I missed another day of work today. I don't know how much more I can take of this day to day grind. I can't enjoy ANYTHING anymore, either. I drive 70 miles a day for a job I don't like or get any fulfillment from. I come home looking forward to nothing. I can't fucking do this anymore. I want to quit so bad! I have been doing this job for 2 years. I don't know how much longer I can do it. If this is what life is going to be for me then I need a way out. Either with drugs or killing myself. I just want to escape. I also feel extremely depressed and anxious as well as having IBS-like symptoms often. My doctor is useless.
I am 26 year old American and life has almost completely broken me down. Those of you who can be NEETs need to realize how fucking lucky you are. I miss being a kid so much it hurts. I wasn't prepared for this.
This is what life is like for most people. And yet the country is still somehow shocked every time someone snaps and goes on a killing spree.
Elijah Butler
I don't have any solution for you user. Just know I'm a fellow suffering human and I hope things get better for the both of us.
Gavin Rodriguez
But normies have outlets or things they can get fulfillment from. Because they're very simple minded simply going out to a bar after work or on the weekends with a coworker is enough to keep them going. If you're reclusive or adverse to doing alcohol or drugs then dead-end jobs can be soul crushing.
William Morris
It's not that they're simple minded user, things are far bleaker than that. They're properly chemically balanced so while you may see simple human activities as boring or unfulfilling a normal person sees a good time.
Tl;dr your neuroticism and depression is ruining your life
Matthew Miller
Driving more than 40 miles commute is proven to mentally fuck with you negatively (and suck a large % of your money down the drain) you are almost double that. You have to find a new job
Isaac Robinson
I can now completely understand how people snap and have breakdowns. Feeling the way I do I am surprised I haven't yet. I feel like something bad might happen soon. I couldn't hurt someone else, though. Just myself.
It's ok. I just needed to vent. I interviewed for a job within the same company I work for and now with me taking off I wouldn't be surprised if that negatively affects that. Hope things also get better for you both. Life really is pointless.
shit man, you just took the words out of my mouth. I was thinking the same thing. "Normies" can make connections with others irl much easier so they usually have healthier social bonds. Which makes going out somewhere and drinking with friends a great escape from the daily grind of a mind numbing job.
I literally don't have an outlet. I have nothing to look forward to and I don't know how to force myself to find something interesting. It used to be all about video games for me but I also had a best friend for about 13 years. He has now moved on and we don't see each other often. I just don't know what to do next.
Jordan Gutierrez
stop seeing your doc if he's useless or change doctors. set yourself a goal and save money for it. its gonna be like this for another 40 years unless you win the lottery and dont have to work anymore.
Charles Cox
Do you mean total or one way it fucks with you? Yeah one way is 35 miles, mostly highway. But I think it's taking a toll on my body... But if I were to bitch about it to coworkers who have similar drives or EVEN LONGER ones, I'd look like I am just bitching...
James Ortiz
That's really brutal, OP. I used to do a similar commute and it's hell. You either need to move or find a new job, that's pretty much your best short-term moves.
How are your savings holding up? Can you afford to quit and search for a new job, or are you living skint? One of the things that helped me with my job stress was to have extra cash socked away.
Jason Gutierrez
40 years hahahaha. No I think I will have a breakdown before then. Or lose my job from being absent and just kill myself. I doubt I could do that but if there was a kill yourself button and no one would be affected by my death I'd click that shit in a heartbeat.
Juan Rivera
When I first started I was able to save a lot. But I also didn't have a car payment and lived with family. Now I have so many bills saving is close to impossible. Had $6k in savings with even trying then moved out and spent a lot. THEN I turned 26 and lost my free health care from being on my parent's. So I now lose roughly $700 from my monthly pay or 4.27/hr so I can be on my companies health insurance. Since if you have your own Health care the company adds an extra 4.27 to your hourly. so instead of getting paid abou $18/hr I get paid $14/hr lol...
Isaiah Evans
>They're properly chemically balanced so while you may see simple human activities as boring or unfulfilling a normal person sees a good time.
Yeah, thats why suicides are up and deaths due to alcoholism and drug abuse are up.
Even with Trump, this country still sucks. The good jobs haven't arrived yet. The foreign hordes are still flowing in and destroying any sense of community.
Nicholas Flores
Most people lead unbearable lives just like that. If I was in their places, humanity would be driven to extinction by suicide.
Their lives are basically working, being bored, being annoyed with children, being annoyed with relatives and drinking alcohol. It's not even simply a matter that "ohh work takes too much time", because they don't really have anything to do when they're outside work.
I had realized this long ago. When I was 17 I was sent to a psych ward because the psychiatrist thought the risk of suicide was too high.
What pulled me out of that spiral was coming up with a plan to make life less shittier. And here I am now, 8 years later, the plan failed and I just wanted to die again. A few months ago I came up with my last resort, which should take until about the end of the year for me to find out if it works. If it doesn't, then I'm making my exit bag.
David Butler
I'd say find a new, cheaper place that's closer to your work, ditch your car and bike or walk to work. Have you seen this site before:
Look at the 21 step life makeover on the left side. Don't continue to go down the road you're going, I hope you can turn things around for yourself.
Jacob Martin
>IBS-like symptoms
97% of the time this is diet related. Cut out fast food, junk food, and soda and start eating lots of fiber and healthy foods. beans, lentils are super cheap and easy to make
Why don't you apply for another job? What job do you have now and what field is it? Where do u live?
Julian Allen
Good jobs will never arrive for most people. Automation is getting cheaper and cheaper, and robots don't bitch about their jobs or form unions. Any jobs that the robots don't take, the Chinese will do for $3/day.
Joshua Richardson
Dude if it pains you so much that you see no point in life anymore, then for the love of god quit your job and find a new one.
In case you have any money saved up: take a break from working and think seriously about what you want and what makes you happy. Then pursue that. If nothing makes you happy, then start thr challenge of thinkibg how you want your life to be. And then put everything to work to make that happen, also if this includes psychological hepp.
I have faith in you, user. I went through the same thing. You csn make it.
Asher Williams
i agree to this user, food plays a giant role in your emotional state, and general well-being. vegies, fruits and vitamins will make you feel atleast 50 % better
Grayson Cox
May I ask what your last resort plan is?
Jeremiah Ramirez
it's not so easy. I can't quit I live on my own. I doubt my grandpa would let me live with him... It'd be so stupid of me to quit as I doubt I could find a better job. Also, I have to be at work around 6AM or earlier LOL. So I am up at 4:45AM. Insomnia makes me get up even earlier most of the time. By the time evening hits I am exhausted.
Ethan Price
>I'm 26
I highly doubt that, Donald. At least you can nuke Iran if you really want to, so that's a thing you can look forward too. I voted for you so don't disappoint me.
Luis James
>tfw sitting in the lunchroom at work right now >trying to think of how to tell my boss I'm leaving My Grandma died last month and I think we're gonna lose the house. My stomach hurts and my hands won't stop shaking. Fuck I wish I was dead.
Bentley Wilson
Of course it is not easy. I appreciate the difficulty of your situation. Thing is, you gotta try something.... maybe you're lucky. You can't always anticipate everything in life, maybe you can land a job quite unexpectedly. Thing is to keep trying different things... and don't give up.
Owen Lee
again
At least try to focus on something that makes you happy... so you can pull yourself out. Because it is the only thing that is truly yours and personal for you. You need this.
