how do I know if I have aspergers or just run of the mill insanity?
How do I know if I have aspergers or just run of the mill insanity?
You would know immediately. Do you freeze up when you look people in the eyes?
I can look people in the eyes briefly but it makes me extremely uncomfortable
feels like they're looking right through my soul
Ok. Do you have a hard time being socially active? Do you struggle with executive functioning skills like remembering to replace the shampoo every once in a while? Do you lose your shit completely over stupid minor things. Does everyone call you buddy?
If not than youre not an autist.
with the help of alcohol I can manage a few hours of interaction. as for consistent everyday interaction, no. I went on a holiday once with some people and by the third day I was so drained by peole around people I had zero energy.
unless part of my routine I find executive function quite hard. I have to write a note to remember to brush my teeth etc. i have a bad temper yes. buddy? not really
I'm the resident prof'dxed autistic, and I can dx you better than anyone
Have you ever had a IEP? have you ever been non-verbal? or you actually mute? Have you been bullied or ever hung out with someone as a friend, as someone they actually want in their life?
The secret society of autistic people usually have ptsd along with autism, and a bunch of other dxes, and we were bullied so hard that we got ptsd, since we were outcasts, if you were autistic for real you would have been part of the society we made,
Well ive been bullied my whole life but im not a part of this society. I guess you assholes dont want me to be a part of the click huh?
oh boy. that sounds exactly like me... Even down to people calling me buddy or "bud". But I never found it condescending until now.
i was bullied pretty much everyday between 5-11 until I learned how to mimic normalfags well enough to blend in. also I became physically quite athletic and started beating anyone who bullied me.
Its meant to be condescending. Ive also been told im a nice guy by men and women. I dont like being told that kind of shit. It makes me out to be a one sided person. Being told youre nice means youre plain, nerdy and socially inept.
The secret society isn't that secret, its only tumblr, we autistic people only hang out with other autistic people.
I deem you able to survive with normies, but, we have a few autistics in the society who can do that, and have wholesome irl friends, so its a lot more complicated
Well I would benefit from being a part of some kind of group like that. I dont like normal people.
people don't really tell me i'm nice. I assumed the "buddy" stuff was because i'm a manlet, but perhaps they think i'm a retard as well. Oh well, if people want to treat me that way i'm more than happy to milk it. Where my NEETbux at?
I think i'm going crazy, i've started feeling insecure and terrible if i'm not alone with my door locked in my room, I keep getting terrified without cause whilst alone too.
Just go on tumblr and find a safe space with people who are prof'dxed with Stuff
I got dxed with PTSD in high school, there's no roleplaying stuff in the safe space, the stories match up and there's people who know them IRL too who can confirm they're not catfishes
these are all true for me except losing my shit over something minor. i've got too much self control for that. am i a 'tist?
I don't really get the nice guy thing I usually get the "you look like you want to kill everybody in the room"
yup, thats what I get too. I hate people so I tend to live in my head, which tends to give me a resting scowl. People often ask if i'm okay, more than anything.
I dont lose my shit in public unless im really really pissed off about something. I usually do it in private.
might add I also get the
"haha user is so spaced out he has no idea what's going on"
or
"you're pretty quiet aren't you"
the main theme being that people seem to think that I'm purposely not engaging in them and treat me as if I'm being rude on purpose when I'm literally neutral or even happy. this is pretty much the story of my life. people always misjudge my behavior and I have no idea why. like the time when I went to the employment office and I was quite anxious and I checked my phone while lady was speaking to me and she got pissed with me because apparently that meant I wanted to leave or something
>you're pretty quiet aren't you
fuck this one hits me in the feels
t.
oh god I can relate to that so hard. Especially
>"you're pretty quiet aren't you"
and
>people seem to think that I'm purposely not engaging in them and treat me as if I'm being rude on purpose when I'm literally neutral or even happy.
I hate talking to people but back when I was working, I would just pretend I was really tired and would try to come up with sarcastic things to say, hoping people might laugh with me and not at me. I think it worked. People didn't hate me, but I shared nothing personal.
being quiet doesn't necessarily mean you're an aspie. I'm not quiet due to the fact that I don't WANT to say anything it's literally that my brain cannot keep up with normal conversation and doesn't understand the right thing to say. and if I do say something it will be so off topic or random that it weirds people out. people can just be quiet due to not wanting to say anything but with me it feels like I'm just completely on another wavelength
Eye contact feels like staring into the sun.
i'm usually disinterested in what others are saying and tune it out easily. when i am interested, it's like i'm always looking for the right time to jump in, and by then the conversation has shifted beyond the point of that topic being relevant. also, my brain skips steps. someone might say "i watched x men last night", and i might say in response "i wonder how strong of a magnet you need to crush someone's hand" ... because in less than a second i did one of those '5 degrees from kevin bacon' things. he mentioned x men. i thought of the professor, which made me think of his archenemy magneto, which made me think of magnets. i love magnets. i love powerful magnets. when is a magnet too powerful? when it can crush your hand. how strong does a magnet have to be to crush a hand? ... all of that in my mind in less time than it takes for my heart to beat once. it rarely occurs to me that it might not be relevant, or that others might not understand how i went from A to G so quickly.
also, i take things personally. even run of the mill guy talk where you give each other shit over stupid things, it feels like my personal character is under attack.
stop describing me, fucker
sorry user. i'm just trying to figure out if i unironically have the 'tism.