Hey Jow Forums I'm a long time robot that recently fell into a hard existential crisis that took me to hell and I figured I'd post this here since this board is all about self improvement. 2 weeks ago I had an intense crises that forced me to not only question my existence but the existence of those around me causing me to fear death again instantly turning me from a young edgy robot to a frail old woman in minutes. I started opening up to my loved ones making myself completely vulnerable and started going outside more but I feel very emotionally weak in return. I can't stand to be alone to the point where taking showers or going to sleep scares me and every time I have an idea to do something with my life I instantly picture myself as an old man in my death bed or I just tell myself that I'm living a lie by "trying not to think about it". I recently joined a gym and plan to start hobbies and take some anti depressants to help me out for a while but I still find myself falling into the void every day for a few unbearable minutes. Any of you guys know how to make it easier? Obviously you can never truly escape fear of the void since its only human but I want to know if it gets easy in the future. I try to comfort myself by telling myself that even though will truly never know I'm in this ride no matter what I do and I can either make it a happy ride or a miserable ride and even if I did know the meaning of life I will only wonder more.
Accepting Death and the Void
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Maybe we are or look at this different. I have dealt with this kind of fears, and continue to deal with them, but instead of the kind of panic/anxiety that you describe I feel crushing despair.
I still believe it's relatable so to answer your questions it kinda gets better. Manageable at least. And the only thing that really makes it "easier" is being busy. Not just kinda busy, but really, really busy.
Like 120 hours a week of work kind of busy.
Anyway, I have to sleep right now but I hope everything gets better for you user. Even if nothing actually matters and the threat of death and non-existance lurks over us always at least right now you do exist. That's what matters.
We're all alone together, OP
thanks, I really appreciate this. Even though my mind is a bit broken at the moment I feel as if I've come to my senses in a way. I hope I can successfully control my emotions soon.
This being Jow Forums and not Jow Forums, take care of the body and the mind will follow:
> 8+ hours of sleep
> Eat fresh, clean foods; no processed garbage
> Workout - lift for physical gains, cardio for spiritual gains
Be proud of who you are, improve everyday, and realize every passing moment is a chance to turn it all around. Death will not frighten you if you live by these ideals. Don't worry OP, we're all going to make it.
It won't stop, you get accustomed to it and learn to live with it. I've been in your situation two years ago and even though my mind isn't racing for solution anymore, running in pointless loops, I still feel the pain through most of the day and it doesn't get better. As for hobbies. These are a must, the more fulfilling and useful the better. Making yourself and your environment into something you wanted it to be helps.
lmao by being such a pussy bitch about it you're going to die alone for sure. Do you think your friends and women want to hear all that sad cunt shit? lol I'm imagining OP old in the hospital all alone and even the nurses are ignoring his ass while he keeps trying to make some conversation to keep his mind off the fact he is in his last hours.
Read; Starring at The Sun, by Irvin Yalom
Easy to read, written by a psychologist, all about death anxiety, some ways to help overcome it, as well as providing some example from his work.
Recommend to any user contemplating the void and pointless of things
OP you're at least doing better than this user
Embrace the meaninglessness of existence, and being now free from the burden of some assumed cosmic destiny forge your own path.
how about you off yourself, delusional halfwit
Go to church
>wah wah wah I'm a gigantic vagina
Everybody dies.
If you lived a meaningful life then you have nothing to worry about.
Shame you sound like a whiny vagina waste of life incel
I agree with you 100% user
Why do retards always confuse nihilism with unselfaware hedonism?
>nihilist
>forge your own path.
Stop using that word.
I know this feel, especially the being afraid of showers and bedtime. I was having panic attacks all the time and what helped for me was playing a ton of minecraft because it helped me be more in the moment and not worrying about the future. Also, I had become an agoraphobe and was put in a situation where I had to drive 3 hours to go get my only friend who was homeless and in danger. That trip was fucking hell and I was panicking the whole time, but after I pushed through it I felt a lot better. After the trip my anxiety had subsided, but I had extreme depersonalization/derealization and everything still felt like dream, or like I was drunk all the time. That part just went away after a couple months. I should mention that what sprung this on was a near death experience where I was literally convinced that I was dead. Now I have no fear of death at all I haven't had that dreadful feeling you get when you think about your mortality and what it will be like after you die once and I've tried really hard to grasp that feeling. I didn't take jew pills and I didn't talk to anyone about it except that friend I mentioned and that was just briefly. The whole experience has prepared me for death more than anything and I'm greatfull for it. Seriously don't take antidepressants, though, it will go away on its own, humans have these phases and you just have to push through
Go to a dentist and fix your bite, it'll improve your face and you'll feel alright in social situations.
That's all it is.
I recently went through the same thing after an acid trip about a month ago, and for me it's gotten better. I still feel that sickening adrenaline rush sometimes but when I'm not I can find some peace. The first way is that I've gotten better at forgetting about it. I'll get moments when I'm caught up hanging out with friends and laughing, or drawn away into an intense proof (studying math at uni) and it takes it away from my mind for a while, so agree that finding things that captivate you will make your moments more enjoyable. The other thing I rationalized is that we only fear death because for natural selection reasons we have to, and if you can just grit your teeth through the bad moments the adrenaline will fade and you'll feel better afterwards. I find talking to my flatmates helpful when I'm most afraid as they again distract that survival instinct and bring me back to reality. Whatever's going on with life, it seems like the best thing we can do is maximize our enjoyment, and thinking about it only makes me enjoy it less so I try not to when I can. Hope it gives you some peace to know that it can get better.
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Death is the second part of existence
You are identifying with your body, your body dies and is mortal. Identify with your Soul, your Soul is immortal and is longing for God. My soul never dies, so what am I to fear :-)
It makes me feel a bit better to know you guys go through the same thing, even at the same time (bedtime and shower). I get that huge rush of adrenaline and often jump out of bed. Then very quickly it is over and I usually go on my phone to get over it. Gym has helped a lot and messaging my gf or browsing fb. I have had it since I was really young, would run out crying to my parents, strangely my brother and sister don't get it. Anyway hope you can get better user, I haven't found anything that works
dude just live your life, we all die. there's literally no escaping it so why spend your time worrying about it? no amount of worry, no amount of planning, no amount of preparation, etc will ever help you beat death. death is what makes life special, enjoy the time you have instead of worrying all the short time you have, about when that times going to end.
I'm not sure we are on the same page, this is what I think you mean, and what I fear:
what happens after earth dies. after all other life on other planets eventually dies. after we die. do we just... never come back? we probably don't come back, and... we most likely don't even know we're gone. we don't feel anything after death, right? does that feeling of "nothingness" just carry on forever, and we never ever come back?
fuck man, I'm a lifting othobro and I still have troubles like this.