Does anyone else have autistic mantras that you say under your breath whenever you think of embarrassing shit from the...

Does anyone else have autistic mantras that you say under your breath whenever you think of embarrassing shit from the past? Mine usually go something like one of these:
>I'M GONNA KILL MYSELF
>I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU
>I HATE YOU
>I HATE MYSELF
>DON'T BULLY ME
>FUCK FUCK FUCK
>SHUT UP FUCK
>STOP STOP STOP
etc

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>I'M GONNA KILL MYSELF
I say it under my breath daily. Not that I really would, but its like a reminder that I could. I have the power to put a stop to this misery but I don't

I just kind of do an audible high pitched cringe noise, literally like a
>"REEEEE"
>"HURRRRRNGH"
I also do this as soon as I'm alone after pretty much every single social interaction I have.

I do the stop stop stop one and try to block out the memory

similar but I'll do it rarely and it'll be louder

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Yes, although the memory itself gets blocked out. I just see a flash of something, then say something like "NO NO NO" under breath and then it goes away before I've any time to ruminate on it.

Only when I'm alone, and it's usually either "oh christ..." or just a long, low groan. Doesn't happen often enough for it to be a set thing, I try to keep myself too busy to think of shit like that. Not that I don't have my share of embarrassing moments.

More like say them every few minutes every day because everything in life reminds you of how disgusting you are
>I HATE MY LIFE
>I HATE MYSELF
>WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS
>JUST KILL ME ALREADY
>I DON'T WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE

i do all of this and more. here are some:
>see? see?
>fucking knew it
>that's what happens!

>I BET THE GLOW IN THE DARK KIKES DID THIS TO ME