I'm a 27 year old man who has come to terms with the fact that I'm probably, by most people's definitions, a pedophile. I'm attracted to girls as young as 12, and while I try to mainly date late teens/early 20s girls who are young looking, I still admit that I feel like adult women just aren't as attractive to me as very young girls. I have never abused a child or done any kind of act with a girl who was underaged. The worst I've done is collect CP years ago and I've deleted all of it and don't seek it anymore. Now I just try to use loli anime and games to avoid ever going back to that.
I've come to realize that I have a certain affection for my niece, she's 6 years old. I have 9 nieces and nephews in total, and although I'd never say it, I know that she's my favourite. Even when she was an infant, I was always very close with her and she was very fond of me too.
I have had thoughts of loving my niece and forming a relationship with her once she becomes older. And yet, this very same thought revolts me, as I know it's both incest and child abuse. I have wondered if I could ever legally marry her, even to the point of checking if marrying one's half-niece (my sister and I have different mothers) is allowed.
Has anyone else ever experienced these thoughts? How do you make them go away? I hate this aspect of myself deeply.
It's not your fault that you have these feelings. You have a real chemical disorder. You aren't a monster that most people instantly label you. You just have a problem, and like everyone else who has a problem, you need treatment.
Therapy, support, counseling, is what you need. You don't need to kill yourself or turn yourself in like most people are gonna say. You still deserve to live.
>as young as 12 So when they hit puberty? So hebephilia? So completely normal? Jeez user, you got us thinking you were an actual pedophile aka someone attracted to 5 year olds.
Jayden Perez
Not saying it's okay to fuck them but I'm pretty sure that everyone is attracted to pubescent girls subconsciously.
Oliver Cruz
>Not saying it's okay to fuck them Why not though
Ethan Reed
I feel ya, I don't care much for 3D girls but I do love loli. Fucking sucks that it's banned everywhere besides /b/ now.
30yo here. I can get turned on by adult women just fine, yet I find children attractive in a way that adults just aren't. It probably has to do with them being small, cute, naive/curious and in most cases full of life. I also like the way that children try to make sense of the world around them in often hilarious and bluntly direct ways. And that you can entertain them with simple things that they still genuinely appreciate.
I'm mostly sad that there's also a sexual attraction going on. I didn't ask for this. Part of me would love to be a father some day, but would that be anything but grossly irresponsible? It sucks.
Like you I've also watched (but luckily not collected) cp in the past. I'm not proud of it and now that I got my life on track somewhat, I wish I never did.
I too dislike this part of my being, but I try not to worry about it all the time and just interact with the kids I know in a normal way. It helps that I'm not exclusively attracted to children, but it still sucks and I wish there was a pill out there to make the attractions stop completely.
The thoughts will never go away. You'll just have to learn how to cope. I really wish it was easier to get professional help with this, even though the shame and guilt would feel overwhelming at first.
Thank god for 2d loli though. It's a good outlet.
Levi Gonzalez
There's still the loli board on 4+4 chan but sadly it moves way too slow. Yet /b/ is much too hectic and mostly attracts retards.
Owen Hill
>most men would rather fuck a 9 year old than a 50 year old good taste desu
Samuel Scott
Mind sharing any specific things that help you cope? For me it still feels like a nasty secret, and I have a tendency to deny myself happiness because of it.
Andrew Nelson
CP is really awful OP. a child has to be harmed to make it and downloading it perpetuates the cycle. it will never be okay. gratened you should have the ability to vent to someone. there should be professional therapists who can help (dont tell them about the child porn). just do some research it. i understand life has given you a shit situation but please understand how awful it would be to harm a kid. OP i really do wish you the best though, you seem really nice and remorseful.
Ryder Perez
>harmed Hurtcore is just as uncommon as in normal porn.
Luke Rodriguez
Don't listen to him OP, never ever tell a therapist or even a single soul about your feelings.
Dylan Clark
OP, where do you find these late teens/early 20s girls when you're 27? Asking for a friend
Sebastian Scott
This a therapist will report you.
Carter Johnson
What about anal with girls? Kids shit, so I assume it would more accessible than tearing up a vagina.
Aaron Ward
there are therapists who specialize in helping pedophiles. most of them are not in america though so if user is in the US they're fucked. admitting to watching CP is a crime so dont tell anyone that. if OP wants help on controlling and regulating his urges he should see a therapist. if he just wants to throw himself a pity party because he only feels bad about getting caught if he were to act on his urges then he lacks sympathy and therapy probably wont help.
Mason Flores
America is backwards like that. There are anonymous programs in Germany and The Netherlands for people with attractions to children who want to seek help.
Only being able to receive treatment after you've already spermed a kid or being v& is ridiculous.
Kids take tiny poops, so only gonna work if ur pencil dick
Lucas Hughes
it doesn't really matter if the kid was abused or enjoyed it. I worked with prisoners at this church thing for a while where we council ed ex cons and one thing that struck me was like 9/10 of them were sexually active before puberty, some rape and some consensual.
I have this theory that children who get molested by adults become distrustful and fearful of authority figures for the rest of their lives. that and I think a switch flips in their brains when they get molsted that makes them more angry and reckless in general. I think it's some kind of evolutionary survival mechanism.
>anti-pedos >Jow Forums right Uhm I have some bad info for you.
Parker Lewis
that's gay and retarded, stop trying to normalize subhuman criminals with boohoo sob stories, some(most) humans are just shit even in the best environments
Bentley Harris
I'm kinda pedo and those girls are ugly tbqh, please get a better example
Christopher Howard
>sex is bad, it makes little children stop believing the authority figures even if they enjoyed it, and it makes frogs gay
>I have this theory Meh. The more controversial yet plausible theory that is supported by some researches is that the way society reacts to the abused child, regardless of his/her personal feelings about it, plays a huge role in worsening the trauma. Or even creating trauma where there was none or very little.
Not all abuse is created equal.
Jonathan Reed
that's like the same libshit argument people make about gays and trannies I don't believe it. they'll still kill themselves and do drugs even if society accepts them.
Nolan Cook
Kek I know. But search for zhenya in Instagram if you find that girl attractive you are a pedo.
Christopher Hill
Who cares, user? Just make some OC with her and share it with us.
Brody Moore
In what world is being anti paedophile considered politically incorrect
Brody Brooks
>have pencil dick and am very insecure about it around adult women Guess I'm destined to plow 8 year old butts, then.
Not that I'm planning to do that, officer.
Eli Walker
Get necked pedo freak you should not be aloud to live you should be killed you subhuman
>The most demonised grop Yes and for a very good reason
Robert Richardson
1>2=3>5>4 Not sure on 6, bad angle.
Josiah Watson
>kid gets touched in no-no place >enjoys it for whatever reason >the ((horrible abuse)) gets found out >everyone goes apeshit and guilt-trips kid that something monstrously terrible has happened to it >kid forced into therapy >mentalillness.exe I can see this happening in cases where the abuse was non invasive and 'playful'. Though don't get me wrong, it's still not a right thing to do.
Jaxson Morris
She's ugly. She's in that disgusting 13yo+ phase where they get gangly and unproportional. Sad.
Brody Garcia
Isn't this what Richard Dawkins gets a lot of flak for. He got jacked off as a kid and says it wasn't that bad
It looks like you have not seen the pictures of her in a bikini and doing "that" look.
Luke Ward
10-16 is the absolute peak of female beauty in general.
Hudson Richardson
>as young as 12 You have no idea what a pedophile is.
Jace Scott
Cause they're not emotionally mature, and might not fully understand what are the consequences of sex.
Andrew Foster
What was the deal with that muhammed? Was he buttfucked as a kid and still anal about it? lmao
Evan Ross
Pregnancy? STDs? Stop treating sex like some magical thing.
Christian Adams
Richard was basically saying being a muslim is worse than being a pedo. The muhammed was buttflustered because he couldn't think of an actual counter argument.
Jaxon Torres
what the hell are you talking about? literally all movies, music and tv shows treat sex like a magical thing. because it is. it's practically the meaning of the life. why do you think everybody is on here whining about tfw nogf?
Jayden Rogers
I think you should try to avoid her and stop thinking and talking about her. At least try if you really want the thoughts to go away because you can get really obsessed with her. When fantasizing about your future with a toddler stop thinking about that train of thoughts and distract yourself with something else >but im suppressing my thoughts! i will become even more obsessed with my 6 year old niece! I need to watch loli porn because I need an outlet! that's not true people who make the suppressed ball underwater argument have not even tried the other side which is actively trying to stop thinking about obsessive thoughts and avoiding anything related to children. It becomes a real discipline problem in the mind and you should at least embrace the idea to have any progress in your issue.
Ryan Murphy
>movies are his measure for reality oh nonononono
Logan Morris
fiction is a measure for culture
Joshua Rogers
Pedophiles can never find love user. She'll just fucking grow up and then you'll be alone. Lmao
Parker Bell
Sorry for late reply dunno if you're here OP but some things that have helped me whenever I get urges I immediately stop what I'm doing and go take care of an errand id been putting off like grocery shopping or the bank or whatever, it dispels the horniness as I have to focus on driving and a task. If it's so strong that I absolutely have to masturbate I will immediately try to find something of one of my other fetishes to finish off as soon as possible, loli if I'm absolutely desperate. When I was younger I dabbled with CP and I'm not proud of it, been on the chan a long time, back when that stuff was fairly common on /b/. That stuff is like a drug for people with you and me, it gets addicting and is like a forbidden fruit sensation. Stay far the fuck away from it, get it out of your system as soon as possible. Just jerk off asap and poof like magic the urges are gone, for a while at least.
If you're desperate and think you might relapse, use one of those kiddie scripts that pretends you ddos'd a website but just makes you unable to connect to it without fucking with the registry or whatever it does, use that on the tor download site and don't keep it saved on your PC. Yeah you know how to undo it but in the heat of the moment and when you're that lustful the frustration of having to get around that when you need your fix might be a good enough deterrent to find some other shit to fap to and get it out of your system.
And if it gets so bad that you think you might do something irl, well, just try to remember who you want to be as a person. Are you going to let this define you or will you overcome it and prove to yourself you're not the monster society says you are. That's all on you mate.
Good luck bro
Nolan White
Nobody can find love by that logic. What does a "normal" guy do when his gf turns 40?
Ethan Ward
Jack off to porn of 18 year olds getting fucked. Try find me a man who doesn't when their wife is 40 and has well and truly hit the wall, I dare you.
Matthew Hernandez
>30 year old man falls in love with 5 year old >still possible to be sexually aroused by her 30 years later, even if she isn't prime cunny anymore >30 year old man falls in love with 30 year old >She's mouldy beef in under 10 years really makes me think
That's my point. The problem of women aging isn't exclusive to pedophiles
Noah Roberts
They suck it up because if they try to get a divorce the wife will take half his shit, probably more than half honestly.
Christian Phillips
In all fairness it's her shit too, they're supposed to be a single unit and if she'd gotten away with just leaching this entire time then he was a shitty husband to begin with
Nicholas Ramirez
This. All pedos and people who defend them make me sick. You should all kill yourselves.
Jonathan Brown
Woe betide any man that makes user feel sick!
Logan Allen
what a retarded post, outed yourself as a woman with that, i feel stupider just for reading it
Samuel Taylor
>I had a woman live in my house for 20 years and didn't extract any value out of her >this is everyone else's fault How manly
Bentley Adams
Surely not on . That seems like the board for a loli dump.
Michael Russell
Never mind, it's banned even on /trash/. And they let all kinds of bizarre furry inflation vore type shit on there.
Nathaniel Turner
lobotomy is the only answer op
Ian Stewart
Number 5 legend-tier
Liam Nguyen
Allowed* eorg
Xavier Butler
Yeah. And he even says he does not extrapolate and thinks similar experiences by others can be horrible, he just honestly says it didn't fuck him up personally. And yet they shit on him. I don't get it. Man has the ability to move on and not let it bother him and we're pissed he doesn't diddle kids and attempt suicide?
Zachary Cox
Berserk reference??
Landon Reyes
>I could go to jail in my country for downloading this
Almost everybody who has tried to get treatment for their pedophilia has been taken up to the police by their therapist, since they have the right to ignore doctor-patient confidentiality if they think their patient might commit a crime. Anybody who likes girls as young as 14 or 15 is labeled a psychopathic monster that only exists to rape little girls, even though alot pedos on the internet will tell you they'd kill themselves if they ever touched a child. The only solution is repressing it and just praying that repressing it doesn't make you into an actual predator. The other alternative is going to prison and getting beaten to death in 1 or 2 months because you're a pedophile.
You could always just kidnap a little girl. It seems like it would be ludicrously easy to do
Hunter Reyes
America is a sick perverted country and attraction to girls as young as 12 is normal if they look sexually mature. They have successfully tricked everyone into believing that teenage girls aren't the gold standard of beauty in females and it pisses me off to no end how much americans try to start shit because of it.
Just stay within legal limits but honestly the age of consent should be 14 and 16 at most.
Parker James
>. I'm attracted to girls as young as 12 this is not as bad as liking kids that are pre puberty. this 100%, dont tell a therapist man they will FUCK you over man. ummm im no pedo but ummm cute
Is that kind of attraction just a misplaced desire for fatherhood? Like... you're hitting the age where it's time to raise kids, but none of us will ever become fathers and it weighs on us. Maybe it's more like you want to be around little girls because you wish you could have daughters?
Lucas Davis
Pretty sure any reasonable psychologist knows that that's normal
Parker Garcia
>online psychiatrist >vpn, non unique browser blah blah talk to a pro man but stay seyf
Aaron Gray
Yeah isn't the first thing psychs are taught that everyone wants to fuck everything?
Juan Watson
Partially that, but we shouldn't forget there's always a biological drive to push the boundries of reproduction
