advances were inappropriate since we barely knew each other. Like yeah I could have lost my v card that day, but it just felt too early.

And do things because you want to do it. Dont play the "if you want to" game. You can ask what she wants to do just don't overdo it. A bit vulgar, but if you're with a woman, and she's tryna touch your dick. And you want to fuck, its okay to just get up and pick that ass up. Hit the god damn thing if you want. You seem to pick up on queues well enough. So just let roll next time. And btw, you cucked yourself there. Unless you just didn't want it

but your cock was rocking hard, wasn't it

Actually yeah. Honestly dring that time I did the nofap meme and started running and it really worked wonders on my appearance.

True and ty. In the moment I was overwhelmed and I had many doubts. Like before all of this happened, I actually wanted to look up how to properly kiss a girl and other shit, because I didn`t want to seem like the total virgin I was and then out of the blue this hot chick comes ans we get to know each other and I really like her and it all went so fast etc.

I was 19 at the time and thought that it was weird to be a virgin at that age and that a) I just barely got to know her and
b) that i would fuck everything up because I had no real previous experience

Ok. Since you're running you have stamina. The main concern in a virgin robot's mind near a woman is going limp. Being in the position where sex is attainable is considered by the robot mind as a high risk situation. Adrenalin kills erections. My advice:
Have a viagra pill in your wallet all times. The important thing about sex is stamina and, you know, being erect while going at it. Mostly, it'll give you the psychological safety needed since it's a medicine that works and you can't go limp while taking it no matter what.

Atleast it was good to see that I can get an erection in the presence of a women. Do you have some general advice for virgins? Ty man

Do you really think that that would happen to me at my age. Like my other friends didn`t say that during their first time they were going limp or something like that. Thx

Notice this thread senpais (inbf muted for unoriginal comment)

Getting an erection in the presence of a woman is easy. Not going limp when you're inside her and realizing vagoos aren't what everybody brags about with the constant thought of
>will I make her cum
is another story. specially if you deathgrip.

Thx lad. Is it just programmed that you will likely fuck up during the first time, or is there stuff you learned over the years that could help me?

Dunno about everybody but every friend I had admitted feeling their face burning at some point with women. usually drinking alcohol helps but at some point you gotta face it one way or another. it's not easy

Is "feeling their face burning" some slang for something? Sorry not catching your drift here

>Girl leads you through sex
>Still you do not do anything
You have serious and big chains going on in your psyche, man.
Work on that, seek help, else you will lead a life full of suffering.

Is it really that normal to fuck someone so fast? I just got to know her at that time!

>Gets handed sex on a platter
>Can't go through with it
Sex is wasted on you. Give it to me.

I met a British backpacker once; 4 hours later I was fucking her in the arse. Yes, it happens that fast.

it's an actual physical reaction of extremely shyness or extreme discomfort, it feels HOT and your face turns red. like when feeling embarrassed but you gotta cross the line. first time is the hardest.

Oh okay I wasn`t THAT uncomfortable. I truly think running and nofap and shit helped me. I think for me is just the weird thing to get with girls who are not virgins. Should I tell them or just be confident and the rest will follow from there?

Yeah and we clicked very well. I think another reason is that I`m a virgin and atleast wanted to have some background info, to not fuck up the first time and make it so obvious that I`m a virgin

In those situations you think with your balls.
Single? check
Crotch caress? check
Hard cock? check
follow from there

Alright ty. For me it isn`t even that I feel so uncomfortable/ or unworthy, just that I still have my v card and thus feel like it might be weird