Boys, I need help. This is Serious

This is gonna be a long ass read, but I need some help bad.

So back in high school, I started working out in my school's free weight area. From there on I went from 100 lbs soaking wet (with the aid of celltech) to 160 lbs at 5'11 by the time I was graduating. I hit massive gains, I went from barely curling 10s, to curling 40s in under 6 months from hard work. From being unable to bench the smith machine with 15 lbs on each side, to an actual bench with 2 45s and 2 25s. Squatting 25 pounds on each side to 2 45 and 2 35s. I never really focused on deadlift, but back then when I was trying I was doing 4 45s with clean form and slowly adding on 5-10 pounds a week. I was ass to grass, every morning, 6 am, in the gym for an hour- hour and a half. Literally skipping half my first-period class to make sure I hit lifts. This all slowly started halting.

One day pushing 55 lbs dumbbell presses, my left arm gave out and fell backward and instead of dropping the weight, I clutched it and let my arm go limp during the fall, and leaned my body to make it fall to my left. when my arms were below my pecs, I was able to tense them up again and before the weight hit the ground with me clutching it, I stopped it. At the time this hurt for a quick few seconds, I may have dislocated it for a second, I'm unsure, I've never really dislocated anything. I don't know why it went limp. Maybe it dislocated and popped itself back in? I had my headphones in so I didn't hear a pop, and I can't describe it as anything other than feeling like, my arm was about to roll, and boom it goes limp. I was a stupid teen, had the gym to myself in the early morning, thought nothing of it and continued the workout. Who cares about injuries we're freaks was the mindset at the time.

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I continued lifting until I graduated, but started noticing my strength gains were halting, I wanted to get to at least 170-180 before I started cutting. I had my diet taken care of, wasn't eating shit food, but was bulking on LOTS of rice/chicken/steak/ etc. When I graduated I lost my gym access, and couldn't afford a membership at the time. At this point, I took a break, roughly one month, continuing my diet of course and some bodyweight exercises until I could get my hands on some weights.

Next month I bought a cheap bench and some weights off back page. Some adjustable dumbbells and a cheap squat rack as well and two barbells. I continued working out in my families basement, then this is where shit started going downhill. Now, at the time I needed a job and had to get into construction. I pushed myself on the job every day and treated it like a workout, however, I started noticing during actual lifting sessions, the upper left side of my body started tensing/tiring a lot faster than my right side and this eventually caused me to plateau.

I also noticed I was struggling on the job lifting stuff I could easily lift in lbs just months ago. Such as a 40 lbs bags of dry mortar over the shoulder, that's no problem? Eventually, this plateau started demoralizing me, I was changing up my routines, adjusting my diet, and I couldn't add weight to my bench or even increase my dumbbell reps At first I thought it was a mental gap, so I said fuck it, if I drop this on myself who cares, we push through, get this set done. Sure enough, my chest/shoulder on my left side would start tensing/flaring up while my right arm had the strength to go and I'd end up dropping it on myself. This heavily fucked with me, and I still didn't see a doctor about it.

>overhead dumbbell presses*
Not regular presses, on with it.

I started slacking, and slowly my 40 lbs dumbbell curls started going down, 35, 30. Half set 30, half set 25. The bench was nearly impossible past 1 plate, I tried doing 45 lbs on each side with 2 25s and was struggling hard. Eventually, I had to lower the weight to just 2 45s, then that started going down to, 35s, 25s. All this over the course of about half a year, by the time I was 19 I just gave up on lifting, and only lifted on the odd occasion.

I went off to College and didn't lift at all for a full year, let my diet go, by the time I graduated I was 20, started trying to look for a job, and even tried to get back into lifting a bit. Struggling to even do 4 sets of 25 lbs db curls. Now, I'm 21, just turned, and I'm headed back to the gym. However my first week back, I can barely even move my left shoulder/arm, can't raise it above my head but my right arm is just fine.

Finally, I'm considering seeing a doctor. At a weight of 190.5 now, still with decently sized arms, where some guy even commented "You're only deadlifting 2 35s? "You look like you can at least do some 45 plates. put some effort into it, bro." I laughed and didn't say shit, as I'm not going to be the bitch who blames it on lack of working out/or some undiagnosed injury but fuck man. I can't even curl 25s for 4 sets of 8-12 anymore. I had to switch to 20s halfway through

Am I fucked? Should I have gone to the doctor right away back in high school? Is it too late now, or does it sound like my shoulder is fucked? Or should I just Goku it and push through the pain and stop being a bitch? Start all over, and cut while doing it? Or even just go Pop-Eye and only train right arm? Fuck Jow Forums what do I do?

No one wants your fucking life story. get to the point.

ok

Shut up faggot, i’m trying to read how I can avoid fucking my shoulder for life.

Seriously though OP, see a doctor.

Yo no one cares. Go see a professional and learn to think for yourself you idiot

My bad, I didn't know how to greentext this down in size.

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