How you holding up, Jow Forums?

How you holding up, Jow Forums?

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Been two years and I still miss her.

bretty good
lifts are progressing, nailed a job interview this morning and i'm getting a husky in the morning. hope he's a goodboye.

Girl from the same class kept staring at me at the gym earlier. Really bothered me because I'm not at the stage in the process where I'm good looking enough to talk to her yet.
Just the thought of it hurts.

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I'm an engineer
I developed depression after hitting 33 and than my life started going down hill
I have savings and think I can make it if I try again but DESU I may be losing my career right now and it's hanging my a thread

The depression ruined my life. There has to be ways to manage this. If you're going through this find help asap
I'm on the brink of losing everything after being in this field a long time. The thing is I still have the skills and knowledge so maybe I can find another job but I can't tell them yes I was so depressed at one point in my early thirties it cost me my job

Fuck
I'm losing everything

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every day

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every fucking day

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what kind of engineer? how was schooling like getting there?

My depression got worse after I hit college and found myself alone everyday because I had to commute. I still can't shake it off after 3 years, and it's nothing but a big clusterfuck for my mind every time I think about it. Every time I think about how I still haven't achieved anything and how I'm failing because of my horrible habits, it just drives me deeper and deeper into it. Offing myself looks more and more appealing every time it hits, but the only thing preventing me is the hope that I can get, and do, better so I don't have to give my parents the worst experience.

Been pretty low thanks for asking
I am banging chicks on the reg and have a really nice girl I am going to get serious with.
Making the most money I've ever made and am socially on fire.
But I'm still empty and just want to relapse on heroin IDK man IDK shits fucked breh

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I started my first fast today and was doing good all day
but i found out that poweraid ZERO might stop your fast so i ended up not even fasting today just not eating anything

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I feel this.
Sleeping around just makes me feel dirty, man. Love without sex is as hollow and ridiculous as sex without love.

>girl on dating sites answers getting shorter
>asked question I already answered
>"oh wow, very nice" responses
could be better, not gonna lie to you

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Things are starting to get better for me. I finally landed a job that will take me out of the house and it pays enough for me to be able to move out soon. The thing that I'm most concerned about is having good enough social skills so that I don't come off as an autist at work. I've been working from home for the past year and spent another year before that being a depressed neet so my social skills and ability to relate to other people are at an all time low. If I can stay at this job (software dev) for at least 6 months I know that I can bounce back into the rhythm of a normal life but I still can't help but think about the worst case scenarios of fucking it up.

Any advice would be appreciated

ss + gomad

yeet

I'm alright.

My sister in law's husband just left her with 4 kids. She's a qt3.14. I'm upset because as their uncle they've all become attached to me. I'm now the replacement "dad". Still missing my ex from forever ago. Still dealing with masturbating but I've gone almost 2 weeks on NoFap so I guess that's good.

Ask me anything.

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Just take it easy and don't overthink your statements/questions and remember alot of your peers are just as nervous socially as you are.
Within a few months you'll get accustomed to being social again grats on the job user good luck

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>got dumped by girl i was fucking for her ex
>but also lost my vcard to her and got a lot of positive body reinforcement

Feels good lads but how do i meet someone genuine? Sex was ok but i liked the emotional part more.

I don't know what I'm doing, I've lived my life so morally to the point of fault. I got so upset at myself for smoking weed one time that I threw up out of nerves and stayed up all night with anxiety. I have this guilt driven moral OCD that stems from nowhere. Both of my parents are the definition of hedonists, especially my Dad. Nobody taught me to act this way, yet here I am. I've never lied, cheated, bullied, or done anything I considered wrong. I physically fought kids who bullied my friends or family. I hate parties and wish I didn't because it's a great way to meet people, but I can't reconcile that level of "sin" (I'm not even religious I just view it this way) when I do go to parties I feel filthy and hate myself for it. I tried to fit in with my friends by partying (an on recommendation from a therapist) but nobody knew how much I hated it, after a few times I made a vow to never do it again.

Nobody acts like this, I feel like weirdo. I was raised without religion but feel compelled to live my life this way. The way I think has also given me a very bleak outlook on people. I'm angrier, I feel like they are fucked up and nobody is calling it out. So many people live like swine and that's just ok. It's more than ok, it's actually considered cool. Living without discipline, without morality, is looked up to. I work out everyday just to keep the depression away from me. I don't consider myself smarter or better than anyone, in fact I'm pretty stupid comparatively, but I just hate how nobody objects to this shit. When people ask why I am the way I am they are always shocked, but that just makes me hate them more. How I act should be common place, not some deviation from the norm.

I don't know what to do anymore, I have all of these feelings and no outlet for them. I also feel like a conceded douchebag writing this but who cares. I either need to get over this or find some way to use the way I feel to help people. Idk what to do.

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Rased and bedpilled
Not everyone is meant to party and be a hooligan user find a hobby like rock climbing or out doorsy stuff you sound like a good person, don't hate yourself for living clean embrace it because it feels normal for you.

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It happens user.
Dating has been real shit the past year. Lots of one-offs, couple of potentials that ended up going back to their exes after a week or two of talking, and using me as a rebound, and I'm to the point where sex is pretty easy to get, and I'm just tired of being lonely.

But the one thing I can say, is that I no longer miss her. That's because, user, I am bettering myself. Started working on obtaining skills to start a new career and get out of the one I'm in, got in the gym, finally saw a doc about my adult ADHD, and got a prescription for it, and while dating is relatively low on the priority list, I'm still doing it, hoping someone will finally *click*, one day, but not chasing anybody, like I used to. Part of that is because the women I date are progressively getting more attractive, and interesting, at a higher volume. Especially since I'm looking, feeling, and acting better. And I've gotten better at weeding out the ones I know in the back of my head I'd just be "settling" for.

Meanwhile, "she's" going fucking nowhere, still working a dead end job, dating a slovenly mess of a human being, and I can see in her eyes, every time we meet (I have kids), that she wishes she could take it all back. And my kids, especially my son, and I have never been closer, since I've gotten my shit together, and focused on what matters, instead of catering to her bullshit.

Got a date, Friday I'm excited for, and I'm going to dress well, and all, but I'm not stressing it. If it doesn't work out, oh well. Add it to the list. Meanwhile, I'm getting my shit together, and I know there will be others. Hang in there, user.

This might be my favorite pic ever and I’ve been coming here for years

Got a sweet job interview tomorrow AAAAAH BUT FUCK why have I still not broken up with my gf

Thanks, I've been considering rock/mountain climbing actually. I like to travel and it would give me a reason. I'm also debating my career path, I'm gonna be going computer stuff with my major and am starting to consider if medical or military might be a better option for me, however I lack the brain power and funds to become a doctor, and my eyesight is shit. I guess I will figure everything out eventually. Also that pic is hilarious.

I never served but I'm sure the service would give you alot of hands on training in the medical field if that's your interest. Plus guns are fun and you could waste tons of tax dollars blowing shit up once in a while

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You tell me
>friends dont want to see me anymore
>parents are getting old
>last night dreamed i had a qt gf (aixa groetzner)
>reading greek history makes me realise my life is a waste
>bench stalled

Some days are good, some days are bad. I'm just paddling along.

Pause studies, work some dumb job for 3-4 months, I did it in a freight terminal, save money, go travel, then continue your studies if you still want to. I believe that's better than finishing with bad grades now.

You should move in with your sister in law and replace be the replacement daddy. Temporarily, of course, until you get your own wife and family, but you can still be their daddy.

What doc did you watch?

It's tough. Getting back into my workout schedule and trying to stop missing beats.
However I'm having a relationship type crisis. I just don't know what I want out of the relationship. On one hand it's my first gf in years and years so I don't want to quit on it but sometimes I wish I was alone. She's nice and obsessed with me and wants to spend tons of time with me. I want to sit at home and fap and play videogames during my free time that's not spent on my physical hobbies.
On the other hand it's probably good that she keeps me from playing too much games, and she gets me out to do stuff and effectively practice being social, something I lacked for sure.
Also my porn/fetish tastes are dipping into degen territory once again because regular sex is nice and all but just not as exciting as certain fantasy aspects for me.

Man I'm tired. Not even sad or depressed but tired

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I don't, I can't honestly remember the last time I had a positive thought
The only time I'm "happy" its when I'm at the gym

It's been over a year together, and now I'm not sure if I LOVE love her anymore. Is there really such thing as a 11 month honeymoon phase?

>She's nice and obsessed with me and wants to spend tons of time with me. I want to sit at home and fap and play videogames during my free time that's not spent on my physical hobbies.
Iktf, honestly a lot of us probably do. That might just be a phase of any relationship I dunno. My tip, if you really like her, not just because "it's your first gf in a while", try no fap, and tell her you need your space once in a while (don't masturbate, just play vidya or whatever).
If you don't really want her, beak up, she doesn't deserve to be with someone that isn't in to her.

theres plenty of social awkards types in software dev, unless you are extremely autistic you wont stand out

Been trying to get to sleep earlier because I normally go to bed at 2 and sleeping will improve my gainz BUT
Last night I had the most terrifying nightmare of my life. I was literally getting tortured to death and could feel the pain in my sleep and now I’m terrified of going to bed tn. What do?

Elaborate. Most men dream of an 11-month honeymoon phase, that sounds like true love, but you're not sure if you love her anymore?

I havent fapped for twenty years, and started this week

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Could you go in-depth on the her going back to her ex thing?

my brain isn't working good and i just want to workout but I'm still dyel and the girl i'm fooling around with has a septate hymen which basically means no sex

i want to convince her to let me fuck her ass but she's a nice christian girl

I've been there user. You just have to decide what you want before the opportunity goes away. Trust me, just force yourself to get out there and enjoy your time with her. I made the mistake off putting it off and taking too long to decide and I lost her.

made acc on tinder yesterday and got zero matches for 1 and a half days straight, felt so bad I just uninstalled the shit and now I feel much worse than before I made the account.

also my chest isn't growing as fast as I want.

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Asher holding it in for fourteen years, I have finally turned to the VA for treatment of my PTSD, survivor's guilt, and depression. I have to wait until the end of the month before i can see someone. The wait is driving me crazy and making it worse. I feel myself slipping every day.

Overall good. I'm travelling Korea by myself. It's mostly great, but sometimes a bit lonely.

I met a qt 3.14 Korean girl who I was dead keen on, was hoping to see her again tonight. We were flirting a lot and I figured I would see the deal. She can't make it so I'll spend the night alone (I'm in a small city).

I'm pretty disappointed, but I'm in a new city tomorrow.

Lol my ex was a nice Christian girl too. Still let me do anal. Only problem was that she was insecure about if she was dirty or not. Once she got passed that it was smooth sailing. All you gotta do is talk to her bro.

I'm fine I guess. I'm feeling slight apathy towards the idea of bothering with women, but I don't wanna give up. It just feels pointless now. I don't know man. I try to be optimistic but the negative thoughts intrude more and more.

This isn't a good mindset imo, user. I know it's a meme but
>just b urself
and you'll be fine, even if you haven't reached your personal goals yet. "not good looking enough" is a very subjective term, just remember that

based

I’ve been there mang. I’m a pretty introverted guy. The “wishing to be by yourself” thing is a phase speaking from experience. Stick by her side. That feeling will blow over. If you do feel like breaking up do it soon. I fugged up and actually ignored my ex (wasn’t the reason we broke up but it put a damper on the relationship).

>were dating
>she gets call from her loser ex
>dumps me and goes back to him

The really shitty part was it seemed so genuine. She really liked me, complimented me a lot, was always talking shit about him and saying I was 10x better in this way or that. We were talking very serious stuff. She kept saying how she was falling for me and how she really cared for me. I was very hesitant to return it as I was afraid of a few red flags and previous experience had left me hurt.

It just caught me so far off guard when it happened. One day we're making out and kissing each other goodnight before we spoon in bed, and the next day I'm being shown the door and the look on her face says "You're a fucking creep and a loser." It was such a complete whiplash of emotion.

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i was in this thread when the original copypasta was posted. the reactions were fucking hilarious, it was amazing how many people thought it was serious and took the bait
>the ultimate and final cuck

She's gotten a new job in the past three or so months and has never done well with stress. She's a person that has had a lot of childhood fuck ups as well and constantly has this idea in her head that I'm judging her, and sometimes will outburst at me when she's feeling overwhelmed with everything else.

We haven't moved in together and that bothers her. I'm just not ready yet and rent is cheap with the people I live with right now. From what I've collected about her, she's the type of person that feels like if there's any halt in the progress in a relationship, that something is terribly wrong. She then feels at fault, and gets frustrated with the situation. She admits she can act like a bitch when she gets like this. She's more insecure than she likes to admit. Which to me, is a healthy amount of insecure, but doesn't handle it well.

I feel like it's just been enough hiccups (Have never had a fight or full blown argument) that have ground away at me and now while I'm not interested in anyone else, I'm entertaining the idea of a new relationship. No one specific, just the IDEA of someone else.

that would be absolutely fantastic user. she's just so shy about sex stuff. i feel like i don't deserve it though.

pls pray to ripped jesus for me

If she's staring at you it means you're good enough.

Advance.

What the fuck. Was she texting him during y’all’s relationship? Any red flags you might have caught or slipped by?

Nothing you can do, amigo. She clearly wasn't fully over him. Women can mask that shit pretty well. How long had they dated before you guys?

she probably believed it too, bro. it's not your fault though, stay strong user. I've been there too, the world (and women in particular) rarely works in ways that make any sense.

I'm a different user

But thanks, I needed this after my seven year relationship falling apart.

As far as her idea of your judgment goes, do little things man. It's okay to feel a little bit of pressure being with someone, especially if you truly love them, but it doesn't necessarily means it's there. She just doesn't want to let you down. Get her flowers randomly, cook her favorite meal, touch her, smile at her, look at her like you love her. Just make her feel comfortable bro.

It's easy to romanticize the idea of someone else at this point in a relationship, honestly pretty normal to feel that way. I mean, y'all have been for almost a year - maybe she's more worried about things getting stale than she lets herself on to think.

My advice to you is, stick with it. Tell her the same things you've told me. Commitment can be a scary thing, user. Give her a little patience and continue to be an awesome boyfriend.

Same guy from the first response. Was it just one phone call that made her leave back to her ex? So sorry brotato chip.

I don't think so. He dumped her pretty hard. She even was 'nice enough' to tell me when he called her and came crawling back, like that was my sign to stop bothering.

Two years. One of the red flags I was afraid of. I know it can take a long time for people to get over their exes and I was scared that if we started dating I'd just be a rebound. Got over that fear and decided to commit the night before it all came crashing down.

No. I only knew of one call but a mutual friend said 'she'd been getting a lot of calls from him recently.' He's been my friend for nearly a decade though so he was nice enough to cue me in. I'm pretty sure it was over the second she got that call and I just didn't know it.

>night before

Damn, that's a rough one man. Keep you head up, you'll bounce back from this and find someone truly freed form their past relationships that will be worth your time.

How long were you guys together? And how long were they apart before you guys started ‘dating’?

>close yourself up to protect you from pain
>scared of opening up
>open up because you trust someone
>immediately hurt

I know that feel bro

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Also how old are you guys? Sorry for asking this many questions, I’m just scared this stuff might happen.

Just a month, and they were apart for a week before she met me. And I was 22 but she was 19.

Yeah it really was something I needed in hindsight. It gave me a lot of perspective about what kind of goods I am and how to flaunt myself to other potential partners, on top of dating experience, bedroom experience, flirting, ect. I was pretty much incel tier before but girls never cold approached me so I had no idea how to do anything.

Fasting = Not eating anything for a set amount of time, usually skipping two meals and having one meal a day. Drinking is allowed.

Dry Fast = Above but drinking is not allowed.

You're good man

Better. Roommates is still an amoral piece of shit but grades are doing better. Also finally settling on a major.

Your sister in laws husband? So your brother?

are you sure
everyone i keep getting mixed answers because power aid Zero has sweeteners in it so it causes insulin spikes ending the fast
if so that's wonderful news because im doing a 3 day no eating fast and the power aid zero curbs my hunger pains

How do I focus on myself, quell the negative and distorted thoughts and succeed in my life when it turns out my mind/myself is my biggest enemy to progress? Have to learn to love what I've grown to hate- Me

Oh no

Not good. I thought I would kick ass in college, but I'm not. I just feel like college isn't for me. I've been in and out of school for years now and I'm still kinda lost in life. I only have a few more classes left to graduate, but I feel like once I'm done, I won't be able to find a good job. My degree is shit (business admin). My gpa is shit and since I've only worked in shitty minimum wage jobs, I don't have any real work exp. My resume is a fucking joke. I've improved it a little bit because people from Jow Forums told me what to write, but its not really gonna "wow" someone.
I'm also getting more and more lonely. I'm 30 and I just feel like I will never find a girl that loves me. I'm fucking ugly, not very mentally fit and I'm also very lost in life, so thats gonna scare them away.


All I want is to find a job I enjoy doing and also find a girl that will love me. I've been catching feels for young thots lately. I'm trying my best not to go for them though because I know they're not gf material.

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Got a new job but don't really want it. Its better pay but more of a desk job. It'll give me more free time which is more important than the job itself.

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Shes a crazy bitch. Don't trip on her, man. She and her retard ex deserve each other.

You should go back to recovery.

i have really bad gyno and dont have the money for surgery. i'm 24. it won't go away will it?

please don‘t breh. you‘re doing so well! did you think about going to a psychotherapist?

Dude you can still go out without doing drugs/drinking. Maybe check out Rsd. The guy leading the company (his name is Owen has a few great videos on this. He is a very outgoing social guy without any kind of drug even though he is literally autistic.

>VA
>survivors guilt
>depression

>these fucking implications

hold on user, you gotta hold on

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>ex went past the street where I always smoke at work
>even looked at me (clearly intentional)
>it just has been one week since breakup
>hurt a little, but overall I feel made up hate for her
>will probably stop smoking to minimize these encounters and to feel above her (she smokes too)
Gotta get the best out of it I guess

I would definitely take in my sister or best friends kids, but sister in law? No

>sister in law's husband

your brothers wife?

what

why does everybody stop talking to me
why cant i get closer to anybody

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>start cut
>immune system immediately decides "fuck this"
>respiratory infection
>can't breathe or sleep for days
>haven't lifted in a week
>get back to work and feels like i've been relegated to the shit-heap
>feel vague anger towards a blurry and distorted version of reality
>stared at mirror and saw only a hateful wax mask of a stranger
Not great

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I'm 33 and feel like I'm headed for a complete mental breakdown. I should have a wife and kids by now but instead I'm more of a basketcase than ever. I don't enjoy escapist bullshit like I used to (video games, tv, movies, sports) and yet I can't connect with anyone if I don't feign interest in that garbage. I'm trying to come to terms with the fact that I will merely exist until one day I die alone.

Everything is shit. Depression and anxiety got much worse since I started uni. Everyone thinks I’m pathetic because I don’t go out and I have no friends in a foreign country.

well, i matched with this super hot 6'1" amazonian girl that I could have had warrior babies with but I had an austismo fit and she deleted me. Here's what I said
>oh shit
>6'1"
>straight up waifu
On a scale of 1 though 10, how much should I kill myself?

Could be a married sibling of a married sibling.

Also I’ve tried Tinder but I don’t want to suck random dicks. I’m never going to fit in to the hookup culture.

>girl decides to get closer to me
>has gone from chatting with me, to play fighting

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tree fiddy

if you ever get children, they'll all come out as manlets

I'm 6'2" so I highly doubt that. I fucking suck at tinder.

>I don’t want to suck random dicks
grill or faggot?

you don't get it, the amazonian has gone back into her forest and asked her village witch to curse you

only girls i ever started talking to and got close all stopped talking to me

Does it matter? There are no girls on the internet and you’re not getting tits.

Ive managed to change my life completely in 2 months but Im starting to burnout slowly. Which is fucking awful since its really important I put my all in effort in the coming days.

The problem is my poor social life. Specifically I just fucking cant get over my ex-gf. Its been over a year now and the feels are just getting worse. I still cant even look at other women. My ex was the first person I loved and I just fucking cant move on. Im fucking dreading the day she moves on.

Going to crash pretty soon. No idea how to avoid this burn out.

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SSRI's are helping

Dick's not too happy about it though. Weak erection and it takes ages to cum...

well user, it only happened for me after two years of slowly fixing myself