Old one's at 300

I spend about 45 minutes a night sobbing. Can't kill myself because I love my Mom and couldn't do it to her. I just wish I could have an accident and die.

eastern europe, I live in the Uk now, but I plan on moving to the Netherlands soon and I've got a couple of interviews lined up

Don't do it user, suicide is the coward's way out
>think of your parents
>think about your future gf who will be your wife
>think about your children
>think about the future
suicide doesn't guarantee a future

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I'm in a similar position man; what's your situation? is there any possible fix, however small?

Good luck, and if I were you, I would head back over there to find a wife, Western European women are kind of a mixed bag

>fasting
>discarding acidic drinks
>discarding so᠌y
>snek juice making me huge already
I feel like I took steroids. No work, but building muscle.

people don't want to work with weirdos, how have you not figured that out yet.
oh wait i know why...

>t. unproductive loudmouth
Jobs are meant for working, this isn't a fucking schoolyard you underaged faggot

How to into being a pilot

Just ended things with the girl I was seeing, and I know it was the right call, but now I'm back to square one. I have no real friends that don't just want to drink with me, no girl that doesn't just want to fuck and then leave, and I can't even focus on school or extracurriculars because it's summer.

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Unironically based and redpilled

>what's your situation?
My birth mother did meth while pregnant, I exhibit most signs of ASD and ADHD in addition to clinical anxiety. I'm either too stupid or too autistic to pursue a career anything I might care about. I have little self-control and have only managed weight loss through medication side-effects. My increasing paranoia and depression has resulted in less contact with the few friends I have and activities that I used to enjoy just end up making me angry. Too poor for any sort of therapy and anti-depressants make me unable to sleep more than 3 hours straight. Even weed just makes me sad these days.

>dropped a 45 lb plate on my foot, nothing broken but bruised to fuck and sore
>can't lift for the next few weeks
>probably going to lose all my gains
>starting a technical school, taking avionics
>weight loss seems to have plateau'd
>6 foot, constantly fluctuating in the 240s range, everytime i get down to the 230s some fucked up life shit happens and throws me off
>trapped in the house, restless as fuck
>nervous for technical school because ive been a hermit doing online stuff and people stress me out
>just want to lift again

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>25
>live at home
>doing an unpaid internship because i got a meme degree
>haven’t been laid in a year

Gosh everything is such cancer. I’m saving up to move out tho

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Aka a lazy snowflake. Got it.

I spent most of this year training for a one-day 205mi bike ride that I finished a couple weeks ago and it was such an unsatisfying empty moment. A meaningless journey to punctuate a purposeless existence.

A new hopefully better semester will start. The last one wasnt bad but nothing eventful and i dunno if thats good or bad. Beyond that i am maling beginner gains and feel better. Hopefully i find what i wanna do in life soon then do it.
But i cant shake the desire to go away and work on farms for meals and lodging forever. Or just living a life in the woods away from everything. On top of that i think i often romanticise any situation like that. Dunno mayne

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>user WANTS TO BE A PILOT!!!!
>go to a flight school
>get on a old Cessna 172
>learn maneuvers
>learn flight patterns
>do a solo
>40-50 hours later
>take oral exam
>go on a check ride
>pass
>user IS A PRIVATE PILOT!!!!
>instrument rating
>fly 250 hours which includes instrument rating
>take exam
>check ride
>user IS A COMMERCIAL PILOT!!!!!!
>take a CFI course
>user CAN BE A CERTIFIED FLIGHT INSTRUCTOR!!!!!
>teach people for years
>gain 1,500 hours
>take ATP written exam
>user IS A AIRLINE TRANSPORT PILOT!!!!
>work in regionals
>gain seniority
>move up to the majors
>user IS A PILOT NOW!!!!

and thats the fucking civilian route, don't forget your (((4-year degree))) too

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>lifts going up
>looking the best I ever have
>making literally no progress in my career
>need to go back to grad school but they've rejected me 3 times
>haven't had sex in 6 years despite having the opportunity
>value my independence so much that I will self-sabotage anything that remotely threatens it
Only reason I haven't taken all my money and fucked off traveling is because my folks are still alive

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Someone post transformations where the before had a really shitty body structure, I need hope

>no job on purpose
>meditate for fun
>paranoia keeps me sharp and focused learning illuminated truths
>disregard friends on purpose
>poor on purpose
this is my perfect life, you have it too, except you're a sadcunt and it makes you cry.
to be fair, I have gf.

>I told her that I don't feel like getting married, I want to do too many things with my life
>because browsing Jow Forums is a testament to how many epic things I'm going to do in my life, can't have some loyal gf hold me down
Nah you deserve that one faggot

Nothing broken, take one week off and come back stronger, just do some walking or exercise bike and stretch.

The last month has been rough. Parents moving while I'm getting dumped, myself moving and technically being homeless until the 17th because of student housing bullshit.

The breakup is over though, and I'm trying to move on. Got ghosted a few times but oh well, I'll find some girls to waste a few nights with.

Still doing bodyweight, but it's been about a year and some since I started losing. 100 pounds down, I'm doing push-ups and squats like crazy, I actually have muscle for once. My job keeps me busy and fed whole I figure out what I'm actually doing with UNI.

The future is vague, but so open right now. I'm feeling ok for the first time in a while.

Sounds to me like you need a hobby, and not the kind of hobby that you do alone something that makes you interact with people like a sport or even, dare I say, video games in order to have you gain new friends and people to connect with.

>stretch.
super effective muscle builders
even just flexing builds muscle
you can gain while meditating, bros

How do you guys gently reject a girl who really likes you? There's a girl in my social circle who is really desperate to get married but I'm just starting out on my career and won't be able to provide the life she wants (her friends all have rich husbands). She and I are the only single ones in the group and she feels like it's fate. Halp
>inb4 asking for advice on a Norwegian flatulence enthusiast messageboard

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Try to focus on the gym and setting yourself up well for your next semester. Its these times in life that make a man stronger.

Act like a thick-skulled brute until she gets the hint

Just be honest. Don't string her along. Tell the truth before you tangle yourself. She'll hurt for a bit, but you'll only be giving her the clear signal to move onto someone else who hopefully will make her happy.

She doesn't like you, she's trying to use you

Are you me? All I do now is remain bitter and lift. Maybe one day we'll make it where we want to go. I hope you do.

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based, thanks my man

>I told her that I don't feel like getting married, I want to do too many things with my life
You’re disappointed she dumped you because you literally told her you want to fuck other things? You aren’t too bright mate

Nice digits user

That's easy, if she brings the thing up just tell her you are not ready for a relationship because you want to work on your career first in order to be able to provide for your future family, If she keeps trying to convince you otherwise just tell her that you don't see relationships as a game and that you aren't ready for a long term one yet, this way she'll get the hint without getting upset or offended, But if shes the kind to hint at it and wait for you to do engage it then just don't do any advances and if possible try not to strike conversations with her at all.

checked

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>getting over ex gf
>getting over brothers death
>gym is pretty solid
>work is pretty solid
>frens doin alright
>got a raise recently
>investing well
>gotta pay off the car
>looking at shitty houses

What i'm most proud of though is that even though most the chicks ive been getting to know recently have a bf, the social anxiety I used to have around any woman is pretty much gone. Playing DnD every other weekend in highschool has its perks but man women skills are not one of them.

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Doing a lot better than a year ago.
>kicked my 2 year depression
>working at a meh hotel in the capital, 1 more year before I find a better position, working my way up the ladder to become a full-time bartender with my own establishment
>renting a place with good roomates, all of us pulling the others up
>chill nympho gf head over heels for me, unfortunately she's feminist and vegan, can't have it all
>small core of good friends, older experienced men in my dream profession
>family is proud and supportive

Still need to kick my cigarette and internet addiction.
Still need to up my networking and socializing skills.
Still need to do more than just cardio and calisthenics.

>got a dog which keeps the loneliness at bay
>pecs and triceps getting more size and definition
>started a data science course
>going to a pool party next weekend

Pretty good. I'm not big or lean enough to get mires, but I'm feeling better about myself.

Don't you have to pay rent?

Right now I feel like shit, it's winter here so maybe it has something to do but it's mainly because I'm a stupid. I get attached to girls way to fast and when they leave I just get all fucked up.
> Really like this girl at my uni
>A mutual friend present us
>Start talking about music and stuff, holy fugg she's grate
>Getting closer every day
>Texting 24/7
>Fast forward two months she accepted to being my girlfriend
>Some time later out of nowhere she break up
>She "isn't sure about our relationship"
>Fuckin destroyed started to do cocaine
>Holy fuck i don't feel shitty anymore
>Start getting fit again
>Fast forward to today
>Spend all day thinking about her,even dreamt about her yesterday
I don't want to feel this feelings anons, reaper just take already

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how do you not feel anger towards someone like this for betraying you? why do you still miss her?

I guess I'm alright at 23, things could be worse. I'm buying Accutane soon to help with my acne and I'm getting ready to go to Uni for for a nursing degree. I'm 6'4" and lean at 205lbs too which is nice. I've gotten over not having a gf for the most part and just working on getting my drivers license. Driving scares me a bit, but I think it's because I'm not 100% confident with it yet. Kinda wish I wasn't an anxious autismo too but whatever.

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driving is nice, gives you a lot of freedom of movement

I still miss her, I don't want to miss her my man but I can't help it.
Sometimes I'm doing something like reading or some shit amd suddenly get this intrusive thoughts about her, the thing is I loved her so much that when she left I couldn't mobe on I know there's something wrong with me. On the bright side I'm no doing that much cocaine now but at the begining it helped me to get out of this hole, I'm eating well and exercising tho

Joining the marines when I graduate college next May. My life is a waiting game.

don't ever let a woman into your head, you will only find unnecessary pain and sadness
>I know the feeling

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I'm seriously considering Air Force when I get my 4 year degree, the civilian route is getting too expensive for me

I know this bro, it's funny because I can remember exactly when a thought in my insides that "well I'm officially fucked".
It was the first time we kissed (I know it's cheesy but whatever).
I knew it from the start that this relationship wouldn't end well for me.

well then, you need to man up and forget about her, she is nothing more than a cunt

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Thanks man, I wanna become a pilot and this shit really helped

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It's a long tough road, but I plan on making it

Yeah I know this and I keep repeating this for myself but God damn sometimes I just can't control my thoughts but I'm trying my best every day, recently been texting to some girls and they mired my progress (send them my pictures kek)
So it's not all bad, thanks for the kind words user

>Norwegian flatulence enthusiast messageboard
As I read this I was pushing an ultra noisy one out, that made me laugh

>snek juice making me huge already
Requesting info on this.

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I'm pretty much a useless piece of shit who self-isolates, is currently a neet, and doesn't have the motivation to do anything besides shitpost online and I'm not even very good at that. I constantly get obsessions over some hobbies and then abandon them a week later and I don't have the discipline to learn anything that I am actually interested in doing to better my own life. Hell I was dieting and I lost 40 lbs leaving me only 20 from my goal only to gain 20 pounds back in 3 months because I just decided to give up for no real reason. I'm also a 23 year old loser, college dropout (who wants to go back) and a kissless virgin (this is my own fault). I'm not doing too hot doc.

You are going to make kid, I can tell that.
What are your sorrows my man?

life is hard user, but you can make it easier

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>finally feel I'm at point where I'm ready to pursue female companionship again after working through some stuff for a few years. >make a tinder
>get matches
>freeze up
>delete tinder
Decided I'm not a modern man and prefer the old fashioned way. Still an confidence boost I guess

>Don't you have to pay rent?
Lots of parents don’t make their kids pay

Basically and oral IV to couple with fasting youtu.be/1onQ0nxgWFM

You need to keep some realistic goals, especially some short terms goals because I can tell you have hard time keeping your motivation.
Just keep going user, don't take days off and soon enough you are going to enjoy working out and keeping your diet because you will notice your goals getting real every day, I'm rooting for you my man don't give up on me.
Pic related, stop being this guy

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Yeah, thanks for the kind words user

>What are your sorrows my man?
Yesterday marked two months since I started my new IT role

>begged for a project to prove I am worthy of being here
>server migration for an accounting company
>spent last 5 weeks on it dealing with all the shitty programs they have
>day of launch comes
>it fails hardcore
>head accountant wants me head
>three days on and I’m still fixing issues with it
>a lot of errors are user related but no one cares
>one woman saving her work into the fucking void and it’s gone
>literally no idea where it is and no one else can find it either
>months of work down the drain for her
No ones said anything, but man, I feel like I’ve fucked it big time. I don’t think this will get me fired, as I crashed a fucking car and got it written off at my last company because I was high before my probation was over and I didn’t get fired, but I feel like an amateur. I feel stupid. I tried my best, and clearly my best wasn’t anywhere near good enough.

Now I don’t know if I’ll get my title changed to sysadmin like I asked for, or any more projects..

I work a pest control job. Today at our meeting we were joking about the shitty ghetto apartment complexes we serve and the nasty shit we find. 1 of the techs brought up how recently he was at 1 that had him skip the center complex. When he asked why he was shown a room where a fire had just happened. What had apparently happened was that the former resident there was an old dude who lit a cigarette, fell asleep, and when he woke up his living room was on fire. He couldn't get out the door and went for the bathroom, fell at the tub, and burned to death. The tech said when he was shown the room he could still see bits of the guy's skin on the side of the tub.

I've been to enough of those apartments to know that the old fucks that live there are some of the saddest individuals you will ever meet often living off of cereal and peanut butter from whatever money they saved up with, at best, large TVs from the mid-90's. This guy probably lived like this for the last 10-20 years of his life in a shitty apartment center infested with roaches only to die a painful death and to be posted about on an anonymous image board. I would be under the impression he has no close friends or family and that will be his legacy... I don't even know if he could honestly say he was ok with where he was in life as so many of them seem like they just want someone, anyone to talk to. and seem like they're just completely gone mentally.

I don't want this to be me when I get older, user. IDK why but that shit got to me and has been the only thing on my mind. I'm scared and analyzing WTF I've been doing with my life and if 23 is too late to start over

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bad,
currently
Debating on doing strongmancorp nationals (expensive)
GF family is crazy and drama is dragging into our lives.
thinking about upping dose but worried about health
have a better job offer but i would need to move...

invest the money and maybe try to find a better job?

Why do murkan parents charge their own children rent

Are your women so corrupted that they're not even maternal anymore?

You have really shitty parents if they charge you rent

Holy fuck user, that sound like a total shit. You just to keep going forward and get better in your job, I know how you feel, flthe fear of fuck up your shit is my day to day, I'm studying at the dental school and I can tell you in my profession you have almost unlimited ways of fuck it all up so I know how you feel as well I know how you feel when you do fuck up, the only thing to do is accept your error and try to get better.
Hope everything goes well in your job my brother

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Autism

is it autistic to forget about a worthless woman who brings only pain and misery just thinking of her?

Idk what to do in life. I'm 24, have started and quit studying three times, traveled, and now I am a NEET again sleeping on my mom's couch. I am so worried about doing the wrong thing that I don't ever finish anything and as a result I am still an empty handed piece of human waste. I have no passion and therefore no clue what I should do in life. I need purpose but can't find it. I tried being a wagecuck and I detested it, even though the job was very good. I want greatness, but I'm miserable. I don't even think I want to be rich, because I think I will just end up like a junkie with all that money to spend. How can I find something worth living for?

This. I feel lucky that my family still manages to be tight knit and supportive in the US culture. I moved back with parents when my dad got sick and since he passed I'm still staying with mom for a while helping out. I'm in no rush and pity the ppl that pity me for still living with my parents.

Living with your parents is nice, but I still wish I made enough to support my own home and get my career in shape

Sadness about the ex. Worried that I'll never get to rawdog another 9/10 virgin let alone gf one. Dono how I did it the first time I was in supper skelly mode. Now I'm a social recluse that travels around the country solo.

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Here's some randy's advice for life:
>you're already on Jow Forums, so that's good (I used to go to Jow Forums a lot as inspo for what NOT to be like)
>binge watch Jordan Peterson, he talks about so much shit it's impossible not to be inspired by something (and wash your fucking penis)
>start dressing better
>if you habitually get drunk or high FUCKING QUIT
>noporn, I could give a shit if you fap
>sleep at night, be awake at day, simple shit
>go to a trade school (cheap, ubiquitous, useful) pick something that interests you and is always needed, become independent contractor, work when you want where you want
>find a version of you who isn't a piece of shit and aim for that everyday
>find a hero, helps with that last one

>that travels around the country solo.
Job? If so, wat do? If not, why travel?

I would suggest visiting another country bud

I do too but I value my family more and soon I will have saved enough for a down payment to make a mortgage affordable. My parents always had an eye for real estate and retired in a boom town with affordable homes and good growth thankfully. I'm 27 so by American standards I shouldn't be home but I feel I'm in a better position for it. When my mom needs me I'll be close at least.

You've inspired me.
I will miss you.
You're already making it breh. A God-tier woman is waiting for you, lifting yourself up from that to where you are now is the most alpha and based thing a man can do.

> (You)
>>that travels around the country solo.
>Job? If so, wat do? If not, why travel?
I travel to keep moving and subconsciously run from my problems. I make money as a [spoiler]youtuber[/spoiler]

Ive been to many. Germany, Spain, Iceland, Japan, England. Only ones left I'd like to go to is China, Russia, and more recently Poland.

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thats good man, I wouldn't recommend the China (PRC) but I would recommend going to Hong Kong and Taiwan (the real China, fuck off PRC shills)

Are there no spoiler tags on Jow Forums or am I retarded

I was leaning towards hk and shanghai. I lean towards the mainland because I used to know Chinese but only simplified hanzi

I heard that Shanghai isn't too bad, but Hong Kong is way better

I'm not bad looking, I have a good paying job, I have several friends, and yet I'm unable to meet a girl.
Sometimes I feel like my personality is just shitty and I'll never be able to have a relationship. I don't want to fuck as many girls as possible, I just want someone that likes me.

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I miss my younger siblings.

>if 23 is too late to start over
If so, I'm fucked. Started for the first time at 25.